Title: Post Doomsday Songfics
Rating: K+
Summary: 2 angsty songfics - one for Rose, one for the Doctor.
Disclaimer: I don't own Doctor Who or the songs used.
Author's Note: Please listen to these songs. They are just so sad and beautiful. The first one is Beautiful by Amy Grant. The second will be up soon.
Beautiful
Rose lay in her room, clutching her pillow to her chest. It had been one year since the Doctor had said goodbye to her, and she was still hurting. She switched on the radio. Beautiful by Amy Grant came on. Tears came to Rose's eyes as she listened to the lyrics.
I'm
lookin' for a way to feel you hold me
Feel your heartbeat just
one more time
She wished she could feel his embrace once again. She missed the feeling of his arms wrapped around her. She missed resting her head on his chest and listening to his hearts. Oh, she missed everything.
Reaching
back, trying to touch the moment
Each precious moment that you
were mine
What hurt most was that her memories were becoming less vivid. She couldn't remember exactly how she'd felt when she held in hand in the dungeon in Cardiff, or when she'd danced with him in 1941. And she wished she could have treasured these moments more when they were happening.
How
do you prepare when you love someone this way
To let them go a
little more each day
She'd loved the Doctor like nothing or no one else. She'd lived for him. He was everything to her. And each she was separated from him got harder. She just couldn't let him go.
The
stars we put in place
The dreams we didn't waste
They'd done so much together. They'd watched galaxies being formed. They'd saved worlds. They'd lived every moment to the fullest.
The
sorrows we embraced
The world belonged to you and me
After a particularly hard day, they'd suffered together. They'd had the world at their fingertips, and they'd always had each other to lean on.
The
oceans that we crossed
The innocence we lost
Her mother had told her that she'd become like him. She was right. By travelling with the Doctor, Rose had lost her innocence. She'd had to quickly grow up and face things other people wouldn't dream of facing.
The
hurting at the end
I'd go there again
Coz it was beautiful
It
was beautiful
And then came the saddest time of her life – the Battle of Canary Wharf. Being separated from the Doctor was the worst thing she'd ever endured. Knowing that she'd never see, or hear, or touch him ever again. But she'd do it all again. She'd live through all that heartache a second time, if it meant she could be with him again.
Some
days missing you is overwhelming
When it hits me
You're not
coming back
There were some days where she just couldn't handle it anymore. Where she just wanted to leave the world and all its pain. For a moment, she'd think she'd found a way to get through, only to be bitterly disappointed.
And
in my darkest hours I have wondered
Was it worth it, for the time
we had
Was it worth it? All the pain and sorrow and sadness, for the precious time they had together?
My
thoughts begun to hear you
But one thing I know is true
I'll
bless the day that I found you
Then she'd come to her senses. She knew the answer. Meeting the Doctor was the best thing that ever happened to her. He'd shown her the endless possibilities of the world, and though their time had been short, he'd given her more love than she'd ever expected to receive, even if he never said the words.
The
stars we put in place
The dreams we didn't waste
The sorrows we
embraced
The world belonged to you and me
The oceans that we
crossed
The innocence we lost
The hurting at the end
I'd go
there again
Coz it was beautiful
It was beautiful
The
rules we stepped aside
The fear that we defied
Together, they'd rebelled against the rules. They'd faced enemies without fear.
The
thrill of the ride
The fire in our hearts that burned
It was such an overwhelming experience. There were times when Rose actually felt fire in her heart.
The
oceans that we crossed
The innocence we lost
The hurting at the
end
I'd go there again
Cuz it was beautiful
It was beautiful
As the song ended, Rose wiped the tears from her eyes. She then knew that Sarah Jane was right – some things were worth getting your heart broken for. She'd always be sad that she wasn't with the Doctor. But she'd also be glad that she had the time that she did. Coz it was beautiful.
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