Fleeting

There is little I can say. The world is spinning around me, and I can no longer feel my feet. They are as heavy as the looming trees around me, and just as deeply rooted. My heart is beating, too fast for my own good. I notice my hands going numb, my knees going weak. My breathing is becoming shallower with every impeding second. I had known. I had known but I refused to pay any mind. The speck of hope in my heart is what kept me going all these long, turbulent years. It was what enabled me to walk along side him. To smile at him, to laugh with him, hold him, dream of him, and attempt to understand him. The knowledge, that one day, I truly had a chance of being with him is what kept me alive. Now, I can feel it all disappearing like the specks of sand flying into the wind around us. What was here a moment ago has become nothing but a distant memory.

Slowly and painfully, I regain my consciousness, pulling it back to this dreadful reality. I know it would have loved to stay deeply hidden, rooted away from the miserable moment I was engulfed in. But like everything, it had to come to an end. I had to slip away without being noticed. I loved him too much and cherished him too greatly to let him know I was here. For the first time ever, I was actually glad he was holding another. It purposefully prevented him from gathering my scent, thus helping me avoid confronting him. I stepped back slowly, walking backwards into the dark forest. The shadows swallowed me, wrapping their cold emptiness around me.

After what seemed like a 5 minutes of walking backwards, I felt my body jerk as my back clashed with a tree trunk; the rough periderm of the tree scratching against my back, causing me to wince. My head hung down, and I could feel wet drops falling onto my arms. I knew it wasn't raining, and instinctively, I gently touched my cheek. I could feel the warm drops across my cold skin. It was indeed raining, but instead of water pouring from the sky, it had fallen freely from my face. Instead of the thunder and lightning colliding in the heavens, it crashed in my heart and soul. My insides felt like a torrent of pain and anguish, and the water that was dripping down my face was a result of the strife.

I slid down the tree, and buried my face in my knees. I thought for a few moments. I knew I had options. The world was not lost because he loved another. It was only my heart that was lost. I had no right to change things for him, or for anyone I cared for. The world was still spinning and the minutes had not seized to pass by. They were as countless and numerous as ever. I could go back and pretend I had seen nothing. I could attempt to smile bravely, and continue my duty and promise to find the shards of the Shikon no Tama. My duty did not disappear because my heart was broken, it just became more difficult. My second option was to leave and go home. I could cast my duty aside and act like a coward. These years that I have thrown my life into could be as meaningless as living life without love. Life without love…. Life with a one sided love… life … my life… my love…my fleeting love…

(3 hours later)

I felt the drops falling upon me. It took me a moment to register where I was, and what was going on. I reasoned I must have fallen asleep. My back ached from my sleeping position and my body was soaking wet. The sky was crying along with me, I thought warily. I stood up, and rose my head towards the sky. Closing my eyes, I let the drops fall upon me freely. They felt so cold, so refreshing. I had lost so much in a few moments, but the thought of the possibility of gaining so much more flashed through my mind. Nothing was lost because of love. It was just deterred to a different path… It was just like a cherry blossom that takes its time to develop. The longer it waits, the sweeter the fruit of its pain will be.

"Kagome! Kagome!"

My eyes sprang open at the sound of my name being shouted. His voice sounded so frantic, desperate even. I moved my hands toward my chest, exactly at the area my heart laid. Tears… more tears. I clenched my fists, the resolve to stop the fleeting fears from escaping within me growing stronger. I refused to ruin things for him. He was finally getting what he wanted. His eternity of waiting, suffering, and guilt was far more painful than my lost love. I could hear his footsteps behind me, slow and steady. They came to a halt a few feet away from me. I smiled, and turned, attempting to hide everything as best as possible. I would always hide everything as best as possible. His bright golden eyes locked with mine. His emotions were so readable, and that was what hurt so much. I was now face to face with the truth.

~*~ Fin~*~ Parte 1

A/N: I thought it would be much easier to write this story using the first person from Kagome's perspective. The rest of the story is NOT in first person. I already have submitted this story ok Dokuga up to chapter 6. Chapter 7 will be uploaded on their by October 10th.

This tale is mostly a dark and angst drama (or for now it is) . I try to bring out the raw emotion for all the characters, including Sesshomaru (when that time does come)

This Is my first posting on Dokuga and , but not my first story ever written. So please, take the time to let me know if I should continue or not. If not enough people review, I probably won't continue due to lack of viewers. I'll post here up to chapter 3…. So if enough people let me know if they want me to continue posting on here, I certainly would be glad to!!

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