AN: This is my first fic ever so be honest but don't be too brutal, please. Reviews would be really, really appreciated! Let me know if you want me to continue this story. Thanks!
Leroy Jethro Gibbs lay in bed and watched his lover sleeping. It had been a long, tiring day at work and they had rushed home for a quick dinner so they could get some sleep. While Tony DiNozzo had effortlessly drifted off, the marine found himself wide awake. As corny as it sounded, Gibbs could watch Tony sleep all night long. He never tired of seeing Tony's face whether it was peaceful in sleep, lit up with excitement, or even furrowed in anger. Tony had such an expressive face.
Gibbs knew exactly why he couldn't sleep. He and his younger lover had been discussing adding to their family. He remembered Tony bringing the topic up a few weeks ago. With a hesitant look on his face, Tony had cleared his throat and said "I've been thinking… what are your thoughts on…having something more in our lives? You know, a new addition…" he had said with a small, nervous smile. Gibbs had grinned and said "Like a puppy?" with a chuckle.
Tony had chuckled back and shifted nervously in his seat. Gibbs sobered up a little and got serious, "What kind of new addition, Tony? You mean a baby?" His lover was quiet for several seconds before answering, "Yeah, a baby. I know how much you love kids and how good you are with them. I'll be honest with you, I've never had much of a desire to have kids but lately it's on my mind a lot. Maybe I've never wanted them before but with you… with you, I find myself wanting to take that step." He babbled uncertainly with glances at Gibbs.
Gibbs had taken his time answering. "This is… huge, Tony. You need to think about this some more, I need to think about this some more, and we need to talk about this some more."
Tony said in a rush, "Oh, I know. I didn't mean we had to decide right now. I'm just saying, maybe it's something we could talk about and consider." Gibbs had softly kissed Tony on the lips before saying "Of course. We'll talk about it. It's something to think about."
Gibbs had so many conflicting feelings about it right now. They had broached the subject a couple more times with no serious decisions made. They had mostly talked about how they needed to decide, if they were to do this, did they want to adopt or go about finding a surrogate. It seemed they were leaning toward a surrogate, but that was yet to be determined.
Gibbs did love the idea of having a child. When he had lost his wife Shannon, and his only daughter, Kelly, he had been devastated. But when he did have Kelly it was the best years of his life. He knew he would love another child immensely and would enjoy having a little one around the house again.
The fact that he and Tony worked together was a big part of him holding back. If they went through with this, it would mean Gibbs retiring or Tony quitting NCIS. Was that something either of them were ready to do?