I am whole yet broken. I am whole because you are with me and love me as I love you, as I will always love you for all time, yet, I am broken because I can see your pain as it reflects mine. The product of an almost disaster decision I made in a poor attempt to protect you, my heart, my soul, my only love. How wrong I was to try to keep you from a world you so rightfully belong in.
But how can I take away your mortality, knowing full well what you, and by extension me, will be giving up. How can I ask you to join me for eternity? I want, no I need to give you life, the world, everything. But I want you for always and forever. I need you by my side, loving me when I act like a tyrant. I am hopelessly in love with you.
You were always right when you said we were meant to be together. I know deep down that, one day, will always be together but I hope that I can dissuade you from these thoughts. As much I want and crave it, I will never willingly give in. Secretly, in the deepest part of myself, I hope that you and I are both wrong. No one should be condemned to this life, knowing full well what the consequences are.
Though we may argue about it, our minds are both made up. I know for a fact that you will get your way. I can never refuse you for even a minute. Maybe, just maybe, if I put it off long enough, you will change your most stubborn mind. But I doubt it. You always stick to your course once you made up your mind. It's one of the many things I love about you.
Then again, there isn't much I don't love about you, as if there was anything about you that I could not love.
From that first moment, I loved every single flaw, inch, and beauty of you. You are perfection incarnate and I will never get enough of you. I will never make the mistake again of breaking both our hearts. Neither of us will be able to live through it, for together we are strong, but divided we are weak, vulnerable, prone to misleading things that could destroy us. I never knew what heart break was until that fateful day and I never wish to experience it again.
I lay broken on the floor, begging you to forgive me for the worst decision of both our lives. I need you to pick up my pieces and put me back together. Only you can make me whole. You are my other way, keeper of my heart and ruler of every thought. Please, put me back together. I hopelessly and desperately love you. With every particle of my being, I love you and will always love you. For ever and ever. Now and always.