It has been four months since I've seen or heard from him. It's almost as though he's not living here anymore in this small town of Salem. But I know he still lives here because I still see my little girl, Arianna, every weekend. But I don't see him. It's either the babysitter or one of the many relatives in our families that drop her off. It still surprises me how we've managed to not see each other this long.

I found out about his affair with my ex not long after the attack. My heart still aches from just thinking about it. I'm still furious with him, but I can't help but worry something is wrong when I haven't heard or seen him this long. My mother constantly tells me that I should reach out to him if I'm still worrying. But whenever I think about seeing his face or just even hearing his voice, I know I'm going to breakdown once again like I did when I found out in the hospital.

It's been seven months. No word from him. Now I am worried. I reach out to Marlena when I get on break during work.

"Sonny! Hi, how are you?" She says with her endearing voice.

"Hi Dr. Evans. I'm good."

"Ho – "

"Actually Dr. Evans, I have something I need to ask you."

"Oh, what is it? Do you need me to bring Arianna over I'm sur – "

"No it's not about Ari. Actually I was um wondering about Will."

"Will?"

"Yeah. Um. I know I probably shouldn't ask but how is he? I haven't heard or seen him in seven months since you know."

"Oh Sonny I wish I could tell you but he's told me not to tell anyone."

"What do you mean? Is he okay?"

"Sonny I wish I could tell you. He could really use somebody on his side right now."

"Dr. Evans please, you're starting to worry me."

"Sonny, Will's been raped."

"Raped..?" That's why I haven't heard or seen from him. "Has anyone seen him?"

"His father and I visited him for a while but he began to turn everybody away. He shutting himself out from everybody."

"Where is he now?"

"Sonny. I don'-"
"Marlena please. I know we got a divorce and everything but I still care about him. And you said that he could really use somebody on his side right now. Well if he wants I will be his support I just need to see him to make sure."

"He's at St. Luke's. The doctors have been watching over him carefully."

"Thank you so much Marlena."

I rush to the hospital after my phone call with Marlena, telling T that I had an urgent errand to run. I immediately go up to the nurse's desk where both Maxine and Melanie are working now.

"Hey guys. Where's Will's room?"

"Sonny." Maxine says with a stern voice, "He doesn't want anyone to see him."

"Maxine please. Look I know we're no longer husbands and I have no right to see him, but Marlena told me that he could really use somebody on his side right now. He's been really weak lately right? He should have somebody to support him."

"Room 3112. Before you go in there make sure you knock and you better be careful you're not caught." Melanie says.

"Melanie!" Maxine scolds.

"It's okay Maxine. I'll be careful for the both of you." I say as I quickly walks towards Will's room.

I prepare myself to see Will outside of the door. I quietly knock and then turn the door knob slowly walking in the room. There on the bed facing away the door is Will's fragile figure.

"Dr. Jonas please I - " He turns around talking then freezes when his eyes connect with mine.

"Hi." I whisper.

"Sonny." He looks away immediately and turns around quickly. "What are you doing here? How did you find me?"

"I needed to see you. I haven't heard from you in seven months and I reached out to Marlena and she told me you were here. Please don't be mad at her I practically begged for her to tell me. And despite everything that happened I still care about you."

I slowly walk in front of him and immediately notice how pale and thin he's gotten. I take a chair and sit in front of him. He slowly looks up at me and I notice those blue eyes are no longer ocean blue but dark and sad. Before I know it I put his hand in mine and give it a gentle squeeze. Tears come from his eyes and he quickly takes his hand from mine and wipes them away.

"Please go." He whispers.

"Will. Please you need someone by your side to help you while you're going through this."

"I'm okay Sonny. Truly. You shouldn't have to worry about me anymore. You should be happy after everything I put you through." He says still looking down at the floor with tears going down his face.

"Will," I slowly reach over and wipe his tears away with my hands. I can only imagine what he's been going through alone. "I know you say I shouldn't worry about you but I do. Always will no matter what."

I watch him as he bring his knees to his chest curling up against himself physically and mentally. "Please Sonny. You can't help me. No one can." He says

"I can. I will do whatever it takes to help you."

"You can't. Why do you think I'm here? I've tried to talk to my grandma about this but whenever I bring it up the pain from that night comes back and it's unbearable. I can't sleep without having nightmares about it. I can't eat without feeling nauseous. I'm so tired Sonny. I don't know why I'm alive. I wish they hadn't found me that night. I wish I that bled to death. I can't –"

"Will please don't think like that. You have a daughter that loves you and you have me. I will help you."

"That's the thing I don't have you. I pushed you away and I cheated on you. Maybe I deserve this torture. Maybe I – "

"No. You don't deserve to feel like this. Okay yes you cheated but no one. And I repeat no one should go through this."

"But Sonny I –"

"No I don't want to hear it Will. Please, Will let me help you. I want to. Because believe it or not I still love you." He looks up from the floor at me his eyes slowly becoming that blue that I used to love. That I still love.

"Okay." He says.

"Okay. I'll leave you alone so you can rest. I'll come back tomorrow and we'll start talking about it when you're ready okay?"

He nods his head slowly. I get up and walk towards the door.

"Sonny?"

"Hmm?" I say as I quickly look behind me and see he is now standing by the end of his bed.

"I love you too. Never stopped." He says.

I smile at him and refrain from going up to him and kissing him right then and there. As much as I want to hold him I know it is too soon for him.

"Me too. I'll see you tomorrow Will."

"Bye Sonny."