A/N: Hello world and all who inhabit it. It's been way too long since I've written anything and I still have a week left of Christmas break, so I will be trying to do a new story. To all my fans of "Carjack My Heart", don't worry, I will be working on revamping that story as soon as I get done with this one.
As always, I don't own Degrassi or the characters, and total credit for the title of this story, as well as the chapters, goes to Mariana's Trench and the song "So Soon". Rated M for language.
Prologue: You Say Sometimes, It's Like I Hardly Know You
I've lost her. And there's nothing I can do about it.
I thought we were in love. I thought that for once, once, I was going to be happy. And I was wrong.
I don't deserve to be happy. And she made that perfectly clear.
I can't get her voice out of my head. It keeps echoing, taunting me…"Eli, we're not meant to be together."
We are. I kept repeating that in my head, over and over again, hoping that it would make it real.
But it didn't.
She thinks we were always too different to be together. That it's like she doesn't even know me anymore. I can't say that I blame her. She was the innocent church girl, with bright eyes and a timid smile. And here I am. A fuck-up who can't even get his life under control.
But I can't do it. I can't let go of that last shred of hope that somewhere, deep in her heart, Clare Edwards still loves me. But she doesn't.
She'll find happiness, and I won't. She'll move on, and I'll still be here.
And I'll always be here.