10 Good Reasons
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Pairing:- Jean/James
Rating:-T
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Summary:- I love you because above all and setting everything else aside you are you. I love that you are all the things I've already said and a million more things.
Author's Note:- In answer to Gee's "I love you because…." Challenge in which the first and last lines of a fic had to be "I love you because…". Both chapters start and end with that line and this is a major slush fest so I apologise in advance! If you don't do slush you might want to stop now otherwise enjoy and reviews would be lovely!
I love you because right now you'll be staring at this wondering why the hell I've written you a letter when if you look out your office window right now you can probably see me. The way you dismiss romantic grand gestures in a way no other woman I've ever known has is one of the reasons I love you so much but I plan on telling you a few more. Why? Because the next time we argue, next time you storm out of my home like you did last night and feel that it's not worth the hassle, the secrecy, the risk of discovery you can take this out and read it and be reminded of 10 of the many reasons I love you and always will.
Glancing up from the sheet of paper in her hand Jean smiled looking out of her office window to the door of his and Robbie's across the hall. He was right at that moment she could see him pacing back and forward as they talked out their latest case. He was right of course she'd instantly wondered what he was doing when she'd seen the envelope on her desk and recognised the neat hand writing on the front of it. Now though she couldn't help the smile that crossed her face as she sat back to read the rest of his list.
I love you because you challenge me every day. I never believed loving you would be anything other than wonderful but I'm constantly surprised by the way you can make me love you more and more with each passing day. You make me want to be a better man every day by showing me that you can do the right thing and accept the consequences whatever they may be. In the course of our working day you can make me turn my view of the world on it's head and that's one of the reasons I fell for you in the first place. Then in private when we're along you are so completely mine, put so much trust in me that I want to strive to be everything you believe I am and more.
I love you because you make me smile, laugh and still see the beauty in the world in spite of the fact what we so often see makes it hard to believe there is anything but evil out there. The way you brighten even my darkest days with the warmth and tenderness with which you face the world is another reason why I love you but the way you hold onto the faith in humanity while still retaining a determination to make those in the wrong pay for their crimes truly fills me with awe. No woman I've ever met combines such empathy and sense of justice. How could I not fall in love with you when those qualities shine from you so brightly?
I love you because of the way you can make me feel so desired, so needed, so loved and wanted with a single touch. I love the way you give yourself so completely to me when we make love. When circumstances mean we can't be together I can close my eyes for just a second and be transported to those moments and feed my need for you. I can taste your lips, feel the softness of your skin, smell your perfume and hear the desire laden way you whisper my name and I am lost in how you make me feel.
I love you because in spite of the fact your heart has been so badly broken, so disregarded, so carelessly treated you have trusted me with it without hesitation. You've been betrayed in a way no woman, let alone one as spectacular as you, should ever have to endure. You've seen your trust and belief in love shattered yet you never doubt me, you never make me feel like you judge me by his standards and that means everything to me.
I love you because you are frightened of balloons and people dressed in character suits. I love that I'm one of only a handful of people who know those things about you. U love that you can rant at length about the inherent dangers of balloons and the creepiness of giant cartoon characters even when I've heard it all before and understand. I love that you have an irrational side that no one would believe when they see how control you are day to day.
I love you because your idea of a perfect night in is watching Agatha Christie TV shows curled up on the sofa and that you love crime drama in general. I love that you make me swear not to tell anyone about that particular obsession and I love that you still try to solve cases before Miss Marple or Poirot even though you've seen them all before. I love how when we watch modern crime dramas you get cross when they get things wrong or don't spot the obvious clues and how you love to point out that if you were their SIO things would be a lot different. Your eccentric viewing habits are so much a part of you that I love them all even if they do on occasions cause more stress than our real life cases do.
I love you because even though that is your idea of a good night in you'll still watch old black and white gangster movies and slap stick comedy with me. I love that you don't care that I'm still a little obsessed with Starsky and Hutch and can still list the names of all the star wars characters and I love that you so that thing you do when you're bored with that I'm watching and want to distract me.
I love you because you know how to touch me, what to say and how to look at me to make me desperate for you. No one I've ever been with has been able to read me so well, gage my mood, know what I'm thinking and give me exactly what I need. I love that you know there are times when I need space and don't take it as a rejection, and I love that you are always there when I've worked through whatever had upset me and you always listen. I love that you never judge no matter how I feel and I love that you can take any pain, any concern, away with a single touch, a single glance, a single kiss.
I love you because above all and setting everything else aside you are you. I love that you are all the things I've already said and a million more things. I love that when we argue you make me want to make it right the second it's over. I love that when you storm off slamming the door like you did last night I don't want to sulk or rant about how I was right and you were wrong, I want to sit down and write all the reasons I love you so you will never doubt it again. You, Jean Innocent, are my life, my reason for living, my one true love and that is the reason that most of all encapsulates all the reasons I love you.
Wiping away the single tear that escaped as she finished the letter and set it on the desk in from of her Jean smiled glancing back out the window of her office to where James and Robbie rushed out the door of theirs. With all her heat she wanted to open the door and call James back, come up with some excuse to have just five stolen minutes with him to tell him that she loved him too and she was sorry about the night before but she knew she couldn't. By now he was probably in the car and off doing what they were there to do. Instead she opened her desk drawer pulling out the crisp pad of writing paper from inside and lifting the silver pen from the middle of her desk thinking for a second before starting a letter of her own with the words "I love you because…."