The White Rose Bled Crimson
Chapter 1 Truth and Sacrifice
By Inuyashas Youkai
In dark of night , where the moon appears sitting next to you,almost close enough to touch ,when you reach up to make contact the image slips thru your fingertips. In moments to come the image returns if only to taunt within orbs shrouded in blurry salt and crimson .If only to dangle what the heart so desperately desires,then abruptly remove until the last string of sanity is frayed and destroyed.
In result leaving nothing but the emptiness, feeling numb within ,that is until fact overcomes denial, leaving jealousy and hatred to consume. Shaken by the unknown she had awoken ,only now regretting it as she lay broken on the hard,cold, and unforgiving forest floor. Morning rays alerted her to the sun's awakening warming what little form remained visible.
Voices alerted to the upcoming questions leading to the answers she would rather left unknown,even to her forgotten, though she knew that was impossible. For the mental pictures held within her mind kept reminding her that notion ,would only be a lie. Delicate hands only camouflaged in her own life source,disguised in crimson,up towards her chest toward the would to pull the protruding object her form was rejecting.
Within a short time in her grasp the object disintegrated thru her grasped fingertips,followed by a short cry of pain. Forcing her mind to command her muscles to move as dizziness overtook her skull pounding out its stubbornness to remain still. Determination overcame her will, as she forced her body to slowly stand to lean against a nearby tree.
Shaking the remaining disorientation from her, she overlooked herself to identify the extent of injury. Deciding she'd leave to bathe before the voices found faces focusing on her with scrutiny, she hobbled away from the scene before her. Soon finding solace in the comforting blanket of the nearby hot springs to find temporary peace and relaxation,second to cleansing.
Hours following it seemed before she destined to prune stepped out ,dried, and dressed in attire she picked up at the campsite ,while everyone was out ,most likely in search for her. Everyone, except maybe for one and she couldn't fathom to the whereabouts of that person, though desperately hoped that it remained in that place. Unknown.
Happily, she decided that it was time to eat in agreement to her stomach's language alerting her as such. In no time she was scarfing down unfortunate fish that decided to travel in the wrong place and bad timing. It was true her comrades had taught her a lot of things journeying with them,also helped being a quick learner and having good teachers. She had found fishing second nature and felt grateful for it to be so.
Afterwords, she found a decent cave to find silence in for she needed to think as of what to do next. Before getting settled in her new surroundings though, something happened.
It was something that was slightly off of anything she would ever come across in normal circumstances. Though painful,and rightfully so a horrid sound reached her ears throbbing and pulsing within her skull. Causing her hands to grasp the sides of her head, hurriedly as to stop the chaos raging through her being.
To what seemed to be made into a pattern, the pain surged to her core causing something to snap, within her. The pain carried onto rhythmic proportions, continuing as they worsened .
Pulse thud thud...PULSE THUD THUD...Snap...
Then there..Was nothing , no pain , no noise, no pulsing,no thudding, felt within the girl that now lay unconscious. A burst of white shown in her minds eyes following whatever snapped, then nothing as she became a lifeless mindless form. A masterpiece as she lay silent appearing to be waiting for something,Like putty in someones hands waiting to be formed.
Frozen in time with eyes no longer looking as they stared ahead seeing nothing but white, lips of crimson remain unbruised to loves passion, her heart never seeing the light of day unless it was commanded to do so. As it stood in reality her destiny until deemed otherwise was to remain to this light being her prison.
Trapped.
Outside her confinement voices were spoken calling her name .Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Kirara were all looking for her. Though as time would have it , Inuyasha was the one to sniff her out slightly concerned about the stale blood scent clinging to her .The hanyou looked her over within the darkness that Kagome lay, trying to rouse her spirit that now lay dormant.
Without a response the hanyou became worried, as she drooped in his embrace, but walked towards the rest of the group. His eyes, curtained by strands of hair released teardrops,that could no longer be contained. For in the back of his mind, knew something that the rest of him didn't want to accept,and somehow, someway, it was his fault.
This he knew with certainty. He didn't protect her and now she seemed lost to him,leaving him absolutely, completely alone. Before walking out the mouth's entrance to the cave,he froze looking down at the paling form within his arms. Noting each characteristic on the shell that held his heart, lacking any life that deemed her as his Kagome.
While at the same time, letting his mind flow through the pictures letting them play out in sync. In the end of his pondering, he questioned himself .
'How could I let this happen ?'
'How could I just let her die?'
Taking one of his clawed fingertips, he gently stroked the side of her face, starting from her cheekbones and ending to her slender chin. Tears slowly poured from his eyes, and as he did this, the hanyou spoke to her, at the same time to nobody at all.
" I know I never told you Kagome, all the things I should have, I Know I should have shown you more things that I didn't. Although I have my reasons it just doesn't seem right to keep them from you anymore."
"Kagome I..I" ..
Before Inuyasha could finish his sentence,he noticed a few things happen. The first was her beat of her heartbeat growing stronger and her scent becoming more potent. Her eyes fluttering open to unveil a dark crimson in their place,causing the hanyou to stutter nervously getting unnerved to the implications it served,almost dropping her .In a voice slightly not her own Kagome spoke.
" Whats wrong Inuyasha, did I mess with your thoughts? Put Me down !"
"Ka.. go.. me I .."
Inuyasha replied softly totally confused, attempting to regain himself, as he set the priestess to her feet.
"Kagome..?"
Inuyasha started to say then was distracted by the scent clinging to hers. He paused in his thought to raise his nose to get a better catch of the suspect. His eyes grew large,turning slightly his gaze caught Kagome's, though hers remained unfazed by his discovery. As their gaze took hold memories forgotten flooded Inuyasha mind all within a short moment .
Stepping back in response until he had hit the wall behind where the were currently standing, then sliding to the floor with the wall being his anchor. It wasn't all of what he had done that disturbed Inuyasha,but it is what he had allowed to happen that irked him,without a second thought. Though he wasn't present for some of it, the hanyou had gathered the rest within her eyes, for they spoke volumes.
In the end , Inuyasha, did in fact choose Kikyo between the two priestesses he had grown fond of , though it wasn't what you thought .Inuyasha had only chosen her , because he had felt he owed her, not for the love he had once felt . Granted he had still loved her ,though it was an old love ,his first love.
Regardless this was not the immediate issue, because the real one was that, in reality his demonic part of himself worked against him in this decision. Taking the choice of his heart that his demon part had already deemed as his mate and had taken her, marking her as such. Unfortunately ,that wasn't all , that happened when he had transformed and marked her , he had pupped her as well.
When Inuyasha returned to himself, he had gone to Kikyo,rejecting his mate and his pup. In his absence Naraku had showed and taken Kagome from the rest of the group, regardless of their efforts. When I was alerted to the events that had passed , with exception to the more recent revelations,and had searched for her nonstop with the rest of the group.
We all had our doubts that we had found Kagome alive, though the proof that she was alive made true, and the fact that she is, only supports my guess that Naraku is definitely controlling her, at least trying to. Probably by a shard of the Shikon jewel, easily done with her broken resolve and shattered ties, the hanyou fathomed. Through these change of events, definitely changes things now only to figure out how to change the circumstances.
Not that he had any ill feelings to what happened only now, it was because of his initial rejection and abandonment of his mate regardless of how it came to be,only caused his mate and unborn child to be in the palm of Naraku's greasy, grimy, and vial hands. This angered the hanyou so much that he scared Kagome as his fist came crashing into one of the cave's walls cracking the stone a bit.
Noticing this Inuyasha froze ,as he felt the signs of a war brewing within his mate.
"Inu..yasha.. leave me please " Kagome stated as she had a very brief moment of herself.
Turning back towards her in awe ,regardless what he had done to her, all of it ,she still protected him.
" No" Inuyasha sighed quietly,while watching her eyes flicker between color hues.
"What do you mean NO? " Kagome strained voice told of her brewing frustration towards the hanyou across from her, not heeding her pleas.
"Just what I said, Dammit Kagome, I can't leave !"Inuyasha spat at his mate louder than he meant to.
" Why not just leave and go back to Kikyo, its what you wanted , is it not?"Kagome questioned as she eased in and out of the lure of her master, evident in her voice .
In the end of her command she temporarily lost her battle to Naraku, presently in control of the situation. Her eyes faded, becoming lifeless orbs, sadly witnessed by Inuyasha's very eyes. A hideous cackle resounded in the cave ,hinting towards the presence of the other responsible. Naraku.
"Naraku!, that's it come on out so I can kill you and take back what's mine!"Inuyasha seethed.
In response a more vial hysterical laugh was Inuyasha's answer.
"Inuyasha, a little greedy aren't we? Besides , I only gave her the very thing she wanted Inuyasha ." Naraku returned.
Without thinking Inuyasha retorted
"What in the hell could she ever want from a hideous creature like you?"
" The very thing that you couldn't give her .. To feel loved, wanted , and to know longer feel the pain. The pain that you caused , almost made it too easy. Not to mention the blood loss, after your chosen mate tried to kill her with a sacred arrow, to destroy the abomination she represented. So you see I did her a favor for becoming my servant. She will be protected, loved,no longer feel the pain that consumed her soul, and the whelp that resides within her will get the same.. For becoming apart of me."
Inuyasha felt his blood boil inside him, humbled by the fact that he had contributed to Naraku's cause, and for that, he risks losing his mate and the pup, one that he didn't know he had till it was too late.
" Like hell ,I am going to just hand my family over to you" Inuyasha spat with vengeance.
"Why, would you bother with her ,she's not your family,you rejected her as your mate along with your orphaned pup ?"
"I I I didn't know I had mated her at the time "he shuddered as Inuyasha fell to his knees.
Inuyasha singled out the sight of Kagome's glazed over eyes, as tears again showed themselves in devastation. In one moment the hanyou lost everything to the bastard standing behind Kagome and to top it off it's all his fault.
"Kagome …, If you can hear me ? Open you eyes and look at me ? Please look at me Kagome? "
In one fluid motion Kagome then turned her gaze towards him to meet Inuyasha's eyes. Surprised ,that she granted him what might be his last look into her now deep demonic eyes, and felt humbled by the gesture. Taking a moment to just hold her within his gaze, as he realized in awe that she had transformed.
In place of her ears, she had silver appendages atop of her head, purple jagged stripes lining her orbs of crimson, her body seemed to be more toned ,and her hair darkened ,except her bangs now silver. He shook himself out of his daze ,then returned his gaze to her once more.
" Kagome , I can't leave you ,I won't leave you , I can't give you and my pup up like this! Like it or not , Kagome , you are my mate "
Kagome's only response was a vigorous shake of her head as pain erupted in her skull , causing a whine to escape her lips. Once Kagome regained her composure now in a fetal position, she looked to her master , Naraku. Silently begging for the pain to cease in whines and yips ,as the pain spread to her chest where the wound hit her in the heart.
While watching the scene playing out in front of him, Inuyasha felt his heart felt his heart break .Kagome the girl that had so much spirit, and now was broken down to resort to beg for relief of the pain from a monster.
" Stop It Kagome!" Naraku spat as he backhanded her sending her flying towards the wall, smacking her form with thud.
Inuyasha's blood seared his skin in fury as his mate was hit.
"Don't you touch her, she's mine! " Inuyasha spat .
Running towards the spot she fell ,just in time to catch her from falling.
"Kagome are you alright?"
Inuyasha spoke softly while now holding her gaze . She just looked at him nodding even she felt the opposite.
"Inuyasha you don't have to worry about us anymore, Kikyo needs you ."Kagome whispered ,letting her hands fall from the sides of his face in defeat, as her breathing slowed and her voice became raspy in the end.
"Kagome?" Inuyasha called her persistently.
"Hmm? "Kagome silently said between gasps for air.
"Don't leave me ...Kagome, please"
"Kikyo may in fact need me but I need you more. wont give you up without a fight, Kagome. I know it's hard and I am so sorry I let this happen . You don't know how it pains me to see you and my pup like this. I can fix this Kagome, I know I can .I wont let Naraku have you ".
Kagome not even listening between the lines as to what he was saying spoke her last words before Naraku took a hold of her mind once more.
"Why, it doesn't matter anymore? I know I am not Kikyo, but I will do what I was intended to destroy Naraku and purify the jewel .I know you weren't yourself when you claimed me as your mate and pupped me ,so I forgive you . My last gift to you ,Inuyasha after I pass, I will give my soul to Kikyofor you"
"Kagome, no you wont ! I wont let you sacrifice yourself and my child, to do this all yourself ,and give your soul to Kikyo! "
Kagome stood on her own accord without Inuyasha's help, then walking towards him, pausing only long enough to capture his gaze, before leaping towards him in a farewell embrace,which Inuyasha gladly accepted as he returned it with gusto. Breathing in her scent , Inuyasha spoke in her ears
" I meant what I said Kagome , Don't give up on me I will get my family back "
Kagome replied "No , Inuyasha you weren't supposed to be with me . I understand that now, you owe me nothing . I don't blame you for anything . I knew the truth Inuyasha but I was being selfish and foolish to believe other than you were meant for Kikyo and I am sorry"
" Fuck Kikyo! Kagome, please" Inuyasha cried desperately into her hair, holding her tightly to her chest.
" I am so sorry Kagome I never told you the truth ,so sorry I messed everything up for us. You have nothing to be sorry about ...Nothing . This was all me ! Just please promise me something Kagome " The hanyou begged silently against her mate mark .
" Inuyasha I got to go I am loosing ground with Naraku " Kagome warned.
" I know your hurting and your tired Kagome but just listen. Whatever your planning on doing, please wait Kagome .Don't give up on me just yet, I will get you and my pup back . Nothing else matters but that now . This, I promise you , then I will fix things ,making you see."Inuyasha finished by laying a small kiss upon her mate mark, made to calm her .
Unbeknownst to the hanyou a blinding pain built up with Kagome,made a shrilling sound within her sensitive ears , causing Kagome to whine and yip.
"Whats wrong Kagome?" Inuyasha asked with concern .
No response just the sounds coming her getting louder . Inuyasha, released her leaning her against the wall in a standing position. Kagome pushed him away as her blank crimson eyes had returned to her , snarling at him ,as she walked away out of the cave, then disappeared . Inuyasha walked out , not at all surprised that she wasn't seen .
The Hanyou sighed then looking towards the bright skies. Shorty after , distracted by their friends yelling for him , because of their efforts getting thru the barrier failed, were worried for them. Inuyasha explained the situation, bringing the mood towards grim, but his determination was their inspiration to better the groups mood.
In his heart, Inuyasha would travel to the ends of the earth to find them . Though his mind was reeling in the question if she would survive until then ? Only time will tell ..
To be continued...