Disclaimer: I'm sorry if this chapter seems a little loveless but I just broke up with my boyfriend and kind of not believing in love right now…I tried my best though for fans. This is just the first chapter and if all goes well I shall continue, depending I get reviews and feel happier…time heals all wombs right?
This was a request by GrayReader and Book Hunter…Thanks fans…love ya!
I don't own Gravitation manga, anime of yaoi…as if I did I would make them live in my room and do naughty things...Lolz
The Hidden Secret.
Chapter 1 – Deep Down In The Mind.
Suguru stood looking lifeless as he looked down at watching Shuichi kiss Yuki goodbye for work. He felt a sting in his chest as Yuki, looking a little more loving than usual was kissing and holding Shuichi lovingly. Suguru also felt a familiar sting in his eyes as tears weld up seeing the person he loved dearly in someone else's arms. Suguru noticed as Yuki looked up at him out of the corner of his eye with a smirk. Being Yuki of course he noticed someone watching them.
Shuichi soon happily hopped away from Yuki and up to the studio where both Suguru, Hiro and a very distressed Sakuno awaited him. As usual Shuichi burst through the door happily and began dancing around telling everyone how great Yuki is. Suguru watched on disappointed and decided again to ignore the scene and try to get them into work, work always took his mind off things bothering him.
Eventually they got down to work and finished recording their new single. Suguru then made his way to his cold empty home, lacking a pink haired bubbly singer he craved everyday he would eventually find waiting for him. He sat on the couch blankly and turned the TV on, not actually watching it, just looking. Every night was just like the other, he craved some sort of existence, to feel alive, where every night was different and was amazingly different. He craved what he saw Yuki had. Yuki didn't deserve Shuichi, not one bit. He treated him badly, showed him no emotion and keeps secrets from him. It's not right, that's not love, that's not even friendship, Suguru didn't understand what Shuichi saw in Yuki and why he stayed with him, this frustrated him immensely.
He would never have the guts to try it on with Shuichi really. He craved to deep down but he couldn't. For example he would get into deep trouble with Shuichi, Yuki and even his cousin Seguchi. Seguchi said to Suguru frequently that he loved him because he was family but Suguru knew deep down that if it came to either him or Yuki it wouldn't take Suguchi long it pick and punish. Therefore Suguru would always be the one to watch on admire and wish it was him. But he was beginning to lose patients, he had to do something soon, he couldn't live on like this much longer, he knew he would eventually snap soon, very soon…
Disclaimer: wow! I didn't know I would finish it that quickly O.O. I know this chapter is small and boring, trust me it was slightly boring to write, with there being no action and stuff, but I had to make clear just how mad about Shuichi Suguru is…also I absolutely HATE my own stories and hate checking them through and uploading them. THANX 4 READING!! xxx