It hurts.
It hurts to know that the last person on earth you had no longer cares for you.
That person loves another. Desires another.
Is this how you feel, Ciel Phantomhive? How can you survive like this?
Your world...is so bleak.
So hopeless.
You don't love your demon; your destiny.
You don't love anyone. Even your fiancée's smile drives another stake into your own heart, knowing that she will never marry you, that her love is wasted.
Do you often wonder how these people can live on? How can they smile? Do they realize how cruel the world is?
But they are loved. And they love someone. So I guess they can struggle on.
But you and I...how did we become like this?
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Your questions...I've voiced the same in my own heart. No one answers.
To live under the shadow that constantly wants to swallow you whole. While you embraced it, Alois, I merely looked away.
I shielded myself with pride and arrogance, I'm ashamed to admit. But it was like a walking stick and a mask for me, something to prop myself on.
Sometimes...I feel I should have died. I should have perished in those red, blazing flames along with my parents.
But you...you've had it worse than me, haven't you? No parents, just the added responsibility of a younger brother.
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At least we had each other.
And now in this darkness, I have you.
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Have you ever thought about your butler?
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What do you mean?
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They're not human. What would Claude have thought about your love?
And Sebastian...I wonder, if he ever felt any attachment to me whatsoever, besides being his long-awaited dessert.
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I liked to pretend that Claude was my guardian angel...a fallen one, perfect for a defiled little boy.
I don't think we'll ever know whether they love us or not. We may just be dishes for them.
They desire you so much, Ciel.
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I can feel you fading away, Alois.
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Claude has fallen. That's rather strange...how can a demon fall? Will he just sink farther into darkness?
No matter. Wherever I'm going, he'll wait for me. And Hannah. And Luca.
What about you Ciel? Want to come along?
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Perhaps.
But I still have things to do.
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Ciel...
We are damned. Ever since we laid eyes on those demons we've been damned.
How much longer do you wish to suffer?
For an eternity?
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I don't know. I just don't know anymore.