Chapter 1: It's Hard to go Back

The room was silent and dark. It was an unnatural silence for the apartment, but it had been silent for weeks. Though the darkness a guy no older than 23, sat on his bed staring at the dresser just to his right. He had his golden eyes directly fixed on a framed picture that stood up right.

Within' the frame was a picture of him frowning and a young teen smiling, with cotton candy colored hair. The picture seemed to make the guys golden eyes just a little dimmer.

With a sigh he turned away from the picture. About a second later the door burst open, almost scaring him (though he'd never admit it). A guy that could of been his twin walked in a smirk planted on his lips. He had dark raven colored hair and eyes just as dark, to match. His clothes consisted of a black top, a pair of faded blue jeans, and a black and white jacket to match it all.

"What do you want?" The blonde snapped while sliding over to the edge of the bed; He pushed off causing him to stand. He seemed shaky, like he'd had a hangover or hadn't been out of bed in weeks. His twin guessed both.

"That's no way to treat your brother!" His twin declared a bit sarcastic for his own good.

The blonde shot him a cold glare stopping his brother in his tracks.

"Okay, fine. I just came here to tell you that they found him. But I should warn you Eiri, he's not the same--"

"Where is he?" Eiri said not wanting to listen to anything else. He was immediately looking around for his clothes, ignoring his brother. He decided against changing thinking that it would take too long and instead grabbed his overcoat. He frantically began searching the room for his shoes. He growled in frustration as his brother walked off knowing exactly what he was searching for. He could hear Eiri cussing and muttering words that he couldn't make out. He decided to make a conversation, hoping it would distract Eiri, even if it was only for a minute.

"He's at the hospital... He's got a few cuts and bruises. It only looks bad..." His brother called out, as he let his feet drag, looking around the living room. Eiri never answered him and he hadn't expected him to be this moody... Maybe it was boyfriend withdrawal. He spotted a brown boot sticking out from under the couch. He walked over and pulled it out. Eiri took it without even looking at him and walked into his office in search of the other one. His brother shook his head, a bit amazed that Eiri could be silent when everywhere you stepped the floors would creak.

After about 5 minutes Eiri came out with shoes on and the same wrinkled clothes he'd been wearing in bed, his black coat over it. His brother shook his head at the white button-up shirt, that looked beyond the help of an iron, and his black pants... He had the sudden urge to throw his brother into a dryer.

"You're not supposed to wear shoes in the house," his brother stated, pointing to Eiri's boots.

"How about you crawl in a hole and die! You stupid monk." Eiri growled, coldly before throwing him out.

His brother laid sprawled out in front of the door. Eiri smirked slightly, but frowned moments later remembering the hospital.

Shutting the door behind him, he walked over his brother who was just getting up, just to be kicked down by Eiri's foot.

Eiri didn't even look back as he headed for his car. His brother yelled something about anger problems, but Eiri didn't hear. He had one thing on his mind now... Shuichi.

It took Eiri maybe 10 minutes and 5 speeding tickets, but he'd made it to the hospital in record time. He almost didn't put his Mercedes in park as he got out, cars barely making it out of the right lane; trying to not run him over. He never looked back as he burst into the hospital scaring several nurses and doctors.

He walked up to the shook up nurse, sitting behind the counter and smiled. With how messy his hair looked and the paleness of his skin, the smile didn't look natural. The rest of the people that were in the surrounding area were giving him weird looks or running away.

"What room is Shuichi Shindou in?" He asked bring as calm as he could, which wasn't very calm.

She nervously looked away and began typing rapidly, typing in random things that he presumed to be the security passwords. She hit the 's' button and enter, looking up at him, fidgeting slightly at his bored glare.

"R-room 205," she told him, pointing to the elevators, "S-s-second floor."

"Thanks." Eiri said, quite quickly, then walked for the elevator, (just to his left) leaving the girl at the front desk sighing in relief.

Even casually walked to the nearby elevators, somehow without running. He hit the up button and waited impatiently.

"Come on, we'll be late to see Shu-chan!"

Eiri turned around and saw the famous pop star Ryuichi come up holding his stuffed bunny like a little kid. He walked... Well, more like skipped up to Eiri.

"You come to see Shu-chan too?" Ryuichi asked, being all child-like.

Eiri didn't answer as the elevator doors opened and he walked in. Ryuichi stood there staring at him as he pressed a button and the doors shut.

"Come on Ryuichi-sama, the elevator door's open." Ryuichi turned to see his manager holding another door open, next to the one Eiri had just left in.

"Yay! We get to see Shu-chan!" He screamed smiling and ran into the elevator. The manager pushed his glasses higher up on his nose and turned into the elevator, pressing the button labeled two.

Eiri made it to room 205 without any interruption and was just about to open the door when he heard Shuichi arguing with what sounded like a doctor.

"Stay away from me!" Shuichi voice said bit frantic.

"Please... Mr. Shindou... Calm down." The doctor pleaded.

"And why do you keep calling me that!" He asked in frustration and anger.

"It's your name. The nurse told you yest--"

"I don't care what you have to say! My name's Kage! Get it right!" Said Kage/Shuichi.

'Kage? Does he really not remember?' Eiri thought as he let go of the door knob. He was about to turn and walk away when Ryuichi ran past him and burst into the room. The doctor fell over startled and

Shuichi looked at them like he was crazy. Eiri stayed at the doorway, as Ryuichi began to talk to Shuichi with a childish deminer and held out his bunny Kumagoro for Shuichi to say hi to. Shuichi gave him a weird look and sweat dropped.

"Do I... Know you?" Shuichi asked and scooted away from him like he was a plaque.

"Of course you know me Shu-chan! How could you forget!" Ryuichi pouted, looking at him like a child being denied candy. After a moment, Shuichi just shrugged.

"Sorry, but I don't think we've ever met before." Shuichi said casually as Ryuichi's manager came in. Ryuichi looked like he could cry. As a matter of fact, he did. His manager sighed and drug him out by the

back of his collar, saying things to try and comfort the pop star. Shuichi sighed and noticed a blonde leaning against the door frame of the door, looking very intently at him.

"Are you here to try and convince me that I'm 'Shindou' too?" Kage/Shuichi said as he looked lazily over at the doctor who had gotten to his feet and was frozen, looking at Eiri like he was the devil himself.

"Looks like you've got a nice reputation. I wish I could scare the doctors like that."

As soon as Shuichi said that, the doctor cautiously walked past Eiri, then sprinted as far away from the place as he could get.

'Shuichi... Your not your old self... What happened to you?' Eiri thought, but stopped as soon as Shuichi... Well, Kage now, spoke.

"So-o-o... Who are you?" Kage asked calmly to Eiri as he sat up, bent a knee, and rested his elbow on it, letting his arm hang.

"I'm your escort," Eiri said coming up with something at the last minute. He didn't want to argue with Shuichi/Kage. He already felt bad enough and screaming wouldn't help any.

"I have an escort?" He looked at Eiri questioningly.

"Why else would I be here?"

"Your here to take to 'Shuichi Shindou's' house, are you not?" Kage asked, acting suave. Something, Eiri didn't know he had in him.

"Yeah... Now, are you coming or not?" Eiri asked in more or less like a demand.

Shuichi/Kage paused to think before he spoke again. "Might as well... If it'll get me out of this dump."

The words didn't seem right coming from his mouth. Before he'd been innocent, now his eyes were more narrowed and he acted like a kid that had seen too much, but still tried to hide it with sarcasm and smirks. Shuichi slid out of bed wearing a black button down, long sleeve shirt, that was just tight enough to show off his small frame, but loose enough to maneuver in. The rest of his outfit contained a pair of tight black leather pants and a pair of heavy looking black combat boots, that looked like they could do some serious damage. Eiri had never seen Shuichi wear so much black in his life. The thing that really caught Eiri is the fact that he looked like he ready to make a run for it.

"What's your name?" Kage asked as he stood at the end of the bed cracking his hands, then his neck. After he was done he gave Eiri a goofy smile.

"Eiri Yuki," he said before he turned and walked out of the room.

Shuichi put his hands behind the back of his head, inter-locking his fingers, as he looked at the ceiling thinking aloud.

"Eiri Yuki... Yuki... Yuki... The name sounds familiar." He said and looked to the door frowning.

"He left me." Kage sighed and ran to catch up with 'Eiri Yuki'. Eiri hadn't gotten too far, he was waiting for the elevator to come back down.

"Hey! You tried to leave me! Some escort you are." Kage huffed, as he walked up beside Eiri and glared at him.

"I wouldn't of... If you hadn't been lost in a daydream." Eiri said coldly back.

"I wasn't daydreaming! I was thinking!" Kage retorted.

Eiri only smirked, as the elevator doors in front of him opened. Eiri wasn't used to the new Shuichi, but he was beginning to like him.

"What's with the smirk?" Kage asked as he walked into the elevator, followed by Eiri.

"I was thinking of ten ways to get you into a school girl's uniform." Eiri said as he hit the Lobby button.

"What!" Kage yelled jumping back in surprise. The elevator doors shut and he quickly go over his shock.

"You pervert!" He screamed kicking Eiri in the back. Eiri went forward a bit, but he caught himself before his head hit the elevator doors.

In an instant, Eiri had turned and pinned Shuichi/Kage to the wall, an elbow on each side of him. He had his body pushing Kage to the wall and Eiri's face was inches from Kage's. Kage just looked at him blankly for a moment, then he let out a smirk.

"You swing both ways, huh?" Kage asked pushing himself closer to Eiri. They were centimeters away and Eiri was using all of his will power to try and keep himself from ripping Shuichi/Kage's clothes off.

"Something like that." Eiri said, his eyes looking lustfully into Kage's eyes.

Kage leaned back into the wall. "Could you get off me. I promise that I won't kick you..." Kage/Shuichi said coyly.

Eiri hesitated, but he backed off and walked to the doors just as they opened. Eiri walked out, not looking behind him.

"... Hard." Kage mumbled under his breath, finishing his sentence, before he lazily followed Eiri. He was about to put his hands behind his head, but spotted a doctor staring at him, so he shoved his hands in to his pockets. It helped him hide the hospital band that resided on his right wrist.

They made it outside without being stopped. Kage guessed that they were glad to see him go. He took one last look at the hospital and turned back to Eiri, only to come face to face with the same hyper guy from earlier.

"Shu-chan!" He shrieked, jumping at him. He knocked Kage to the ground, Ryuichi going with him. They ended up with Ryuichi straddling his waist, while holding Kumagoro tightly, Kage's legs were slightly bent and Kage was holding himself up by his elbows.

"Um..." Kage began, but was cut off.

"I'm sorry! I hadn't seen you in so long! Even Kumagoro was missing you." Ryuichi said pointing to his pink bunny.

"Could you get one thing straight... The name's Kage. Not 'Shu-chan'." Kage clarified, as Ryuichi hopped off of him and dragged Kage back up.

"Kage... What did those kidnappers do to you?" Ryuichi asked stunning Kage with the seriousness of his voice.

"Kidnappers...? What are you talking about!" Kage asked, quickly recovering from the sudden shock.

"Do you remember where you've been for the past year?"

Kage looked like he'd been struck by lightning. He'd been through so much in the past year, and none of it was good. He really didn't want people feeling sorry for him and he wasn't about to start now.

"I gotta go." He said quickly and ran in the direction he'd seen Eiri disappear to. Ryuichi turned and watched him get into Eiri's Mercedes. Eiri shoved the gear into drive and turned onto the lane, driving away.

"What was that about?" Eiri asked focusing on the road.

"It was nothing." He lied.

Eiri began to circle the block, going into the bad side of town. Shuichi looked at his surroundings and let out a heavy sigh. Kage almost had his eyes closed, but he shot them back open when he spotted a ten year old getting beat up by an older teen.

"Stop the car!" Kage yelled startling Eiri, making him put the brakes on. Kage grabbed the dash to keep from flying forward. He pushed off the dash and opened the car door. Kage ran over to the fight; A little kid that didn't look much older than 10 was getting beat up by a kid at least 6 years older and a lot bigger. He stopped behind the teen and grabbed his by his collar and yanked him back. The guy was a lot bigger than even Kage, but size doesn't mean everything. The teen hit the concrete with a thud and Kage helped the little kid up when the teen came running at Shuichi/Kage with a switchblade.

Hope you all liked the story... If there's anything wrong, please tell me so! And if no one likes it then I'll delete it and get it out of your way. So please tell me so I know whether to update it or not.