This is a prequel to Rikku's Feelings. If you like this story then I
suggest you read the other two stories in the trilogy: Rikku's Feelings and
The Night Before Sin. On the morning of the battle with Sin, Rikku never
receives this letter for some unknown reason.
Rikku,
As I watched you sleep in my arms last night, I did much thinking. After we defeat Sin, I will ask Yuna to send me. I would rather have you hate me than have you love me. Loving me will give you pain, hating me will relieve you of that pain. Allow me to explain....you deserve someone who can fill your life with joy instead of misery. Staying with me would only complicate your life.
I know that you love your father, but how would he feel about you being in love with someone who is not Al Bhed. We both know how persistent he is. Cid would go to extreme lengths to stop you from loving me. This is just one of many problems that will occur.
I thought about traveling alone, but that would not solve our dilemma. You would search for me....you waste your life looking for me. You are still young, why waste your life on an old man like myself. I cannot allow that. Rikku, I can only offer you my love....I can't promise you anything else. From the bottom of my heart and soul, I'm asking you to move on and find someone that can love you the way you desire.
We come from two different worlds that cannot coexist with one other. I'm sorry that I got your hopes up. I'm sorry that I promise I would take you to the lake. I'm sorry, Rikku. I know saying this will not make this any easier, but I love you. You are the best thing that has ever entered into my life. You are the light that shattered my darkness from my heart. Last night was the first time in a long time that I felt truly happy. Listen, you have done nothing wrong. In a short time, too much evil have been exposed to your life...you do not need me to create more evil into your life. I'm not doing what my head is saying...I'm doing what my heart is saying. I'm doing what is best for you and your future.
Love,
Auron
Rikku,
As I watched you sleep in my arms last night, I did much thinking. After we defeat Sin, I will ask Yuna to send me. I would rather have you hate me than have you love me. Loving me will give you pain, hating me will relieve you of that pain. Allow me to explain....you deserve someone who can fill your life with joy instead of misery. Staying with me would only complicate your life.
I know that you love your father, but how would he feel about you being in love with someone who is not Al Bhed. We both know how persistent he is. Cid would go to extreme lengths to stop you from loving me. This is just one of many problems that will occur.
I thought about traveling alone, but that would not solve our dilemma. You would search for me....you waste your life looking for me. You are still young, why waste your life on an old man like myself. I cannot allow that. Rikku, I can only offer you my love....I can't promise you anything else. From the bottom of my heart and soul, I'm asking you to move on and find someone that can love you the way you desire.
We come from two different worlds that cannot coexist with one other. I'm sorry that I got your hopes up. I'm sorry that I promise I would take you to the lake. I'm sorry, Rikku. I know saying this will not make this any easier, but I love you. You are the best thing that has ever entered into my life. You are the light that shattered my darkness from my heart. Last night was the first time in a long time that I felt truly happy. Listen, you have done nothing wrong. In a short time, too much evil have been exposed to your life...you do not need me to create more evil into your life. I'm not doing what my head is saying...I'm doing what my heart is saying. I'm doing what is best for you and your future.
Love,
Auron