I know I'm being brave by writing, butit has been on my mind since the "whole truth" episode.

Disclaimer: I don't own Lost or any of the characters.

Sayid's POV

I remembered when I watched her while she slept. Every time I looked at her, I saw the person who killed the woman I loved. I also saw a woman who was trying to protect her people and made a mistake. Even though she is sorry and it was a mistake, it still doesn't stop it from hurting. She admitted that she knows people don't like her. It was then that I felt sorry for her. Because of what she did to Shannon, the other survivors had shunned her. I wish things would have gone differently. I don't think Shannon's death is her fault, but she has completely convinced herself otherwise.

I was on shift in the hatch. I didn't remember who my partner was, but I didn't bother getting up to check. I was taking apart and reassembling a gun when Ana walked in. She sat down on the couch next to me.

"What happened back in there?" she asked. "You could have killed him when we still need more information." I chose not to respond to that last mark. Anything I would have said would have brought us both bad memories and feelings.

"He was lying and did not give us any useful information. He was becoming useless and bothersome. Jack and Locke told me that he told them 'If I was one of them -- these people that you seem to think are your enemies -- what would I do? Well, there'd be no balloon, so I'd draw a map to a real secluded place like a cave or some underbrush -- good place for a trap -- an ambush. And when your friends got there a bunch of my people would be waiting for them. Then they'd use them to trade for me.' That's what he told them," I said. She was staring at me with wide eyes. Who could blame her?

"Damn, this guy is smart. Except saying that was stupid. He put himself in danger," she commented.

"You know if he keeps continuing to lie to us, we're going to have to eventually kill him," I said after awhile.

"I know, but which one of us is going to do it? I've killed three people since I've been on this island. Two were for self-defense, the other…" she trailed off. They both knew who the other was and the circumstances.

"Ana, it's not your fault that Shannon died. It's theirs. They put you in that position. It wasn't your fault," I said calmly.

"They didn't make me pull the trigger! I did that on my own. And I'm sorry that I did."

"Ana, stop apologizing. What's done is done and I forgive you for it." She looked at me appreciatively and smiled

"Thank you. That really means a lot coming from you," she said. I put the gun on the table and looked at her.

"You shouldn't beat yourself up about it. Alienating yourself from others won't do anything except eat at you. I know how it feels to regret something that shouldn't have happened. But it's time to move on from the past."

The space between had gotten smaller between us. She was looking at me curiously. I always what would happen between us when the air cleared. I'll find out soon enough.

I leaned over and brushed my lips with hers.

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