I don't belong
I can remember standing there, the war was over. Everyone was cheering and celebrating. That's when I saw it for the first time. It was small and hardly noticeable but it was still there. It was the first smile I had ever seen from Miriallia. Even though it wasn't directed at me, I felt completely fulfilled. I knew that my job on the Archangel was done.
I took one last look at the girl who had changed my life, my beliefs. The smell of her berry shampoo flooded my senses, her hair was perfect, and her eyes drove me crazy. But I knew she was not mine nor could she ever be.
I walked to the door turning slightly to see everyone celebrating and the turned my back on them forever. I wasn't one of them, and they weren't one of my people. I didn't know where I was going, how I was going to get there or why I truly was leaving all I really knew was it was time.
As I walked past the sickbay my mind was filled with memories of her, unpleasant memories but still memories. I began to wonder if I would ever forget her. That's when I realised I…I was falling in love with her.
Even so I knew then more then ever that I had to leave, Coordinators and Naturals weren't meant to be together.
Finally I made it there; I stood looking up at it… The BUSTER. It was not only my partner in crime but it also allowed me to protect those most important to me. I enter the cockpit for what I hoped would be the last time. Firing up the thrusters I headed out. I came here…I came home………
"That is all for today Mr. Elsman" said the mysterious man. "Now have you still been having nightmares about your days in the war?"
"They are subsiding, however still happen often"
"I believe I know what the root of all of these problems you've been have are, next session I think we should talk more about this young lady"
"Yes"