Disclaimer: I don't own CSI or anything else affiliated with CBS. The characters are just borrowed... don't hurt me? lol
Summary- Setting is after Sara has left and she is left with her thoughts and memories... (ok I'm a little nervous.. it's my first fanfic that I've ever written and it's not much, just a drable. Comments are welcome along with advise , but don't burn me too bad ok?
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She looked out her window to the night sky of San Francisco and sighed softly. She began to wonder what he was doing, if he was staring out into the darkness as well. It had been four very long months since she had gone away, leaving behind everything she had known for the past nine years of her life and the part she had come to know over the past two. She had left the bright lights of Las Vegas behind, along with her fellow CSIs and 'family'... and of course, him. The only man she'd ever loved in her entire life. She'd waited so long and felt with so much to get him and all that patience had finally paid off and they were both happier than ever. That was until she came along...
The car was crushing her under its weight and the water was rising... she was pinned and losing the battle... and as she frantically fought the rising rain, Grissom was the only person running through her mind. There was so much they hadn't done, so much that she hadn't said and done for him and now she would never get that chance...
Sara snapped out of the memory with a bit of a jump, closed the curtains and then found her way back to her bed. She sat up on the pillows, hugging her knees up to her chest and laying her head on them. She closed her eyes and listened to the faint hum of the tv throughout the room, but didn't pay it much attention. She couldn't stop thinking long enough to focus on much besides the things playing in her own head. She thought about the team, the lab, her job that she had left behind, Hank, their dog.. so many things. But most of all, she was thinking of him.
Where is he right now? Probably still at work, sitting behind his desk catching up on paperwork he let build up...God, he hates paperwork..
Sara smiled, remembering the look on his face whenever paperwork was even mentioned near him. Her smile slowly faded as the next thoughts started to take over. She began to wonder what he was feeling. She had only spoken to him once, briefly to explain she was fine and tell him where she had gone and that was months before. He had sounded a little upset on the phone, but not to the point where she had worried too much. Now, however, she didn't know how he was or what he was thinking or feeling.
What if he doesn't love me anymore? What if he's found someone else? What if... he hates me for what I've done to him, to us?
The 'what-ifs' continued to run through Sara's mind for what seemed like an eternity. With each new scenario, she became more and more uncomfortable and restless. She got under the covers, turned out the lamp and switched off the tv and just lay there in the dark room, staring at the ceiling. She tried her best to sleep and not think, but it was no use. She lay there awake, thinking of him again. She wanted to hear his voice, to feel him next to her again. She missed everything about him. His smile, his laugh, the way he held her, kissed her. Hell, she even missed his snoring. At least she knew he was there. But he wasn't there now and she was alone. Tears began to form in the corners of her eyes and she let them run down her face. She started to sob, letting four months of built-up sadness and longing coat her pillow case. She let out all of the hurt and regret and every other emotion flood from her body, relieving her aching heart. She curled up and continued to hug her pillow as she slowly calmed herself down. Sniffling, she wiped the dampness form her cheeks and turned over to look at the clock. The bright red numbers blared in her face, and by reading them she knew that shift had ended about fifteen minutes ago. She opened her side table drawer and pulled out her cell phone. She wanted-no needed to talk to him, hear his soothing voice again. She flipped it open and went to dial his cell.
'Click, click, click, click, click, click---' Sara hesitated a moment, wondering whether or not to hit that seventh button. She waited, and then snapped the phone shut and set it beside her on her bed. She felt terrible. She couldn't even muster up the courage to call the one man who meant the world to her. She hung her head and sighed a bit. She got up and went to look out the window again. She pulled open the curtains and looked out into the midnight sky, the stars and moonlight flooding into her room. Suddenly, a wave of relief and happiness overcame her and she smiled. She realized that she was in fact not alone, that Gil was with her everywhere she went, every moment of every day.
' I love you, Sara. More than you'll ever know. You've always had a part of my heart, and now it's completely yours' he said.
'And you've always had my whole heart. I love you too, Gil' she replied, smiling as he leaned in to kiss her.
Sara smiled and her eyes welled up again remembering his words, but with happy tears this time. She continued to look out of her window, when a buzzing noise caught her attention. She turned and saw that her phone was vibrating: someone was calling her. She hurried over to the bed and picked the phone up and looked down at the caller I.D. She left it ring once more before deciding to answer it. The two of them hesitated, not knowing exactly what to say to one another. She was the one to break the silence.
"Hello, Gil. I've missed you so much..."
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Ok, so like I mentioned previously, it's my first story ever. I was so nervous about posting it, but after being encouraged by a good friend I did. Let me know what you think. If you like, I might continue it :)