Unrequited love hurts. People say that a lot, but until you've experienced it, you can't truly understand it.
It all started with that stupid kiss. That horrible, pointless, wonderful... yet still 'nice' kiss. We were in the auditorium (cliché), I sang him a song (another cliché), then crushed my lips to his. It wasn't awkward, per se. We both kissed, I'm pretty sure he only kissed back because of his courtesy complex. It was nice. Just nice. He let me be the one to break it off. He also sat there as I confessed my love using my wonderful word vomit skills. I watched his face become conflicted and contorted with an expression best described as... as pain? Suffering? Guilt?
He went on to explain; I was strictly his friend in his eyes, nothing like that was possible. I nodded and he gave me a platonic hug then left. I seamlessly melted to the floor. I told myself not to cry, then changed my mind as the sobs threatened to overtake me. So I sat in the auditorium for one hour, thirty two minutes, before Wes and David found me. I just sat there as they looked at me. They obviously wanted an explanation. I gave them the easier one.
"Blaine, I told him," then the tears came again.
"Oh luv," Wes said. These (very extremely platonic) terms of endearment seemed to flow easily from his mouth whenever something negative was going on. He pulled my head onto his shoulder, sitting next to me. Wes and I sent David (or Wes sent, I shooed) off to go find Blaine. I needed to know we could still be friends because otherwise, I will lose all of my Dalton friends (if Wes and David side with Blaine) that I can hang out with besides at Warblers. I sighed and helped myself off the floor.
Wes walked me to classes all day and managed to get me a manageable grade on the oral quiz. I thanked him on overtime with my eyes. He just shrugged nonchalantly, every time. I loved that about him, his ability to make me breathe again, laugh again, smile again. Because God knows I wouldn't find that anywhere else.
And another thought, am I really falling for a straight guy... again?