AN: Okay, well this is an idea that's been bouncing around in my head for a while, so I finally decided to set it free and see what happens. It starts off in New Moon when Edward leaves Bella, but instead of going catatonic, Bella grows a backbone and decides that she's better off without him. Eventually, it will be Bella/Jasper I think, but that all depends on you. If you like this story and want me to continue writing it, please review and tell me that.
~Aria
They say death is peaceful, that it's nothing more than a flash and then you're gone. I've contemplated death, whether it's worth it or not. I've spent hours upon hours contemplating whether suicide is really an act of courage or weakness. Here's what I came up with. There's always going to be stuff in life that sucks, there's no way around it. There's always going to be things that you have to overcome in order to keep living your life. Basically? Life is what it is so just suck it up and deal with it.
Why do I stay with him when he only brings me pain? He stares at me as if I'm a fragile china doll that will break at any moment. He says he loves me, but how can I be sure? He always pulls back when we kiss and it doesn't feel like he actually likes doing it. What he feels for me? I don't think it's love. I don't think he ever truly loved me, but rather he was infatuated with me because he could not read my mind.
Today, all my fears were confirmed when he left me. He took me into the forest and just left me there, after breaking my heart and confirming all my suspicions. He never loved me, he never actually cared about me. He just wanted a little human to play with. I know I should feel devastated, hurt and crushed. But honestly, I think I'm better off now than when I was with him. He was so controlling and vindictive; I never got the chance to think for myself or do what I wanted to do. Where do I go from here? Home, to start my life as a human and not as the girl who runs with werewolves and vampires.