Hola, I'm starting this project and hopefully I'll upload it at least twice a week, well I'm on summer break here so I supposed I'll get my lazy ass to write on a daily basis for now.

This chapter is based on the song Angel by Jack Johnson, you all should give it a listen.

OH! And I promise there will be funnier and more romantic chapters, turns out I really like hurting myself and writing angst-y Kames, but I swear it won't be every chapter.

Feedback is always appreciated, and if you guys have a song that you want me to write you should pm me about it, maybe I'll fit them in :)

Enjoy!

James always thought that if angels existed, Kendall was like, the angel... king? Or whatever. He would always have a way to impress James with his undeniable and endless kindness. He absolutely adored the blond boy, how he would always put himself behind to help the ones he loved – and even the ones he didn't know but loved anyway, because according to him people make bad things because of the lack of love in this world. And he was damn sure he would change that. – Kendall would always try to change the things around him for a better way. And even when he wasn't trying, just one genuine smile from the green eyed beauty the world would instantly be brighter and better.

And James made it his mission on life: To make Kendall smile. Maybe it was because every time he would see the set of pearly white teeth with full, pink and plump lips to match. His stomach would do these weird things and his heart would beat so fucking fast and all he wanted to do was smile too.

It was kind of ridiculous how much he loved Kendall, and the boy was so oblivious about it sometimes it made James head feel like it was exploding because Kendall was so stupid.

Anyway, this is not the point here. The point is, Kendall was James' angel, and James just wanted to let him know that.

James was on his way to apartment 2J when he heard soft sniffles coming from a few ways up the stairs. He followed them and was at first surprised to see Kendall so fragile sitting on the corner, the blond didn't seem to notice the taller brunette there. Less than a second after James was already by his side with a hand on Kendall's cheek and the blond looked up, eyes full of fear and vulnerability. And it absolutely killed James, that was not the Kendall he knew.

"Kenny what's wrong?" He asked and the blond just leaned into his friend's chest and sobbed quietly. James' hand found their way to the younger's hair and patted them gently. "Are you okay?" The blond just shook his head. "Do you wanna talk about it?" A shake of head once again. James took a deep breath and sighed. "Do you want me to leave?" Kendall just crawled closer to James, now straddling the elder's lap, legs locked around his waist and hands clutching his shirt while he cried into the tan neck.

After a few minutes – or it could have been hours, James had no clue. – Kendall mumbled something along the lines of his dad. "What?" James asked, his hand stopping it's constant up and down the blond's back.

"I miss him. My dad." Kendall whispered, not really looking up, just absent-mentally playing with James' fingers that weren't on his hips. "Today it completes 8 years he's dead." Kendall continued, James' hand returning on running up and down his back. He knew how much Kendall's dad meant to him, Mr. Knight was Kendall's angel. "And I didn't want to remind my mom, even thought she remembers... Just didn't want to cry in front of her and Katie." He said before leaning back and giving James a sad smile. The taller boy hadn't said a word since he started talking. "You shouldn't have found me." He whispered while playing with the buttons of his shirt.

"Why not?" James' voice was soothing, and Kendall was grateful his best friend was with him. "I don't like seeing you like this, Kendall." He completed.

"I don't want you to see me like this." The blond mumbled and ducked his head down only to be pulled up by James' index finger. "I'm supposed to be strong; for you guys." Kendall whispered ashamedly, his green eyes staring into James' hazel ones.

"You don't have to always be strong." James assured. "Angels also have their down days." He said, pulling the blond into his chest once again. "You don't have to act tough in front of me Kendall, you know that."

"I know, thanks James." Kendall said before placing a chaste kiss on the brunette's neck. "I'm not an angel though." He whispered.

"Yeah you are, you're my angel." James murmured with his lips pressed to Kendall's hair. "And I love you." He whispered, making Kendall look up, he stared from James' eyes to his lips while said boy did the same to him. Before he could over think it, Kendall leaned up and pressed his lips to James' and kissed him sweetly. James was surprised at first but kissed back after a couple seconds. Then Kendall pulled away.

James thought he would run and never talk to him again. But he didn't. Kendall just leaned into his chest again and got comfy, that made James smile. "I love you too, James." He whispered.