A/N Hi! This is my first ever fanfict so I really hope you like it! Please be nice in the review because I've never done this before. I am also open to any sort of suggesttions for the story although I already have some myself...so yeah read and review...

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1. Tell Me Why

Viola?

I tightened my grip on my drink.

Viola?

I slushed it down my throat straight from the bottle over-and-over enjoying the lingering taste more and more each time.

What the hell ah ya doin?

I snapped my head up and glared at the looming figure. I curled myself into an even tighter ball centred on my new found friend known as alcohol. He seemed to be waiting for a response but even if I did want to waste my breath on him, I don't think I'd be able. After all my endless sobbing I honestly don't know if I could and the drink really wasn't doing wonders for my throat either.

Viola!

My glare deepened. His eyes narrowed in on my friend and his expression became very distasteful. I ignore him and go back to the bottle, waiting before I look up again to find him to have not moved an inch.

"Eff off." I state bluntly just like Todd….my thoughts trail into darkness as my tears well up again. He sits. "Eff off." This time it's more of a croaky whisper than anything else.

Viola…

"Fuck off Davy!" I scream at him before the tears break free from my eyes. I can tell he's become uncomfortable but again he disregards my words and continues talking,

What the hell ah ya doin Viola?

He asks barely above a whisper.

"Go away!" I push him with my best attempt but everything about me has weakened in the past few years so it's more like a gentle tap. He lunges forward and slowly reaches for my owe-so-precious bottle grasping it from my dead fingertips. This, however, was the wrong move. I lunge and try to thump him round the head with it but he dodges pretty well.

How the hell is any of this shit really gonna help you Viola? What d'you hope 'all happen? D'you think you might slowly waste away and join 'em!?

"NO! I just…I…I don't know! What am I supposed to do?! Maybe you don't care but I do…and I…I can't…I can't wait anymore! I can't…" My tears flow free now and I start to feel queasy but I continue to sob loudly on the floor. God Todd where are you? I need you! I need you like a heartbeat! I only cry more with these thoughts, so hard that I barely notice Davy lift me up from the floor and carry me to my mess of a bed.

Shh Viola.

Oh I try but I just sniff and cry some more. Davy's actually the sweetest he's ever been towards me so I promise myself, if I remember by morning, to thank him for that. Ever since the spackle brought him back he's kind of been like my big brother, my annoying big brother but a big brother all the same. I got no one to believe in but I suppose I'm starting to believe in him a little. I guess he's grateful I managed to bring him back but if it were me I'd prefer to be long, long gone. The land, as we're now callin 'em, actually brought him back relatively quickly but there's something about Todd that just doesn't seem to be working. I guess it's his noise 'cos that's different from everyone else's by the looks ah things. It's weird but I haven't really thought about all the old times with him in a while 'cos I can only really do it when I feel completely and utterly numb like right now. You're the only thing on my mind Todd, forever and always but sometimes I really wish you weren't. What if Todd doesn't even remember me? What if he never wakes up? What if he's not at all like he used to be? What if I wasted this time waiting for him and he doesn't even like me only tolerated me? I can't even get a break in my own head. God I'm glad no one can hear my thoughts 'cos I'd bring the mood down of all ah New New World. That's what we call it nowadays after the war, New New World.

Viola, shh Viola, shh…

God I don't think I'll ever get used to that. When Todd wakes up will he sound like this? I cry again just thinking about him actually waking up.

Davy slowly lowers me onto my bed so I sob on ma new bed and curl into a ball again hoping somehow if I'm small enough I can creep into Todd thoughts and join him in his world of nothingness. Now that sounds like heaven.

Viola?

"Over here." Up he jumps to curl up next to me to comfort me 'cos we've both lost our best friend. So there we lay cryin' until we both surrender to sleep curled up in sorrow but comfort at the same time…

A/N Ok so that's the first chapter so PLEASE REVIEW! It'll mean the world to me so yeah...PLEASE!