It was late Friday afternoon when Jane and Maura entered Jane's apartment in a frenzy. Jane kicked the door close as her hands were occupied unzipping Maura's canary yellow dress. The car ride home from work had been frustrating, both knew as soon as the car would stop and they were out of sight from the world that their lips would crash together in a heated passion.
The week had been long, the pair were caught up in a big case that lasted 8 days straight, but today they finally caught the perps, and Cavanaugh had given the team the weekend off.
Maura pushed the detective back against the door; her hand felt the door until she latched the chain. "I want no interruptions." Her voice was low and her eyes stared into Jane's.
The noise Jane made was somewhat of a moan as she pushed them off of the door. They stripped their clothing and were almost naked when they reached Jane's bed.
"Off." Jane demanded and pulled Maura's panties off. The white lacey underwear fell to the floor behind them where Jane's underwear joined shortly afterwards. "Spread 'em" she growled as the blonde underneath her opened her legs. The darker haired of the two set her hips down on Maura's and began to grind into her.
Their wet pussies rubbed together as Jane set the rhythm, she leaned back and held on to Maura's legs and listened to the moaning sounds coming from the woman that lay underneath her.
"Fuck!" Jane hissed as she felt Maura's thumb rub circles on her clit. "Mmmaura!" Jane continued to grind her hips only harder and faster now. "I need your fingers inside me." She climbed off Maura and did what was wanted of her, she sucked fiercely on Maura's neck as she coated her fingers with her wetness and slammed them inside her. She spread her legs and welcomed fingers inside of her own center and let out a pleasurable moan.
They rocked against one another as their fingers thrust inside each other. Maura grabbed a fist full of dark curls, pulled Jane's head back and dragged her tongue up the detective's neck. A few weeks ago during a similar sex session, Maura had discovered Jane's weak spot. Her neck being licked.
Jane purred into Maura's ear as they continued a rhythm to a beat that only they understood. She felt Maura's insides get tighter around her fingers as she slipped a third finger in and rolled her thumb over the engorged nub. The Medical Examiner thrust her fingers faster in and out of Jane, deeper and deeper, wet sounds filled the room, and she breathed heavily into her lovers ear. Maura was first to come with Jane soon following.
After both orgasms were ridden out, Jane rolled over and collapsed against the mattress. Both women panted and slowed their breathing down. Maura sighed and Jane knew what it meant.
There was only so many times you could call what they were doing a one night stand. The last three months they spent having sex at least once a week when their lives allowed them to. Casey was back on tour and Dennis was traveling from state to state to promote his new book. The best friends knew what they were doing was incredibly wrong but they couldn't stop it if they tried their hardest. Everything was going well between them; everything stayed the same but the sex added spice and need to their friendship.
Truth be told, Jane was ready to end things with Casey and just solely be with Maura. But the Doctor wasn't ready to do that. She was fearful of the repercussions. She was an Isles by name which meant she had a lot to live up to. And being in a relationship with a woman was not one of the high standards Constance and Philip Isles would accept. Dennis was a humble man, he was successful, he dressed well and he spoke well. Most of all, he had Maura's parents seal of approval.
Both Jane and Maura hated the fact they were cheating on their partners but they couldn't control the urge they had for one another. Everything they did felt right. And still Maura wasn't able to end things with Dennis to be with Jane.
Maura sat on the side of the bed and placed her legs into her underwear, stood up and pulled them up.
"Stay."
"You know I can't." Maura's voice was low; she looked to the side and didn't dare to look at Jane. She knew how much this hurt her.
"Neither of them are in town." Jane stared at the ceiling.
"I can't get into the routine of staying here, Jane." Maura moved from the bed to find the rest of clothing.
"So we just fuck and then that's it, you leave?"
"It's more than just a 'fuck'."
Jane sat up, the sheet falling down and exposing her breasts. "Bullshit, Maura. It's clear I don't mean anything to you if this is what keeps happening."
"How can you say that? You mean more to me than anyone ever has!" Maura slipped her shirt over her head. "You know how much I love you, Jane."
"Yeah, you love me so much you stay with Dennis because you're afraid of your parents disowning you." Jane crawled to the end of the bed and knelt on her knees as she grabbed Maura gently around the wrists and tugged her forward. "I'm scared too, but I'm more scared of losing you. I need you in my life Maura, and not just as my best friend. You're the person I want to make love to, you're the one that I want to settle down with and have a life with. Do you know how hard it is being with Casey, hearing him talking about how he wants children with me? And here I am lying in bed next to him dreaming of a family with you!" Jane placed a gently kiss on Maura's right hand.
"I care for Casey, I do." She continued. "But I don't know how much longer I can lie to him. He comes home next week Maur, and" Jane swallowed and looked into Maura's eyes. "And we need to sort this out; I need to know if we are ever going to be together because if not, we stop this now. We stop this and you be with Dennis and I be with Casey and we become nothing more than best friends. We don't have sex, we don't spend hours making out on the sofa, we don't linger for hugs, no more staring, no more dirty text messages, nothing. I'm scared of everything too, babe, I'm scared my family won't accept this, and I'm scared our co-workers won't accept it either, but I know as long as I have you I'll be okay, I'll get through it. I just need to know if you think we are worth risking it all."
"We could never really last." Maura once again refused to look Jane in the eye.
"If you're going to do this Maura, at least have the decency to look me in the eyes." The detective walked over and pulled Maura's head up so their eyes met. "If you really don't think we can last then you look me in the eye and tell me right now."
"We can't do it Jane, we can't leave them it's not fair."
"Oh, because going around sleeping with each other behind the backs is fair?" Jane was raising her voice and she no longer cared. "You think about being with me every time you have sex with Dennis?" She raised her hands with frustration. "What, do you think when I have sex with Casey and I have to fake every orgasm and wish that I were tasting you instead of having him hovering over my body?" She walked closer to her best friend.
"With his dick inside me while I wish I was touching this?" Jane cupped her hand over Maura's center. "You kissing Dennis when you should be kissing me? Is any of that fair Maura?"
"No." Maura whispered and quickly moved her hand to wipe her tears.
"We're good together, we always have been and our sex life together just proves we are meant to be together." Jane held onto Maura's arms and knelt down on the floor. "I had begging because Jane Rizzoli does not beg but this is you and I need you in my life, I need you to realise that you need me too, and not just as a friend but as a lover. As the person you spend the rest of your life with."
"Jane."
"No, Maura. No!" Jane felt she was in a lose-lose situation. "Don't break my heart anymore. Be mine."
Maura shook her head and tried to walk away but Jane held on. "Let me go."
"I can't just let you go Maura." Jane couldn't hold the tears back anymore.
"I'm sorry Jane. If you can't accept that I have to be with Dennis for them, then we will stop. We will go back to friendship and I'll control every urge to hold you, kiss you," Maura felt numb as she watched the woman she loves let go of her hands and allowed her body to fall completely to the floor in a crying heap. "Make love to you."
"I want you to be mine." Jane sobbed.
"I can be yours."
"JUST MINE, MAURA. NOT HIS, NOT ANYONE ELSE'S BUT MINE. MY MAURA." Jane's voice was shaky as she screamed out in emotional pain.
Maura wiped her tears and left Jane's room, she grabbed the clothes that belonged from her in the trail of clothing that lead to Jane's room and quickly got dressed.
"Don't."
Maura turned to see Jane in a fragile state. Her arms were folded over her chest and she was sobbing.
"You're my Maura." Jane leaned against the doorway. "You're my Maura." She repeated.
"I'll always be your Maura." Maura grabbed her bag from near the door. "And you'll always be my Jane."
"Don't go." Jane didn't know how but she now found herself in front of the woman she loved. "Don't love anybody else but me."
"I could never love anybody the way I love you." Maura leaned forward and kissed Jane's cheek. "Maybe we can be together soon, just not right now."
Jane watched as the love of her life left her apartment. She slammed her door shut and she fell to the ground, her arms wrapped around herself as her tears washed over her body. Jane curled in the fetal position...the only words that came from her mouth..."My Maura."
1. Cheating is bad, kids.
2. I'm emotional and cried during this.
3. Yes I'll be updating my other fics soon. I'm the slackest. I know. I'm sorry.
4. I could write a second chapter or a third...maybe forth *IF* it's wanted.
5. Which means you have to tell me if you want this to be more than a one shot.
- MT x