Summary;
just bought and watched the entire first and second seasons of Tru
Calling. That's it? Nnnnnnhhhhhhhh! They can't end it there.
Christ, if I like a TV series it inevitably seems to get cancelled,
Dark Skies, Space; Above and Beyond, Angel (ok, 5 seasons is a good
run but I'd say it was good for another year at least). Anyway,
barring them giving a TV movie to wind things up (why don't they do
that? They make movies of the week, why don't they link it to
series with a guaranteed audience? And we'd all buy the DVD) here's
how I think it all works out. The pressure of her 'Gift' drives
Tru to drugs, prostitution and suicide. (Don't worry, you know me,
happy ending as ever). This also works as a 3rd part to my Tru
Calling trilogy which you can find at
http/adultfan. T,
suicide, drug abuse, sexual talk
Disclaimer; all belongs to Fox
and naught to I, purely a free story for Internet distribution.
Timing; now
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"Plesubis Hominai"
She had worked here a
week before noticing it, written above the door of every room. She'd
never taken Latin and she hadn't had the nerve to ask so she'd
looked it up in the college library.
"To please men"
Just
in case any of them forgot why they were here.
"And what about
our pleasure?" she'd once asked Madame V.
"For that we have
each other" she'd replied kindly without missing a beat. Tru had
to admit, it was a hell of a good comeback.
She stepped out of
the shower and into the changing room, drying herself with a scarlet
coloured towel. A scarlet woman indeed. It didn't occur to her to
even attempt to cover her naked body. She had no secrets from the
other girls, they'd shared more than she could ever have imagined
together. She sometimes smiled when she thought of how shy she'd
been in the school showers.
She finished drying herself and sat
down at the dressing table. God, she looked terrible, tired and wan,
eyes bloodshot, her beauty gradually being eroded by her constant
burning the candle at both ends. The pressure of her work at the
morgue, medical school and rewind days inevitably wearing her down.
She'd go on the sunbed tomorrow, take a sick day from the morgue
and just sleep, sleep long and hard.
For tonight she needed to
stay awake. But she had an answer for that too.
"See you later
Tru" one of the twins said, stroking Tru's damp chestnut hair as
they walked past.
"See you" Tru responded, happy at this
casual display of affection but glad to be left alone. She watched
them go, one dressed in a skimpy white teddy with matching stockings
and suspenders, the other dressed in a mirror image black lace
lingerie outfit. She gave up, admitting she couldn't tell them
apart with their clothes on. Naked, she knew that Terri had a certain
beauty mark Sherri lacked. And she knew how she liked to be kissed on
it.
The sisters walked hand in hand as always, unconsciously
intimate. No wonder all the guys freaked for them. She'd heard a
rumour that they'd been spotted on a TV show by an Arab Sheikh
who'd had Madame V approach them on his behalf. They'd kept
saying no and she'd kept on offering more money until they'd said
yes. They were truly gorgeous, fairytale blondes and Tru knew from
personal experience that they were utterly sensational together, in
complete sync with one another.
But watching them all Tru could
think of was how much she missed Meredith.
How long since she'd
spoken to her sister? Or Harrison? Dad kept him so busy nowadays.
She'd long since lost touch with Lindsay. Her study group at
medical school didn't even bother to ask her to spend time with
them any more, they'd know she'd always turn them down. She and
Davies barely spoke to one another outside work now. He had a new
assistant now, grooming her to be a new Tru?
Thank god for the
twins, for all the girls here. She was always welcome in their
arms.
She put the towel on the rack, it's deep crimson matching
the elegant surroundings. No filthy back street hovel, this place
would put the Ritz to shame, all top class.
Top class whore.
Because that's what she was. A whore, a prostitute. She sold
her body for money, had sex with strangers for cash. No different to
the disease riddled wretch selling oral sex for $20 a shot in some
filthy back alley to pay for her crack. Or the high-class courtesan
in her penthouse apartment bedecked with jewels and furs. A whore was
a whore.
She smiled slightly when she remembered watching Gigi
with her mother and asking her embarrassed parents what a courtesan
was. Crack whore was something girls said to each other at high
school as an insult, it took a long time for her to learn what it was
but she pretty much knew it was an insult from the way they said it.
She whistled a few bars from 'Thank heaven for little girls'.
Huh, write that song nowadays and they'd lock you up.
She began
putting on her makeup in huge quantities to try and hide the stress
and sadness that her face spoke of. Now she understood the expression
'painted whore'. To be fair she'd never wear this much when she
used to date, this was for work only. She was absolutely a different
person in her other life. She practised her work face in the mirror,
a bimboish combination of passion, submission, devotion, lust and
obedience. It was largely based on game show hostesses, some
cheerleaders she'd met at college and some of Harrison's less
cerebral girlfriends. She called it her 'contented milkmaid'
look.
She was looking old. She knew she was always her worst
critic, most women were, but she could see the ravages of her
lifestyle beginning to bite. But she didn't see any way out. She'd
never asked for this, never asked for any of it, it had found her.
She had no choice but to go on.
How much longer would her beauty
last? How much longer until she was the girl passed by the customers
on the line up and be crestfallen that she hadn't been picked. How
much longer could this go on?
She gave one last look around and
reached for her cigarette case. She carefully measured out the white
powder and divided it into lines on the mirror using the razor blade.
She never snorted with a rolled up dollar, that was one cliché
she avoided. She used a jewelled cocktail straw a client had given
her as a present.
All top class.
She was running low. She'd
have to get some more tomorrow. She knew cocaine was progressively
addictive, that you gradually craved more and more, not like heroin
where you could only take so much before you OD'd. She knew exactly
what it was doing to her. But she simply couldn't get through the
day without it.
It had just been so easy to get into. Started
with stimulants to help her stay awake. Coke had been a natural
progression.
Her nose started bleeding. She grabbed a load of
tissues and stopped it by tipping her head back. She knew that this
was the least of her problems. Take enough and it would burn a hole
in your nose, destroy the septum leaving you with one big ugly
nostril. It had already taken away her nose hairs making her
susceptible to colds and flu's, she had one more or less all the
time. Eventually it would burn out her kidneys, give her blood clots,
raised blood pressure, chest pains. Then there were the mental
effects, the paranoia, as if Jack wasn't enough. The constantly
being on edge, the restlessness, the feeling of your skin crawling
all the time. It was hellish. Thank god she was beautiful enough to
pay for it this way, that she didn't yet have to steal to feed her
addiction. But she knew that eventually that day would come.
But
what alternative did she have?
"Madame V will chuck you out for
that" Tara pointed out handing her some more tissues. Tru nodded,
wiping the coagulating blood from her nose.
"I'm snorting, not
injecting" she replied, embarrassed to have been caught. She
rapidly cleared her kit away as Tara rifled through the drawers.
"What are you looking for?" she asked, glad to change the
subject.
"Extra condoms" Tara responded finding a large
pack.
"Sailors?" Tru asked, wondering if the fleet was in
town.
"Japanese businessmen" Tara replied skipping from the
room in her red lingerie. Tru watched her go. It was Tara who'd
introduced her to this life. When she'd needed money for the drugs
she'd gone to her old friend from the frat boy poisonings rewind.
Tru had been surprised how much she'd enjoyed stripping at the
club, the dancing, the attention and adoration, the sisterhood of the
girls. And the money of course. She'd had to buy a huge new Prada
purse just to carry all the tens and twenties she collected in her
garter every night. But it had all taken up so much time and with
rewind days, study and her shifts at the morgue she just couldn't
keep it regular. The brothel was more casual, a lot of the girls from
the club sidelined there. You turned up when you wanted to.
When
you needed to.
She looked in the mirror. She was as good as she
was going to get. Her body was still voluptuous but she was beginning
to lose weight at an appalling rate. The coke acted as an appetite
suppressant, one of the reasons so many models used it. She sometimes
forced herself, struggled to keep the food down. It was like no other
agony she could imagine. She pretty much lived on vitamins nowadays
because if you didn't your gums would start bleeding and your teeth
would fall out. She'd already noticed a few grey hairs. God, she
was still in her twenties! It was just the most appalling spiral.
It
would have been healthier for her to just hit herself over the head
with a hammer.
Davies noticed. He always asked and she always had
an excuse for him. Rewind days had made her an accomplished liar even
before she'd become a junkie.
Because that's what she was. A
junkie. A junkie whore.
It was worse than that though. The drugs
blocked the endorphin receptors on her frontal lobes, destroyed the
areas that allowed her to feel emotions. Destroyed her ability to
love. People sometimes wondered how junkies could bear to steal from
their family's or even hurt or kill the people they loved to feed
their habit. But with the drugs you just didn't care anymore,
didn't care about anything but your next fix.
How would this
end?
She banished such thoughts and went through the rack, trying
to decide what to wear tonight. Naturally there was every sort of
lingerie know to man. White lace for the virgin/whore look, black
lace for the whore/whore look, red silk for the insatiable/whore
look. The whole place was always kept stiflingly warm so that the
girls could parade around in two handkerchiefs and prayer which must
have been tough on the domestic staff and Madame V. It didn't
bother the customers though. They never kept their clothes on for
long.
How about a costume tonight? The schoolgirl was always a
favourite, Britney Spears had a lot to answer for. She'd pretty
much perfected her dance moves to 'Hit me baby one more time" and
they always had CD of the song to hand in case a customer requested
it. 'Spank me baby one more time' was probably more appropriate.
She put it on and looked at herself in the mirror before rejecting
it. She turned around and raised the micro-skirt to reveal her pert
ass, still red and tender from her last spanking. No, she needed time
to heal, her body was weakened by the drugs and that made it take
longer. She sat down again and unbuttoned her knotted cut –off
blouse, working her black high heels and white knee socks off as she
did so.
She'd been quite shocked when she'd learned how much
she enjoyed light S&M. It wasn't just the physical sensations,
wasn't just the intensity of it all. She figured at the back of her
mind she was glad she was being punished, felt guilty about what she
was doing. When she was chastised all the guilt went away. She liked
bondage for the same reason, when she was tied up, when she was
handcuffed she felt so helpless and vulnerable that she didn't have
to feel bad about enjoying herself.
It made her feel alive once
more. And little did nowadays.
As she stripped off her wonderbra
she thought back to when her mother had spanked her and Meredith as
children. Dad had always rapped Harrison's knuckles with a ruler
when he'd deserved it (which seemed pretty much all the time, even
then) but he'd always left it to mom to put the girls over her
knee. She wondered what her mother would say if she saw her now?
But
maybe she would understand. She'd had the gift too, understood how
it affected you, the sacrifices it entailed. Sometimes she wondered
if she hadn't in some way welcomed her murder? That finally it
would all stop.
She was naked again. She looked down the rack for
another outfit.
Cheerleader?
Her attitude to them had always
been a mixture of despising and envying at the same time. But then
that had pretty much been her attitude to strippers and whores before
she'd become both. She understood exactly why guys went for both
the cheerleader and schoolgirl, it was always the same type. Always
the nerd who'd lusted after his high-school crush from afar but
never had the nerve to ask in all truthfulness never had a shot
anyway. Now his brainpower, his nerdiness had made him money and he
wanted to revisit his lost youth, get the girl he always thought he'd
deserved. Tru smiled to herself as she remembered her own crushes.
You could never go back, not really, but the illusion was nice.
"So
we beat on, boats against the current…"
That and the
virgin/reproductive prime thing. But a virgin around here was rarer
than a straight man at a 'Sex and the City' fan club. Men were
deluded, they believed what they wanted to believe. Yet so did women,
yearning after the same unobtainable mixture of Hugh Grant and Arnold
Scharzeneger. Men trying to find a replacement for the mother figure
in their lives, women for their fathers. But no one could ever
measure up to that ideal everyone experienced as babies in their
parents arms.
French maid? Always a classic, cleaned for you,
cooked for you, had sex with you, didn't speak a word of english,
pretty much most guys ideal woman. Problem was some customers
actually mistook her for a real maid and asked her to fetch them
drinks or take their coats for them.
Nurse? God, men were so
cliched. But then so were women, still waiting for James Bond and
Prince Charming to whisk them away. The outfit she had here was lot
racier than the real nurse's uniform she'd stolen whilst trying
to help that soldier. It was safely stashed at the back of her
wardrobe along with her little black lacy number in case any future
boyfriend was an especially good boy.
She paused for a second.
Boyfriend? Would she ever have a boyfriend again? No, she had
decided, she just couldn't risk another. The cold unemotional sex
she had here would sustain her physical needs, the affection of the
other girls her emotional side.
And there was always the coke.
She
had already decided never to have children. It was a lot to give up
but she didn't want to pass this gift on, would never wish to
inflict it on another. She sometimes felt resentment to her mother
for doing just that to her. She occasionally wondered why her and not
Meredith? She was the first born after all? Maybe the corpses had
spoken to Meredith? Maybe she'd just chosen not to hear them.
Or
maybe she got the gift as she was physically closest to her mother
when she died.
Her slightly pensive mood was lifted by the sight
of her Wonder Woman costume. She'd loved hers as a kid so much
she'd used to try and sleep in it (Meredith had always been The
Princess, a costume they also had here. Harrison had been Spiderman
which they lacked). Lynda Carter had obviously made a big impression
on a lot of little boys who'd carried that over into adulthood. She
knew if she wore that she'd be fighting the men off. Which they
would also probably get turned on by.
No, she didn't have the
energy tonight, even with the effects of the coke kicking in.
Stewardess? "Would you like anything with your coffee? Cream?
Sugar? Me?"
Hot cop? "Hands were I can see them buddy! Let me
cuff you while I do a strip search"
Dressing up was one of the
more enjoyable aspects of the job, she understood now why actors
loved their craft so much.
Her dominatrix outfit also appealed.
She loved how powerful it made her feel, the tight PVC clinging to
her skin (with suitable amounts of talcum powder of course), the
towering spiked heels on her thigh boots making her feel like a true
Amazon. If the naughty schoolgirl appealed to her masochistic side,
her black PVC number fed her sadistic fantasies, venting her
frustrations on others rather than herself.
She could never get
over the men who loved being dominated. Politicians, heads of
companies, senior military officers, invariably men who wielded great
power in everyday life. But that was the whole point, you were in
your fantasy life what you weren't in real life. If you used to be
the school nerd, if you felt powerless, you wanted to feel powerful,
to dominate. If you really WERE powerful you wanted to take a break
from it, to feel helpless for a while, to be dominated rather than
dominate for once.
A lot of the girls really hated the men and
took full advantage of the S&M games to vent that fury. Tru
didn't, she considered them to be just as screwed up as the women
who pleasured them. She never failed to be shocked by the variety of
customers she had. Handsome men, men who you'd never think of
having to use prostitutes. Charming men, men who you would fall for
in an instant if you met them outside. But outside they wouldn't be
the same people, would live in fear of rejection and wouldn't be
half so confident as they could be when they knew you were a sure
thing.
Ugly men, deformed men, crippled by war , disease and
accidents. Really Tru didn't care, she'd close her eyes and
they'd all be the same to her in the darkness. Shy men who could
never think themselves worthy to even speak to a beautiful woman in
real life. Bored men. Nice men. Cruel men. Tired men with no more
energy for the dating game. Lonely men. Obese men. Men who wanted a
girl they considered totally out of their class. Men who wanted to do
things they could never ask of their wives and sweethearts. Men who
couldn't speak enough english to seduce ordinary women. Old men
reliving their lost youth. Young men, desperately intent on losing
their virginity. Tru's favourite client would invariably be a rich
middle aged drunken businessman who was proud of himself if he could
do it twice. Tru's least favourite was some high-school senior or
college freshman who was intent on getting his money's worth and
thought nothing of six times a night.
Some guys were impotent.
Some higher sex drives than their wives/girlfriends. Some were just
plain unhappy. Tru had once suggested ice cream to one such man but
inevitably he'd ended up licking it off her naked body. She'd
been sticky for the next 2 days.
Gay men came here to try and
prove to themselves or their buddies or their famillies that they
were straight. One guy was bisexual and his purely gay male lover who
would come with him to the brothel and chat to the girls whilst he
satisfied his womanising instincts.
'Plesubis Hominai'.
If
she wanted pleasure for herself she only had to go to another of the
girls, they knew her almost better than she knew herself.
Some
men just wanted to talk. Some cried in your arms. Some wanted to call
you mommy which freaked Tru out. Equally she was OK with mistress and
master but refused to play the 'daddy' game.
One girl had
recounted the story of going to a client's room and being horrified
to discover her equally aghast brother. Tru wondered that it had
never occurred to him it would always be someone's sister in that
room? Men were such hypocrites. No, in fact, people generally were
such hypocrites.
It was always men. Now and again you'd get a
couple who wanted a girl for a threesome and Tru would be happy to
oblige but you'd never get a woman here by herself, it just didn't
happen. As she always thought of it there were prostitutes who were
lesbians but no lesbian prostitutes. Women just lacked that kind of
dog in heat desperation men seemed to possess. When she'd danced at
the strip club Tru had always shared the mixed feelings of the other
girls about lesbian night. On the one hand it was a far nicer
atmosphere, she'd actually let the women touch her in a manner
she'd never dream of letting male clients do. But they never made
as much money, women simply weren't the suckers men were.
Here
and at the strip club they could feel as they'd always wanted to
feel, adored, admired, surrounded by worshipping females who they
supported through their money, their virility. Like a caveman long
ago, wanting to be the star of his tribe, the big hunter whom all the
women swooned over and wanted to bear his children. Madame V had once
posed a riddle for her "What two times in his life is a man fawned
over by women and then have a pair of breasts shoved in his
face?"
The first answer was easy, at the strip club or the
brothel. The second took her a little longer, when he was a baby in
the cot. "But girl babies have that happen to them too!" she'd
objected.
"And when we hit 13 we get a pair of our own breasts
to play with" Madame V had countered "And we get adoration and
affection form other females all our lives"
She abhorred the
married men. Some of them were suitably ashamed, hiding the tan lines
of the wedding rings they'd carefully removed. Others were
boastful, insisting on talking about their wives whom they were
cheating on. Did they really think that she wanted to know? Did they
think it impressed her?
. It made it easier that some of the girls
were the same. Bored, lonely, married women who craved adventure and
to be adored by men in a way that their husbands no longer could
provide. Some even had kids. One had once told Tru that she didn't
consider it cheating because there was no emotional involvement. It
was a lie, if Tru had ever caught her boyfriend with a prostitute it
would have been just as bad as if it had been with a lover.
The
girls here were as varied as their clients. Some were the stereotype
that Tru expected, women who had either been abused as children or
starved of physical affection in their youth. She'd hooked some of
them up with a psychiatrist Davies had recommended and several had
left this life never to return. She sometimes wondered if Madame V
knew what she had done? She suspected she did. After all, it wasn't
as though she had any shortage of volunteers.
Some genuinely were
schoolgirls although Madame V always insisted they were all over 18
with documentary proof to go with it. The authorities and the public
tolerated this place but there was a limit Madame V was quick to
adhere to. One of those rules was no drugs. Tru wondered how much
longer she could hide her addiction from this sharpest of women. Yet
she was also one of the gentlest people Tru had ever known, a
surrogate mother to them all. One of the girls had once told her that
her sink had been blocked and she'd turned to Madame V because she
could think of no one else. But Madame V had the scariest eyes anyone
had ever seen, they looked like horror movie contact lenses, her
pupils tiny dots against a sinister blue/grey colouring. The devils
eyes.
You could never judge by appearance.
As far as Tru had
been able to discover her real name was Megan Forrester. The story
went that she'd come into this life when her car had broken down
one night and she'd come to this place to use the phone. A customer
had picked her out thinking she was a working girl and she'd been
too flattered to refuse.
She reminded Tru a great deal of
Kristine, red hair instead of brunette but she had the same vibe.
Kristine who was on the other side of the world, helping the Tsunami
victims rebuild their lives. How Tru ached for her sometimes.
Some
girls were aspiring models and actresses who thought this a lot
better than waiting tables and hoped to make contacts. Apparently it
wasn't unknown, Demi Moore and other Hollywood stars had allegedly
once worked as escorts. Some girls married their clients, Pretty
Woman was rare but it did happen occasionally. Tru had had two
proposals from men who could keep her in diamonds and caviar for the
rest of her life. She'd gently turned both down.
A lot of the
girls were just greedy. This was some of the easiest money you could
ever earn. The younger ones would come in dripping of Gucci clothes,
Tiffany jewellery and strutting around in the their Jimmy Choos. Many
were students like Tara, paying off their loans. One had told Tru she
was saving up to travel across Europe. Another used the money in
order to keep her pony. Others used the money to support their
families, to put children and siblings through schools and
college.
Lots were bored or just experimenting. Sowing their wild
oats. Tru didn't think that was wrong, no one would think it wrong
for men to be promiscuous, why was it any different for
women?
Secretaries, nurses, airline stewardesses. Even a cop. You
could always tell what people did for a living because they never
wanted to play that character when it came to role-playing
.
Because here you were the person you weren't in real life.
Tru
Davies would never work in a place like this. She was a good girl who
would never have anything to do with this sort of thing.
But
Butterfly would.
Here you could be as feminine as you liked, here
it was accepted, it was nothing to be ashamed of. Here Tru Davies
modern independent woman didn't exist but Butterfly did.
She
turned to the mirror and inspected her tattoo on her thigh, a little
blue butterfly. In some ways she thought it tacky, as if she was a
branded horse or something. In other ways she thought it cute, a sign
she had been accepted into the sisterhood here. It was a sign that
not only did she belong to someone but that she simply belonged.
All
the girls had them. The twins had the star-sign Gemini. Tara a
crystal of Turquoise, her stage name. Robin had a little Robin.
Others ranged from a sailing ship to a little kitten. Madame V's
was just a plain V.
Why had she chosen the butterfly? Because it
signified femininity? Maybe because it was ephemeral and didn't
stay long? Maybe she just wanted to fly away?
Here, in this place
she wasn't Tru Davies, didn't all the responsibilities of the
rewind days. Here she could just let herself go, detach herself from
reality. It was like having a split personality, one face she showed
the world, one face she kept to herself here. If those two sides were
ever to meet she felt she would simply meltdown. She needed this all
more than the drugs.
She finally selected her outfit, a crimson,
vampy, slinky evening dress she often wore that reminded her of the
one she'd worn at Lindsey's beauty pageant. God, it seemed so
long ago. Of course with that dress she'd actually worn some
underwear.
The sound of the gunshot tore through her reverie.
She didn't run. What was the point?
In any other
circumstance it would almost have been funny. The cop was weeping in
Madam V's arms. The nurse was staring on in horror, looking as
though she was about to faint. Leaving it to the French Maid and the
Cheerleader to perform CPR
But then the French maid was actually
a nurse and the cheerleader was really a cop.
"Tru help me stop
the bleeding!" Robin instructed, trying to plug the gaping whole in
the businessman's chest with one of her pom-poms.
No, it was too
late. She'd seen so much death she knew when someone would make it
and when they wouldn't. She took careful note of the scene, taking
especial care to remember the bullet whole in the window and the
broken glass scattered across the carpet signifying he'd been shot
from outside.
"He's dead" the French Maid announced, giving
up on compressions. Tru bent down and took his hand. She waited for
the inevitable.
His eyes spring to life again.
"Help
me"
"Here we go again" she thought resignedly as the day
reset itself.
"Tru did you hear what I said?" Davies
thundered down the phone.
"Yeah, yeah I heard" all she could
think about was getting another fix. Of all the days for the cops to
bust her dealer this was the worst. It felt like a corkscrew grinding
away at her insides. The agony of withdrawal was almost more than she
could stand. She had to find another source but where?
"Tru it
was his business partner, he killed him because he'd discovered he
was embezzling. He shot him at the brothel because he figured they'd
try to cover it up,"
"I've got to go" she snapped back,
turning off her cellphone.
"TRU!" Davies roared.
He
was dead.
She'd failed. Not because of Jack. Not because of
circumstance or anything else. She'd failed because of her own
failings. She'd failed and a man was dead. Dead because she'd
been out looking frantically for a fix when she should have been
saving him. Her drugs had become more important to her than saving
people's lives.
What had she become?
Well it was time for a
change.
She walked out on to the balcony of her apartment.
She walked into the morgue checking her cheeks for the last
traces of lipstick. Problem with resigning from a whorehouse was
everyone wanted to kiss you goodbye, from Madame V right down to the
cook. And whores tended to wear a LOT of makeup. It had taken her
about five minutes to scrub it all off.
Her coke had gone down
the toilet. She didn't need it any more. Meredith was flying in
tonight and she'd agreed to sponsor her to her first few Narcotics
Anonymous meetings. Cold Turkey had been hell but now she and her
sister would go through it together. She felt it would bond them
closer than ever. And she hadn't had a nosebleed all day.
She
was on time. Hell for once she was actually early. Tonight she would
meet her study group and they'd finish their report together. And
then they'd all go to dinner, her friends from college, Meredith,
Harrision, Davies, everyone. Her appetite was returning, she would
eat, eat real food again. So what if she put on a few pounds? She
could always start running again. And tomorrow she would phone
Lindsey and see how married life was treating her. Then she would sit
down and write a long letter to Kristine asking if she could come and
visit her in the college holidays.
She opened the door. Davies
was sitting there on his stool as always. She opened her mouth,
wanting to apologise to him as to how she'd been behaving.
He
beat her to it. "You're fired" were his first words to her.
"No, not like that" Davies rolled his eyes. Amanda quailed.
"It's ok" Davies reassured her "Everyone screws up on their
first day" He wasn't mad at her, not really. He was mad at Tru
whatever the hell had happened to her. He felt like he didn't know
her at all nowadays.
A fresh body was brought in. Well, there was
no teacher like experience.
"Ok, now watch me, body appears to
be that of a twenty year old white female who has suffered some form
of blunt force trauma to her head, possibly from a fall. First of all
we take her personal belongings…."
Amanda cowered in the
corner as Davies let out an anguished half-animal scream as he
recognised Tru's corpse.
Tru stared at Davies, trying to
comprehend what he had told her. "I DIED?"
Davies nodded. "
Suicide. And you asked for help. In the end you wanted to live, you
weren't done yet"
"Who did I ask?"
Amanda stood in the
corner, still utterly confused and terrified about what was going on.
She timidly raised her hand.
"I've got your replacement"
Davies announced. "I've taught you everything that I can about
medicine and I don't think you need the money from working here any
more?"
Tru shook her head. No, she didn't. Without having to
afford the cocaine and with all the money she'd earned from whoring
she could easily put herself through college AND have enough to
practically buy and equip Kristine a new free clinic for her disaster
victims.
"What about Jack?"
Davies took her to the
mortuary. Jack lay there, stiff and stark, the top of his head blown
away by the bullet he'd put through his own skull.
"He didn't
ask" Davies explained simply.
She was grateful when Davies
covered him up again. She wondered if Jack had had any more choice in
this than she'd ever had?
"I can still help" she offered.
Davies shook his head. "You've done your share"
She took
him in her arms and kissed him long and hard. "I love you" she
whispered softly into his ear.
"I love you" he responded in
turn.
She turned to Amanda and kissed her too, feeling this shy,
timid girl go rigid in her arms as she did so. "If it ever gets too
much, if you ever need anyone to talk to, just call me" she told
her. Amanda nodded.
She walked out of the morgue, never to
return.Harrison and Meredith waited outside, giving her the
few minutes she requested before coming to visit their father. He
looked so much smaller and less impressive in his prison clothes.
"Hello daddy"
"Hello kitten"
"What made you turn
yourself in?"
"It's a long story. Call Harrison and Meredith
in and I'll tell you all together"
In the few seconds of
privacy they had left he put the flat of his hand against the
bulletproof glass of the visitors cubicle that separated him from his
daughter.
Tru stretched hers out and put her palm on the glass
opposite his.
The End
