A/N: So I know I'm still writing another fic: A Hard Road Back (check it out :P) but had this idea too so I'm going to write them at the same time...hopefully! See how it goes. Hope you enjoy, please review, review, review! Love to hear from you guys.

Characters and story lines aren't mine...wish they were!

Arizona groaned as she woke up; yet again she woke up alone in an apartment that she hadn't lived in for the best part of a year and a half. As she slumped to the kitchen to make some coffee the events of that night played in her head.

*FLASHBACK*

Arizona had been waiting for her gorgeous girlfriend to come home all day, she had found the perfect holiday for them: Fiji. She'd rang in a few favours with her cousin and low and behold a beautiful house on the middle of Fiji was there's for three weeks. Her thoughts wandered to Callie in a bikini. Yes this was a very good idea.

As soon as Callie walked through the door Arizona was reeling off all these details to her, but Callie didn't respond. Callie's thoughts were taken up by the phone number that refused to budge off of her hand, no matter how much soap had been used nor how much scrubbing occurred. Callie was never going to ring it, she didn't want the number on her hand, but as she looked down at it for the hundredth time, the same thought ended her head: Did this woman want a baby? Callie sat on the coffee table in front of Arizona and displayed the faded number on her hand so that she could see.

'What's that?' Arizona asked with a slight giggle, not expecting the answer she was about to get.

'It's this cute girl's number, and I can't get if off...I'm not gonna use it, I don't want to use it...but I can't stop wondering if she wants a baby one day...' There was a long pause as both women tried to gage each other; Arizona had been completely taken aback by what Callie had said and for the first time, she really started to see how much her not wanting a baby was affecting her girlfriend; she saw the pain in her eyes and realised that this couldn't go on.

'I love you,' Callie breathed, tears welling up in her eyes. 'I love everything about you, but there's this one thing I need and I can't change it and I can't ask you to change...I don't want you to change...'

'And I can't be the one who keeps you from having a baby...' Arizona spoke for the first time, tears welling up in her own eyes. 'I love you too,' she said sadly. 'And we can keep going...'

'But I don't know where we're going...' Callie's voice broke as she saw where this conversation was inevitably going.

'Come here,' Arizona shut her laptop and patted the sofa next to her. As soon as Callie sat down Arizona's mouth was on hers, each of them trying to convey their undoubted love for each other even though they both knew what was about to happen.

'What are we going to do?' Callie whispered as she broke off the kiss and rested her forehead on Arizona's.

'Well, I'm gonna get my stuff together...'

'Noo...' Callie's tears began to fall thick and fast down her face as she pulled Arizona in to a hug. 'And what? We'll just...'

'We'll see each other at work...' Arizona's own voice broke now as she knew that seeing Callie at work and not being able to kiss her or touch her how she wanted would be so hard.

'I'm so sorry...I love you.' Callie said into Arizona's hair, the sheer emotion in her voice was too much for Arizona.

'Me too...me too...' was all she could manage.

Neither of them knew how long they sat there in each other's arms, both of them falling asleep. Eventually it was Arizona who woke first, with a gentle kiss to Callie's forehead she shuffled from underneath her head, quickly shoved most of her stuff into a couple of bags and stood back in the living room looking at her gorgeous girlfriend...no...ex-girlfriend, she corrected herself. She grabbed a post-it note, not wanting to leave without saying anything: 'I'll see you around at work. I love you. I'm sorry.' Leaving it on the table for Callie to find when she woke up Arizona left, with one last tear-filled glance at her sleeping love she closed the door on their relationship.

*END OF FLASHBACK*#

Arizona shook her head as the tears began to fall once again, that night had been one of the hardest of her life. She'd turned her back on the love of her life because she couldn't change who she was...she wasn't the kind of person who had kids. She saw pain, hurt and loss everyday in her job; watched as children lost their parents...watched as parents lost their children; both situations as harrowing as each other and neither were something she wanted to go through herself let alone submit those she loved to.

It had been a month since they'd split up, a month of stolen glances across the hospital, a month of Callie trying to convince herself that she didn't need children to be happy...it had taken her a month to realise that she was just kidding herself. She wanted kids so much her heart ached when she thought about a future without a child in it and if Arizona wasn't prepared to bend for her, then she sure as hell wasn't going to give up her dream for Arizona.

They'd had one stolen kiss in the elevator; both of them overcome by the emotion of being in such a confined space at the same time as each other. Both knowing they were over, but both just wanting to tell the other how much they loved them. So a kiss happened, a passionate, heartfelt and painful kiss. Callie now swore to herself that wouldn't happen again; hell she couldn't keep breaking her heart like that. If she was totally honest with herself, Callie had now gotten to the stage where she felt anger at Arizona. Anger that she couldn't understand Callie's need for children, angry at herself for trying to change her dream for someone who obviously wasn't willing to do that in return. No. Today Callie vowed that that was it; her and Arizona for good and nothing would change that fact.

Would it?

A/N: Slightly short as it's the first chapter...most of you can probably see what's coming next with my summary of the story...Reviews please folks!