A/N: In 'Doomsday' we immediately see what happens after Rose was taken to the Parallel world, to her hearing The Doctor's voice and travelling to Bad Wolf Bay. However, there has to be at few months gap there in between. If Jackie is three months pregnant, we can conclude it has been at least 3 ½-4 months (linear time), assuming Jackie and Pete conceived the first time Jackie was ovulating….and I'm assuming Pete and Jackie didn't sleep together the first day and Jackie was conveniently ovulating. So I've factoring in a few extra weeks. What could the Doctor have been doing those long months? Find out Any feedback, reviews or concrit is greatly appreciated.

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Inhale in.

Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump.

Exhale out.

Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump.

Inhale in.

Thump. Thump. Thump. Thump.

The cool contact of the hard white concrete lay beneath the thumping of my twin hearts.

I lay my head against the hard surface and listen to the rhythmic beating. I try to pretend that one of my beating hearts is hers. Pretend that I can hear her draw breath. Pretend that I can feel her presence somehow. That I can hear her. Just on the other side. Rose.

I run my palm along its surface.

Inhale In.

Exhale Out.

I've lost her. Let her slip through my fingers.

Inhale In.

Exhale Out.

This is what my vast Time Lord Brain has been reduced to; concentrating on the simple art of breathing.

I feel my frown deepen and I close my eyes. Only for a moment.

Only for a heartbeat.

Or two.

I push myself off the wall and dig my hands deep in my pockets. I take a good long look around what was Torchwood, not but hours ago, as I walk away from the wall. Away from Rose.

It's gone now. Torchwood. Hopefully forever. Everything in the room sucked into the void.

Along with everything else that has made me lose everything. Over and over again.

The Cybermen and the Daleks.

Metal clinking against metal as it's all sucked in.

If only she could have held on for a few more seconds. The void would have closed and I would still have her.

No. I mustn't think about that. I've got to get out of here, I think to myself.

I take one final deep breath and start down the never ending flight of stairs. Down, down, down.

Maybe they'll just lead me straight into hell.

They don't, but they lead me to a version of it. They lead me to an Earth where Rose Tyler does not exist. To an Earth where she is technically dead.

When I step outside of the building a cool breeze flows through my hair and I shiver slightly. I have no reservations in thinking it has anything to do with the weather.

I dig my hands deep in my pockets again and walk down the sidewalk, keeping my head down. I just need to get to my TARDIS and everything will be fine. I just need to get to my TARDIS.

I walk in circles. Not really paying attention to where I am going. I simply watch one red shoe take a step before a second red shoe follows. One foot in front of the other, hoping they'll somehow lead me to my TARDIS.

They don't and I have to lift my head to see where I'm at.

It's nowhere near my TARDIS. I can feel her, nestled in the back of my mind.

I turn around and start heading back the way I came. My body shudders again.

When I round the corner back near the Torchwood building I see her. All blue and standing tall. A stark contrast to this gray world that was neck deep in metal but an hour ago.

The Cybermen invading their homes and the Daleks invading their skies.

My footsteps increase, until I am practically jogging toward her. Toward my oldest and most faithful companion. My blue TARDIS.

I pull my key out and unlock her, and slam the door shut behind me.

I lean my back against the hard wood and slam the back of my head against the door.

Inhale in.

Exhale out.