Well, to be perfectly honest, I'm not quite sure I know how to get into this groove again. How do you commence something you swore to yourself you'd stop? It's not so much a guilty pleasure as self-inflicted torture. I'm not indulging myself, I'm making sure that none of my dreams or ambitions can be filled.
Well isn't that just dandy. How do I do this?
How do I let me do this to myself? How can I NOT let myself do this?
I'm confused. I don't even know what I'm getting at anymore.
The feel of it under my fingertips, the rhythm, the cadence is impossible to achieve without practice.
But how do you practice something you hate?
Oh shut up.