I don't own the characters, they belong to SM. Song is According to You by Orianthi
I'm stupid
I'm useless
I can't do anything right
That's what I always thought of myself after how we ended. I wasn't worth it, I didn't deserve anyone, and I wasn't good enough for anyone.
According to you
I'm difficult
Hard to please
Forever changing my mind
I'm a mess in a dress
Can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you
According to you
You always hated the fact that I was indecisive. Sorry it was a habit I picked up from my family. I didn't hear you complaining when we met, it meant we always did what you wanted, and I figured that you'd be happy. You also knew that punctuality was never a strong point considering my family, and I never liked dresses. I was always more comfortable in sweats or jeans and a hoodie.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
Then I met him, it was after you had left me. After you left me feeling to useless and lost. With just his smile he light up the room, and what was weird, was that the smile was directed at me. I sat at the table sipping my hot chocolate; he came over and told me how beautiful I looked. I thought he was lying, surely he must be said my mind. I was in my ratty jeans, an oversized hoodie. My hair was in a messy bun and my face all blotchy from the crying I'd been doing. Crying over you it had been. But he didn't leave, he didn't laugh, he sat next to me and started talking to me, trying to get to know me.
According to you
I'm boring
I'm moody
You can't take me any place
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with it
According to you
According to you
You never liked taking me out; you always said that it wasn't worth it if I wasn't going to dress up so that you could show me off. That's all you ever wanted, a pretty bimbo on your arm so could say you had the best, but did you ever care about how I felt about that? I just wanted you to like me for me. So my jokes were lame but guess what people still like them, they enjoyed how I'd give it away, and still make it funny, no ever got as annoyed by that as you. At least I had a sense of humor, not that you did by any account. I got distracted easily because there was always something interesting for me to pay attention to. I was always coming up with ideas to write about, you knew about my passion for writing. You made me feel like it was a bad trait to zone out because I was developing a story line, and that no one would ever want me because of it.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
We got to know each other and I tried hard not to do the things I had done with you, but it's who I am, it's a part of me so it was fruitless. But he loved it; he loved all my little quirks. He loved it when I got distracted; he'd bring me paper and pen so I could write down my idea. He loved to hear me talk about how much I wanted to write, and couldn't wait to read some of my stuff. When we were away from each other we were constantly texting, I loved getting random texts from him while in class. "I miss you", or "Can't stop thinking about you", or "Wish I could just hold you in arms right now". Things you never told me, things you never bothered to show me.
I need to feel appreciated
like I'm not hated
Oh, no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?
It's too bad you're making me dizz-ay
I no longer regret you leaving me so lost and feeling useless because it led me to find a guy that I'm truly lucky to have. I wish you could see my like Edward sees me through his green eyes. He makes me dizzy with just the looks he gives me, it reminds he how you never made me feel special. Wish you could see what you lost with me.
According to me
you're stupid
you're useless
you can't do anything right
I hate what you did to me, but Edward has helped me realize that it wasn't me who lost when you left me it was me. I was never useless; you just couldn't past your own insecurities and faults. You really can't do anything right, you let the best thing slip through your hands, the only girl that was so in love with you that let you abuse her mentally into loving you.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Everything is opposite
I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you [you, you]
According to you [you, you]
We're getting married soon, and I couldn't be happier, he's made me more happy than I ever thought I could be. It's ironic how he invited you to the wedding so that you see how wrong you were, and how life according to you doesn't really work, and how you'll always be lonely and sad and angry.
According to you
I'm stupid
I'm useless
I can't do anything right
But I know now that I've done right by leaving you behind. Edward is my life now and I'm no longer lost, I don't feel useless anymore. He makes me feel beautiful, and smart. And he loves me writing. He's getting me published. Guess you never expected huh Jacob.