It was always there in the back of my mind: a thought that couldn't be forgotten, clinging to me night and day.
"Light is Kira."
I knew this was true, but I was always a breath away from proving the theory. Just as I thought the case was solved... You trampled my proof with what seemed to be facts.
I was a bit shocked when I first noticed them. They were new, uninvited, and unidentifiable. Above all, they were unwelcome.
Feelings.
Not ordinary feelings, like sadness, happiness, hunger, exhaustion... No. These were different.
It goes without saying that I am not very emotional.
To develop feelings for another person, especially the person I believed to be my enemy... It was baffling, to say the least.
Feelings.
I still have no clue what the root of them was.
Where they of brotherly nature?
Or, could they possibly be... romantic?
Or was it simply admiration, considering you were the only one who could repeatedly outsmart me?
For once, I do not know the answer to a question almost anyone could answer. What was I feeling? I do not know.
Love is one of the few things I have not studied, and it is certainly the only subject in which I am a true fool.
Strangely, I was desperate for you to be Kira, yet simultaneously it was the last thing I wanted.
What was more important? Solving the case, and being right all along? Or you being on the side of the angels... the kindhearted man you flawlessly pretended to be?
In the end, I chose you.
I put my faith in sugarcoated lies, and now, I pay for it.
Don't look so proud, Kira. I saw this moment coming from a mile away.
But you were my only friend, and the only person I have genuinely loved.
And yet, after all we have been through... After days of staying together at all hours... After washing your feet, like a servant would do.
You have betrayed me.
I knew it would be this way, of course.
You truly are my Judas.
And how appropriate, that the arms I longed to be wrapped up in, are finally holding me... my blood still on their hands.
Now, in my final moment, as a storm rattles my ribcage, your cold eyes seem to whisper the truth.
"I am Kira."