I thought I would try and make up for lost time by writing a short Naruneji oneshot. I hope you enjoy it.
You're dead. Your dead now and I've lost you. You're dead and gone, cold six feet under the ground. You're dead and it's over.
So why are you still here?
I watched you die, in my arms with my own eyes. Impaled, you couldn't have survived. I watched you crash to the ground, in slow motion, unreal. But it happened, it definitely happened.
Maybe I'm going mad. Mad with grief. The trouble is I know I'm not, you're not a hallucination. I saw you, there in the flesh, bone and the clothes you wore the moment you died. There's no blood though, none at all. You look so peaceful, so happy. Like on the day I first fell for you. I can see you, hear you, feel you. There's no doubt. It's like nothing has changed. But everything has.
I feel so hollow, nobody can take your place. It's no fun anymore, there's nothing left. The only thing that comforts me is when you're there, lying next to me. Pale lilac eyes, calm. Your lips upturned in a smirk. And it's wrong, because you're not even alive.
I'm sleeping with ghosts.
I've reached the peak of insanity, there's such a long way to fall. Like now, You're breath tickles my neck as you sleep alongside me. I hate the way whenever the lights go out you appear, to haunt me. Only when we're alone, shrouded in darkness. I hate the memory of your fingers tracing my spine. I hate the mourning, the crying, the waking up to an empty bed. I hate the way you make me so sentimental.
Sasuke says I have become distant. He's right. Without you I see no reason to go on. The way we would have sex every night and never speak of it in the morning, so meaningful yet so meaningless.
And now I have chased your memory to here, my neck in a noose. My love, I'm coming for you.