Welcome to the story!
Vixon: Hello fellow BBXRae fans! Thanks for reading my story!
BB: Why am I here?
Vixon: Cuz you're awesome, now say it!
BB: Why can't Raven say it?
Vixon: Fine! Raaaaaaven!
Raven: What?
Vixon: Could you please-
Raven: No.
Vixon: Fine, none of us'll say it.
Disclaimer: Just by seeing that word you should know that Vixon owns only her keyboard and brain, no characters or places or anything else belong to her, just the story idea.
Ps: words written like this are Raven's thoughts, and words like this are BB's.
On with the story!
"Beastboy!" she called as she ran down the long hall. The green figure stopped walking and turned around as she ran.
"Hey, Raven! What's up?" he asked, smiling as always.
"Yeah, Rae, something wrong?" came a third voice. Raven froze. She knew that voice. No, it couldn't be, not now, not after-
"Oh yeah, did I tell you Terra's back?" Beastboy asked excitedly. Raven felt something snap in side her chest area.
"Oh, that's great, well, I'll…., I'll see you around, then." she said and turned around, pulling her hood up to hide her eyes, hoping no one noticed the water threatening to leap from her eyes.
"Wait, didn't you want something?" the green teen asked, confused now.
"Oh, let her go, BB, she's just a little sour." Terra answered him. Raven walked down the hall away from the couple, trying to block out their voices, but she could hear the entire conversation.
"Why, do you know something I don't?"
Of course. He was always so damn clueless.
"Just think of it as a girl thing, nothing to worry about, she'll be fine later. If you want I could talk to her, if it'll help you rest easier."
Yeah, that's what I need, you to talk to me.
"Well, nah, she'll be fine, right? Let's just go goof off downtown or something, hey you wanna get a pizza?"
So much for friends.
"Sure!"
Even my enemies don't care. Amazing.
"Kay then. Bye guys, me and Terra are heading out!"
I wonder if they notice the shards of my heart on the floor over there…
"See ya, BB, y'all behave!"
Guess not…
"Glorious friends Beastboy and Terra! Be sure to have lots of the fun!"
Maybe I'll just curl up in my room for the rest of my life…
"Be back in about an hour you two, we have training scheduled."
…with a lifetime supply of tea…
The sound of the door shutting echoed through the entire tower as the violet haired adolescent walked down the hall towards her room, her heart left in pieces on the other side of the building.
Maybe I'll move out, quit the team…
She stood in front of her bedroom door, staring up at the letters forming her name.
…they can paint over that…
The door slid open and she entered her dark room, heading straight for the nearest bookshelf.
Maybe I'll find comfort in one of these…
She pulled down a novel and headed for her bed, sitting down on the edge and losing herself in the story.
Her peace was interrupted shortly when she heard the door close as the others went up on the roof to goof off. She sighed and searched for her place, then continued reading.
Again her peace was disrupted by a sound from the kitchen. Sighing, she shut her book and went to investigate. She soon wished she hadn't.
Violet eyes met blue ones as the hooded teen entered the common room. A certain green adolescent was the cause of the noise as he searched through the cabinets.
"Hey Raven, feeling better?" the blonde asked sweetly. Too sweetly.
Mock me while you can, you'll pay for it later…
"I though you guys went downtown." said the violet haired girl.
"Oh, well we changed our mind," Terra lied.
"I don't believe you."
"Why not?"
"Because I can sense when you're lying, stupid."
"Well that wasn't a very nice thing to say." the blonde smirked.
I'm warning you, you'll regret mocking me…
"So?"
"Hey Raven, do you know where Cy moved the frying pans?" the green boy interrupted the girls' silent war.
"No." she said simply.
"BB, let me help you," the blonde said and rushed over like a dog eager to please it's master. The changeling grinned at her offer and sidestepped so she could search the cabinets herself.
"Beastboy, could you manage to boil some water for me, I want to make tea, but the area is too crowded." Raven said in her typical monotone.
"Sure Raven." came the reply and he began to do the simple task. Terra growled slightly.
"You ok, Terra?" asked the green boy, concerned.
"I, just have a sore throat, I guess." she lied.
"You're not sick, are you?" he asked, worried now.
"No, I probably just over used my voice, or something…"
"Oh, ok then."
Of course he'd fall for that. Oh well, might as well…
"How?" Raven asked in a would be innocent voice if both girls hadn't known exactly what he was doing.
"Uh, well, you see, um…"
"Lay off her, Raven." Beastboy interjected.
"Yeah, why are you always so mean to me, Raven?" The blonde was smirking now.
"Because I don't like you." she answered simply. It was obvious, after all.
"Well why not? I like you."
Raven snorted at this, in a very un-raven-y manner.
"I'm sure you do." she said sarcastically.
"Then why don't you like me?"
"You're a backstabber, first of all."
"That wasn't my fault."
"HOW WAS IT NOT YOUR FAULT!"
The toaster burst into flames as the violet haired teen yelled. Immediately both girls let out a small shriek. The fire alarm went off and the sprinklers put the fire out. The other two looked at Raven, a look of shock on the boy's face, one of loathing on the girl's. Raven turned on her heel and stormed off to her room. Terra got up and ran after her.
"Raven, open the door, or I'll tell everyone your secret!" came the voice through her door. Raven glared at the door but opened it.
"Secret?"
"You know what I'm talking about." said the blonde as she let herself into the room, the door shutting behind her.
"Please, come in." Raven said sarcastically.
"But, you know, Beastboy already knows, of course."
"Knows what?"
"Your feelings for him."
Raven felt herself blush, but it was hidden in the shadow of her hood.
He knows? Or is she just messing with me?
"I honestly have no idea what you're talking about."
"You said you can tell when I'm lying, am I lying when I say it's obvious how you feel about Beastboy?" the unwelcome guest sneered.
She's not…so he really does know?
Raven felt stupid.
He knew? I'd been trying to pull up the nerve to tell him myself, but every attempt I made, I crashed halfway through and quickly jumped topics in the conversation, or turned and went back to my room before I found him. I'd been trying again this morning, until the She-devil appeared.
"I assure you you're imagining things."
"Lie all you want, but when it comes down to the truth, he knows, and to be honest, it's kind of making him uncomfortable. Haven't you noticed he acts differently around you?"
Well, he does, but I thought, maybe, he like me, and he was just as nervous near me as I was, I can't believe, this whole time, he's just…
The blonde, knowing her work was done here, got up and left happily.
Later that night…
Raven didn't come to dinner, instead she headed straight to the roof to meditate. She'd been fighting tears ever since Terra came to have her little 'chat' today. Starfire and Beastboy were worried, but the rest of the team told them to give her some space, and assured them that she'd be fine later. Starfire accepted it, but Beastboy refused and went up to the roof to see for himself.
Raven heard him coming and tried to pretend he wasn't there, but he started talking to her.
"Raven, you ok? You seem a bit un-raven-ish today." he said.
He's making up words already, he must be pretty worried…
"'Un-raven-ish?'"
Well that sounded like the real her, that's good.
"Well, yeah. You're not acting like yourself, not really."
No duh…
"Don't worry about me, it's nothing."
She's lying again. I wonder what's wrong? And why doesn't she ever open up to anyone?
"Liar. Please tell me." he said as he walked over to her. She had given up on meditating and just sat with her legs dangling off the side of the roof. He sat down by her and looked at her, but she turned away, to hide the water building up in her eyes.
"Why are you so damn nosey?" she responded.
"'Cause I care." he answered, still looking at her.
Damn it, don't say that!
Raven felt the water pushing to fall down her cheeks. She discreetly wiped it out of her eyes and continued to keep her face out of the boy's view.
"Why do you care about me?"
"Because we're friends."
"Not really, I hate you, remember? We're always fighting."
"So? Me and Cy fight all the time, we're still pals."
"Go away."
"I don't want to."
"Why not, you could be hanging out with Terra right now."
"Is that why you're upset? Terra? She never did anything to y-"
"She betrayed us ALL!"
"Well, yeah, but, everyone else forgave her…"
"Well she didn't say to you what she said to me."
"What'd she say?"
"It's none of your concern."
"Why not?"
"Because, well you already know, so it doesn't matter."
"What do I know?"
That,
"Forget it."
"No, tell me."
I,
"No."
"Please?"
Love,
"Don't look at me like that, please."
"Then tell me."
You.
"I…, don't want to."
"Why not?"
"Because, you don't feel the same."
"What do you mean?"
Raven felt her control slipping, she felt the hot tears run down her face, she took a shuddering breath.
"Raven, are.., are you crying?"
"No."
"You are. Look at me," he pulled her face to face him. He'd grown over the summer and now she had to look up ever so slightly at him. He gently brushed the tears away, but they didn't stop falling and he gave up and let them fall.
"What do you mean, I won't feel the same?"
"Damn it, why are you so clueless!" Raven erupted and buried her face in his chest, sobbing now.
"Wh-what?" Beastboy said in surprise as she buried herself in him.
"I love you, damn it!" she sobbed, now pounding her fists into him. He blinked and stared down at her. He gently but firmly grabbed her shoulders and pulled her away from his chest. As soon as she felt his gaze hit her she cried harder. He tried to tilt her head to look up at him, but she fought back and he gave in, watching helplessly as she sobbed in his arms, her eyes shut as tight as possible to block out her sight, afraid of what his expression was. He bit his lip as he tried to think of a way to get her to stop crying. Only one way came to mind, but he was scared.
How will she react?
He took a deep breath and leaned in. He gently placed his lips on hers. Immediately he melted.
This, feels…so right…it feels like I should have done this years ago…
Raven unconsciously allowed herself to get lost in the kiss as well, to confused about the world and her feelings to think about anything. Slowly her thoughts returned to her and she pulled away from him.
No…
"I.., I.."
No, I can't, I won't, Terra said,
Raven burst back into tears and buried herself in his chest again. The confused changeling carefully pulled her into his lap and gently stroked her back as she cried.
"Shhh, it's ok now, everything will be ok, let it all out." he murmured softly to her. He noticed just how nice her scent was. He'd always known he could pick up scents, like a dog, but he never noticed how fitting the were to their owners. Terra smelled the way it smelled outside in the summer right after it rains, the mingled scent of fresh mud and the forest dancing through the air. Starfire smelled like some kind of fruit, not quite strawberries, not quite peaches, clearly something alien, but still really sweet. And Raven's scent was like a bookstore, the scent of new and old books mingled together, and also a mixture of herbs and spices, lavender and cinnamon the most evident.
She had stopped crying now, and was just snuggling into him, comfortable and safe in his arms. If she hadn't been through all the drama of the day she might have noticed her powers weren't setting anything off. She might have wondered why. She might have noticed the alien girl trying to hide her giggles as she watched the couple, or the blonde who looked as if she'd been slapped multiple times across the face, or the two boys grinning in approval at their friends. But she had been through all the drama of that day, and so she didn't notice them. In fact she didn't notice anything except for the soothing rhythm of the boy's hand stroking her back and calming heartbeat that gently lulled her to sleep in his lap.
The only other thing she noticed was his gentle whisper just before she fell asleep.
"I love you, Rae."