Late nights spent in secret. Shared tender moments. A sweet kiss there a passionate one here. Love shared in secret between an angel and a moose. Until.
I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
Be strong Samsquatch. Sam remembered those words well. Even now, a month later. Gabriel had known he was going to die even before they ended up at that damn motel. But Sam trudged on, for Gabriel.
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am
Dean questioned whether or not Sam was okay frequently. Sam had distanced himself after Gabriel's death, just a little bit. Sam was playing the role of a good brother and breaking on the inside.
I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
Sam would dream of the nights he had spent with Gabriel. Those dreams gave him the hope to move forward. To keep going.
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
But every now and then Sam would break. Dean or Cass would find him shouting and crying as he prayed to Gabriel. Sam almost went over the edge a few times.
I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything
But somehow Sam always found himself moving through the motions again. Playing his part evenas pain passed through the years.
I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it
Be strong Samsquatch. Those three words kept Sam pressing forward. He tried moving on from Gabriel, was even free for a couple years, albiet that was Lucifer's fault.
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
And then at the end of the day Sam was back on his knees, praying for Gabriel to come back. There were still cracks in his heart.
I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human
He was only human. He fought through everything with his brother and he was only human.
I can take so much
'Til I've had enough
Lucifer was trapped somewhere, gone forever. But he wasn't the only one gone. Cass was dead. And seeing his brother so broken over Cass brought Sam's walls tumbling down.
'Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human
Everything keeping him in one piece ever since Gabriel's death shattered. He didn't know what was going on until the world was slowing down around him. Until he could only hear his heartbeat fading away. He was barely staying up on his knees, but not for much longer. Blood dripped from his wrists and gashes on his arms into the pools of blood forming around.
Everything pointed to this being the end for Sam Winchester. But someone had hope.
Gentle finger tips touched his hairline and he was enveloped in a warm blue light. He could breath again. He looked up, expecting to see Cass but saw a much more welcome face.
"You can't take the trick out of the trickster."
