Angels cry invisible tears.

Chapter 1 – 'its for the best'

(AN: This is Chapter 3 onwards of New moon from Edward and Alice's POV Maybe Others too depending on what I'm feeling like – Only 1 POV per chapter so its not too confusing.)

EPOV

Bella's breathing was deep and slow, finally. She had taken a long time too fall asleep, tossing and turning while mumbling incoherent words, her delicate features laced with pain. I assumed it was the cut on her arm, which I could feel burning from where she lay. She couldn't know, I didn't want her too, not yet. But she was smart and intuitive; she seemed to understand me when even I didn't occasionally. This was for the best I knew that now.

2am exactly, I slipped out her window soundlessly, slithering into the darkness. When I arrived home everyone was gathered in the main room sat down in various places. Jasper was sat on the couch next to Carlisle; he had his head in his hands and was nodding slowly to Carlisle's murmured words. I noticed Alice first though; Her small figure was shaking with rage as she turned to me. She knew.

"YOU!" She shrieked, "You… you complete bastard!" Everybody looked up, shocked at her sudden violent out burst. Her eyes cold, hard and black bore into me. "How could you do this to Bella, to us? I wont go, I refuse!"

Emmett stood now, confused "We're leaving, since when?"

"Now" I answered curtly

"We're leaving… without Bella?" it was clearly a rhetorical question for he already knew the answer, he continued, growling softly as he spoke "Who are you to decide what's best for us? Your not the head of this family" Child like as always, he added, "your not the boss of us Edward, and you cant tell me what to do" while flexing his muscles as an unconscious threat.

Rosalie stood now while Emmett glared at her, she had an air of uncaring arrogance about her, a small smug smile plastered on to her ever-perfect face. She left the room, the only one of us willing to pack.

Alice started again, "You can't do this, don't destroy this family, for you know it will Edward, and what's worse is, you'll destroy Bella."

"Its for the best" I said before turning to the stairs. Emmett was there first, blocking my way, a low growl building in his chest. "No" his voice was firm, adamant. I could see this wasn't going to be easy. "This is wrong, Edward for once in your life you're not right" he said

"You love Bella, why are you hurting yourself like this, she loves you, your meant to be together, she's the one your going to spend eternity with" Alice added softly.

The game they were playing, it wasn't going to work, and I wasn't going to let them. "You don't understand and I don't expect you too, now move," I snarled.

They didn't.

Growling in frustration I turned around and began pacing around the room.

"She wont forget you like you think she will, she wont stop loving you no matter what, you'll hurt her though, crush her, break her heart…"

"Shut up!" I howled. I couldn't take it all of a sudden, and as always Alice just knew. Her smug little smile just pushed me further over the edge of my already dangerously high cliff.

Breathing hard I stalked over to the piano and lifted up the bench, –the bench we sat on together so many times- powered with my rage and internal pain I threw the bench at Alice.

Jasper was faster. He collided with the bench, obliterating it while shielding Alice.

"Don't," he said menacingly, growling furiously at me.

Alice took his hand "whose going to be there to protect Bella when the next bench comes her way?" she asked quietly.

I snorted. The idea was preposterous; nobody was going to throw a bench at Bella, but the meaning was there all the same. Danger Magnet.

I snarled at her and continued pacing.

"We have to leave, we just have to its for the best I know it is, I cant hurt her anymore" I spoke these words quietly and mainly to myself.

"You idiot, you don't hurt her at all, get it through you thick skull. But you will hurt her if we leave, which you wont, I wont let you" Emmett said suddenly from over by the stairs, puffing out his chest in pride at his 'insightful speech'

"I don't see why he doesn't just change her, she wants it after all" he added to Alice.

"Cause he's a selfish pig" Alice said loudly.

I growled again and threw a vase at Emmett's head, he was conveniently grinning at Alice so the shattering sound it made when hitting its destination was immensely satisfying.

"Jeez Edward, stop destroying Esme's stuff" he muttered, rubbing his head and glancing hopefully at Esme to 'scold' me.

She was deep in conversation with Carlisle and I had blocked out everyone's thoughts before even coming close to the house so I didn't know what they were discussing, and to be honest I didn't care.

"I wont change her, I wont take away her life like that, her humanity, her soul!" I yelled

Carlisle finally stood up knowing that neither side would agree. "I think we should respect Edwards decision this once, he is old enough to make them and we as a family should support him" He held up a hand to silence Alice as she tried to make a point. "Even if we don't agree with his final decision Alice, and personally Edward" he added turning to face me fully "I don't" his face was full of the usual concern which I ignored stubbornly. I looked over at Esme to see she had turned away.

Carlisle walked away, taking Esme's hand and pulling her along "We must pack, and you need to do some house hunting" He said nudging her playfully trying to lighten her mood, she just smiled tight lipped eyes brimming with invisible tears.

That left Jasper, Alice, Emmett and myself, there was a great uncomfortable distance between us all. Emmett sighed in defeat and left to help Rosalie pack

Jasper tried to pull Alice gently but she stood her ground staring at me intently. "She's my best friend, I can't just leave her too," she cried desperately.

"Yes you can Alice, you have to, and you all do. No goodbyes either, a clean break will help her"

"No! She'll need me to help her… to pick up the pieces" she spat, anger returning fast.

Emotions were running high all through out the house and Jasper was having a hard time controlling everything, he kissed Alice quickly and whispered something I didn't catch before disappearing off upstairs.

"You're all leaving now, today. Ill stay behind… say goodbye then leave too" I told her feeling much calmer.

Alice knew the battle was lost.

She walked up to me slowly, stopping inches away from me while looking up deep into my eyes.

"Edward Cullen" she hissed "you'll regret this for a long time, but I'm going to make sure you pay for what you do to Bella for eternity" and with cold fury she turned and stalked away.

ooxxoo

It was almost light when I rushed away to Bella's room. To bask in her ever-lasting beauty, inhale her glorious scent for one of the last real times, while remaining impassive and inconspicuous. Hell.

When she awoke finally, I kissed her forehead gently trying my best to look uninterested before ducking out of her window and heading home. From the corner of my eye I saw her expression – hurt and confused, I nearly begged for her forgiveness right there and then.

Everyone was ready except Carlisle and Esme who were staying behind for a while longer to sort out documents and work related issues.

Emmett growled when he saw me, pushing past and getting in his jeep, he wouldn't part with it, just like rose wouldn't leave her's so they were forced to drive separately.

I now had my mind open to the thoughts of my family. Rose caught my eye; staring at me with a curious expression that I later discovered was concern, something we don't see very often.

Your doing the wrong thing Edward, you'll be sorry.

Her thoughts almost made me cry out in anguished agreement and change my mind, but instead I kept my face blank pretending not hear as she passed to also get in her car.

Holding Jasper's hand firmly Alice walked up to me frowning deeply. "Look" was all she said, and so I did.

There in Alice's mind lay Bella on her wooden floor silently crying, her beautiful face twisted in agony. Her scrapbook lay open beside her, empty. I could faintly make out my name written underneath an empty slot. No. I pulled away disgusted with myself.

"You see what you're going to?" she snapped "And that's only the beginning. Don't make me show you more Edward," she was threatening me now.

Speechless and staring at her wide eyed I thought to myself 'was now the time to question my decision, could I cause my angel that much pain?'

Please don't do this Edward, change your mind before its too late. It was Esme, her hand on my shoulder forcing me to turn to face her. I couldn't if I did my defences would crumble and I'd forget all this nonsense, and Bella would be in my arms tonight in constant danger again. The idea was so tempting. "I can't," I whispered pathetically.

Must I have this internal battle again? It was for the best, for Bella. I loved her so much more than I originally thought, how stupid of me to think I could just walk out of her life and have everything be okay for it wasn't going to be okay when I wasn't with Bella, it never would be. Would Bella feel the same way? She was a human after all, a silly human girl intent on becoming a damned vampire all to spend eternity with me. Regardless of that fact, she was human and she would stay human forever and forget about me.

Sighing I shook my head, internal battle? More like internal babble.

Alice came forward, her last ditch attempt. She was 'crying', tearless sobs shaking her tiny frame. "Please Edward please, at least let me stay, please" she was begging, desperate.

"No, Alice. I keep telling you its for the best and I forbid you to go searching for Bella's future too. We are leaving her well alone for good. Promise me Alice, please don't go looking for her in a few years or looking for her future, please?" I said, begging slightly too.

She turned away without answering she had to promise though! Grabbing her arm I stopped her and whispered into her ear "please?"

Still shaking she just made a funny little yelp and nodded.

Feeling relieved I watched Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and Alice finally drive away.

Now all I had to do was leave Bella. Easy.

Ooxxoo

AN: Seeing as Eclipse doesn't arrive in England until October I was forced to buy it from America, my copy won't arrive until the end of august. Grr! So too stop myself being tempted by spoilers and lord knows what else. This FF is my supposed distraction. Until next time! bye!