this is for the atmospheres forum's (check it out! :D) valentines day exchange, with a pairing of mosh.
prompt: "and you are the piece of me i wish i didn't need" - clarity, zedd
this was supposed to be fluff. it sort of was. and then it wasn't. oops.
and it's horrible. double oops.
please r&r.
it's a natural instinct
when you're hit, you run
when you're abused day after day, you flee
but you always come back
at least she does
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from a young age, massie block prided herself on her ability to handle things
from her mother's sharp words
to her father's taunting
to her boyfriend's laughter when she caught him making out with her best friend
she always kept her head up
her eyes retained their amber glow
her lips stayed glossy
her clothes were perfect
and she wouldn't fall apart
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after walking in on said boyfriend, when he was making out with said best friend, her world came crashing down
not a lot
just a little
a strong enough earthquake to form some cracks in the glass
that was all
but it was enough for someone to force their way in through those cracks and make her believe in them
that person was joshua hotz
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she always knew there was something behind those chocolate-brown eyes
that tan skin
that perfect smile
but the teeth were too sharp, too pointed, cruel
she didn't know how cruel
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it was a day in late winter when he asked her to marry him
she trusted him
she said yes
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mid-summer was when the ceremony took place
friends of hers held bouquets of flowers
friends of his stood tall and proud, dates on their arms
parents dabbed at their eyes
children slipped and skidded on the shiny floor
they kissed
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he brought her home that night and demanded that she sleep with him
"no," she said, and thought that would be the end
isn't marriage based on mutual respect?
but, "yes," he said, and pinned her to the bed
she fought and screamed and kicked
and she noticed that perfect smile
the teeth were so sharp, so pointed
so cruel
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that was only the beginning
he punched her
kicked her
shoved her into walls
killed her too many times to count
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five months later was december
it was new year's eve
joshua hotz was drunk
she could taste the scotch on his lips as he kissed her
a brutal kiss, bruising her lips
she felt no more love for him, none at all
just pain
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that was the first time she left
the next day, she came back
her head whirled
her heart stung
but she came back
because she'd always known him
and how could he hurt her anymore, now that he knew what he would lose?
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that night, he hurt her again
and again
and again
and again
and again and again and again and again
over and over and over
pain
that was all she felt now
pain
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she left again
and she returned
because he was the only one who knew the real her
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he was the only one who'd ever wanted her
and if the only reason he wanted her was to abuse her, be that as it may
at least it was something
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fin.