Sometimes during those brief moments when capturing the Avatar isn't the most important thing in the world Azula looks back on her life. And when she does she doesn't bother thinking on things like "what could have been" or "what should have been". No she only thinks on memories because they are real and tangible unlike fantasies of a different life. She remembers things like the family vacations to Ember Island, as well as the times she and Zuko used to play together, and the song her mother would sing every night just before bed. If Azula thought hard enough she could almost remember; it went something like........
You Are My Sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away
Her mother may have thought she was a monster, but she had loved her, and this was all Azula needed to prove it. Whenever she thought about the song it gave her comfort and calmed her; for once it wasn't all about Zuko. She was loved too. These were the things that came to mind when she allowed herself to remember. But that was before when time used to be scarce and every second mattered. Things change and now it seemed that the princess had all the time in the world. Her place was no longer trying to catch the Avatar instead it's behind padded walls in an asylum. Her days are spent in solitude, trying to wish away the demons that torture her. They tell her how all her fears have come to true that she'll die alone and unloved .Sometimes though in the midst of the silence when she needs to hear something but her own insane ramblings and thoughts she'll start to sing. When she does it's always that same familiar song which could chase away all the bad feelings, just as it had done those many years ago. Through tears and a fading mind she began to sing the few verses that she could recall.
You'll nev..... ver know, dear,
How much I love ....you.
Please........
Please don't take my sunshine a...way
The words came out broken, but she didn't care because it wasn't about how well she sounded she just had to hear it. For it told her that even if she never escaped and she in fact did die alone in this cell she knew somewhere out there.... someone loved her.
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