I had various inspirations which had my friends Efad, Auditti and Falguni leading me.

This story has many mature themes and scenarios. Not so detailed though.

I, unfortunately, don't own the original Death Note anime.

The Glass Self
I"Curious"

I remember the lighting the most. At first it was plain, crisp white and then he opted for neon pink. I did not understand why he decided the pinkish hue but possibly because it was slightly synonymous with red; red lights that light the windows of whores in the wrecked red light districts. Maybe it was his fantasy that I be his prostitute: A person he pays for sexual fulfilment, it seems like that already. You can't label some relationships because you don't want to. You feel you'll regret it.

" Misa you look..." he breaks, he sighs, "Great."

But I don't look great all the time. Maybe he wants me to look great. Or maybe he wants me to look great as in the now – skin expelled of clothes, the nude, the attempt of Venus De Milo(except with hands), only wearing stockings. I know we will have sex after this.

" I'm only doing this in front of you." It's the closest I've got to him, "I'll never do this in an actual photo-session."

" I know." He says endearingly believing that I just feel bonded to him but in actuality I said it for no real purpose – it was just getting rid of my own self-doubt.

" Matsuda hurry up." I almost glare, " I'm getting cold."

" In a second." He shouldn't be a photographer; he shouldn't even try to be a cop. I heard he was going to take the exam at the academy. His father was a cop. He thought he can do it too. I'm not sure. Matsu isn't really reliable. He is a poor boyfriend: Though he pleases in bed.

" Matsuda...I think..." I almost want to tell him that I'm bored, " ...I'm horny." That's not true.

Matsuda and I had sex.

Then I dumped him.

He really didn't create a commotion as usual.

Probably saw it coming.

I was really bored with life.

After getting into university things dramatically changed and I wasn't bored anymore.

But, why did I remember that part of my life.

At first I think it's because I realized I slept with this other fresher. At first he was photographing something. His major is Math and some other stuff I don't remember.

Yes he was photographing the cherry-blossoms saying how his sister would like them.

I don't remember how but the sex was good.

His name was unusual: it didn't sound Japanese and when I first saw it written I thought it was Tsuki, meaning Moon. Then he told me it was Light. I asked him why it was a strange name.

" I don't think it has a long, traceable history like Jhumpa Lahiri'sThe Namesake but yeah it does sound different."

I looked at him confused and asked who Jhumpa Lahiri was and what wasThe Namesake?

He told me how he recently got interested in Bengali writers and she was one of them.

I told him I wouldn't understand because I was not a bibliophile.

He advised me to read more.

We aren't officially dating

He kinda hinted that he wouldn't mind being my boyfriend.

I, for enigmatic reasons, ignored those suggestions.

Though he was everything a girl could want from a man.

I guess that scared me.

It was in Psych 101 that I realized I was interested. I heard those noisy girls. The red-headed punk, actually she called herself that, told me that L was probably an old dude-wannabe who wanted to be like Sherlock Holmes. I asked Kakuri what she was talking about. Kayako, this studious cute girl, said that L was a detective no one knew about.

I asked why?

Kayako continued stating that mysterious murders are being committed all around the world targeting criminals and that L made a speech the other day on the news declaring he was going to catch Kira.

I have heard of Kira. You have to be a hibernating bear not to know him or her. Kira was a person acknowledging himself as justice. Seriously a vigilante like that should get a life.

I don't care if he killed the guy who killed my parents. Something told me that he exacted that for his own ego. He won't give a real shit about it.

But this L interested me. Why would he want to catch Kira? Maybe it was for his or her ego too. Or maybe he was curious. It was actually in an odd manner how Kira specifically knew about his victims; and how to reach them. It was scary wasn't it?

" I think L will be able to catch Kira." I confessed.

The red-headed occult fan frowned, " How are you so sure?"

" I'm not sure, just a wild guess..." I smiled, " You can call it wishful thinking. I just think he's determined. Or if it's a she she'll make sure that Kira guy rots in hell."

Kayako beamed, " I want to know who L is; I want to see if he or she is really that smart."

" You know that's not a bad idea." The idea had been forming in my head.

I wanted to meet L.

I guess like him or her I was also curious.

The boy's name was Lawliet, Lawliet Griffith.

He was the oddball senior everyone wanted to avoid.

He was smart so nerds despised him. He was rich so playboys despised him. He was a caffeine-addict so girls despised him...except Kayako...

"I really like him!" she squealed as loudly as she could in a limited pitch; we were in the library, " I know he is a senior but..."

"Kayako, are you delusional?" Saki looked shocked, " The guy basically wears the same clothes every day." Yeah, I noticed, white long sleeved tee and blue jeans, scruffy visage and stripped white converse sneakers; oddly he didn't look at all unappealing.

" There's more to a man like George Michael stated in his song Freedom." She defended her crush, " I think his major is computer science and Math." She dreamily sighed, " I think I'm in heaven. He's one of those guys who's like me. A bit different."

" That's seriously an understatement." Saki looked disgusted. " If you should have a crush it should be on Light Yagami, that guy is also a senior." She blushed.

" Light studies with him." That got me interested some more.

" Do you know Light Yagami?" Kayako asked.

" Kinda." I remember his bed, his body, his skilful craft at sex and then his lips, swelling ardently as he swallowed me into an erotic world. I know his lusts or at least some of them. He was younger than me and smarter than me and academically my senior.

The dude was too good for me.

" Yeah, it's funny how Light actually studies with him." Saki spoke as if she knew everything, " I mean Light is so great."

" If Light is so great how come he has no girlfriend?" Kayako again putting on the defensive

" Well I think he might become Takada's significant other." She giggled.

" Miss To-oh herself?" I looked dully, " I thought she was dating Ryuuga Hideki."

" Oh Please Misa that relationship is more like eye-candy." She almost scowled, " As some of the boys in the business department say he's not too bright."

" They also say that Light Yagami is a pampered prodigy." I enlightened, " Jealousy seems to work more on the vain."

" I heard it was Hideki who dumped her as she had a 'mightier than thou' attitude." Kayako spoke fast, " I think he could be right."

"...Or envious." Saki defended, " The guy is Superficial beauty."

" It's wrong to judge or speak ill of things and people we don't know." I advised to Saki, " Those type of things should only make us curious not conclusive. We wouldn't like people making assumptions on us."

" We aren't really the life of To-Oh so I think people won't give time to define us." Saki looked vehemently at me; I think she thought I berated her.

" Don't make me miserable!" Kayako squealed, tears almost coming out.

" Oh please face the music Kayako we aren't all that great..." she looked angry then she looked enviously at me, " Except some of us." But no one specifically knew me either.

I got up and was going to return a book when suddenly I looked at the racoon called Lawliet. He looked oddly at a reference book, or what I thought was a reference book – it was a Literature book.

" Areopagatica." He murmured.

" What?" I asked suddenly out loud, I guess I was Curious.

" It's Milton, I like him." He smirked, " Do you like him?"

" I don't read that much." I confessed.

" You should read more." The same statement as Light's " Do you want to read it with me?"

" Ok." I don't know why I said Yes and I looked at the page with some scrutiny, "Athens, AreoPagus, that's where the word comes from..."

" Read on." He requested.

I did.

I felt Kayako, I saw stare at me.

I looked at the racoon-eyed boy.

He seemed more human to me up close.

Before I had considered him a Gothic dream.

I guess the nickname racoon was inspired from the anime Rurouni Kenshin. Venus Di Milo was a inspiration from TheGateBackers anime. I actually did titbits of Areopagatica in my English 115 class. Hope you like the story so far!