That smirk, his smirk. It could make me melt. One look and I had to resist the urge to grab his face and kiss him until I couldn't breathe. We had only kissed twice and he said I was his girlfriend, but that night. That one horrid night, the night that almost changed my life. The night I almost lost what could very possibly be the love of my life. The last thing I said to him before I left to my go to my grandma's house were hurtful.
Now I was sitting here on my grandma's couch thinking of Eli, especially those kisses, those two amazing kisses. Then my mind floated to the dance. They way Fitz called me a bitch, the way Eli gently pushed me away from him. I started breathing faster and faster I couldn't control it. I felt like I was hyperventilating. I calmed myself down right as Grandma walked into the room.
"Clare honey do you want to help me bake something for your parents?" she said sitting next to me on the couch.
"Sure grandma." I said very hesitant to get up.
My parents, another thought that I didn't want in my head. They had been yelling at each other for weeks. We all knew they were going to get a divorce, but neither of them would grow up and tell me. They had managed to get along for Grandma's sake. We started my make the brownies, well grandma did I sat at the table and watched while we talked. She was the only one beside Ali that I told about Eli. Which was odd I was never all that close to Gran, but ever since Grandpa died she seems mellower she didn't worry about the little things and she was more interested in my life. This was good and bad. I managed to get her to stop talking about Eli, it only made me hurt worse.
When we were done making brownies I took one upstairs. I laid down on the bed, which smelt like mothballs and old lady. I didn't mind much, partly because I was too lazy to go anything about it. I couldn't stop thinking about Eli, I wanted to talk to him so badly but I was afraid that he would be mad at me. If I was him I would never want to talk to me again. I walked to the computer and signed on to my IM, I was hoping to see Eli's screen name, but I didn't. I sighed logged off and flopped onto the bed, dust flied into the air.
I must have dozed off because I was woken up by my phone buzzing. I looked at the caller ID, Adam. I wasn't sure if I wanted to pick up, just because I wasn't really in the mood. I had the most amazing dream. Eli came to pick me up from my grandma's house and we sat in his car and made out. That was it.