A/N: I don't own Gilmore Girls but the plot line is mine. Also this story doesn't exactly follow the plot of the show. And Rory's not in Stars Hallow at the beginning of this. Just clearing that up for people.

R&R please

Over the Edge

Umm… Jess. Well… I just called to sniff talk to you but umm… I guess your phones dead or something. I just well… wanted to say even through everything that's happened… I ugh… still sniff still love…you. And I'll miss you. Don't sniff bother calling me back. Bye.

I hung up the phone now crying freely doing that was about the hardest thing I had ever had to do, compared to what was coming next.

From up here it all felt final. Standing near the edge of the building looking down, it looked so much higher than from down on the ground. I knew that there was no one who could change my mind now that I was up here. One step closer. This was the answer… wasn't it? Hands shaking, taking another baby step. One more step and it'll all be over, I have nothing more to live for right? At the edge. The person I loved left me, he's not coming back. A tear slid down my cheek not seeing his face anymore is the thing I'm going to miss most. Tips of my toes over the edge already, spreading my arms out, about to fall. When it's all over will he remember me?

"Rory!" I heard someone shout from behind me. I turned around "Mom." I said barley above a whisper and collapsed to the ground crying.

"Rory, what's going on?" She said sitting next to me.

"I couldn't take it anymore. I loved him." I sobbed.

"He called me saying that you said you would miss him. You weren't… doing what I think you were about to do? Were you?" Her eyes were glistening with tears. I stared into the ground maybe she would go away. I had nothing to live for anymore anyway. "We need to get you help." She said.

"No, I don't want help, I'm perfectly fine the way I am!" I said getting annoyed. Just let me do what I came here to do!

"Rory, you tried to kill yourself. Apparently you're not okay. Please just let me take you to the hospital." Her eyes were pleading with me.

"There's nothing to live for anymore. He left me he doesn't care anymore." My lips quivering trying not to cry harder than I already was.

"He told me about the message you left him. If he didn't you would be dead! I call that caring Rory." She said sobbing.

"He left me without saying goodbye or I love you. Do you know how many weeks after that I cried myself to sleep?!" I said sounding hurt. "He doesn't realize that he's the best thing that ever happened to me and the worst." I added grimly. "On the outside I would lie, tell everyone I really didn't care that he left without saying a word. But on the inside I was a wreck, no one realized it, not even you, my own mom, I was going under and everyone was oblivious." I was yelling standing up and staring out at the city sky line. The wind was blowing my hair in my face standing very near the edge again.

"Rory, please don't do this all you need is help, let me help you this isn't the way you want to go. He still cares I promise." Her eyes were honest and she was approaching me slowly, cautiously.

"No, I don't trust you, he doesn't care anymore. If you come a step closer I swear I'll jump." She knew I kept my word on everything so she abruptly stopped. "Just let me do this." Now I was the one pleading with her.

"No!" She said making a move closer, but not meaning to.

"I love you." I said and jumped.