Summery-Edward told me I wasn't good enough, and he left. took everything with him and left. Jacob told me to just leave. So I did. Set during New Moon, where Jacob tells her their friendship has to end.
A Good Reason To Go.
Chapter 1.
Summery; The words, his words, kept running through my mind. Every day. All day. I wasn't good enough for him. For any of them. Alice never returned my e-mails. She never read them, knowing they were coming, and would kept coming. His words mingled with Jacobs that day.
PLEASE READ BEFORE: Authoress' note;
* The conversation with this -not so far down actually, I took Jacobs lines from the both the book and movie and put them together. Edward's is from the book. I do not own any part of Twilight or their characters what so ever. If I did I would have put the alternate Breaking Dawn version she wrote for her sister out in print, because it sounds a shit ton better then the version we got. Just saying.
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"You don't belong here Bella. Just leave."
Jacob's stern, un-apologetic face cut the life saving branch I was holding on to. I heard it snap in my head as their words co-mingled and crossed each other.
" (What are you doing here, Bella?) I'll always love you.( We were.)...in a way. (you don't belong here) You're not good for me. (Just leave.)" *
Over and over again, a broken record. It was a blessing in its own. She wouldn't see this way. I made hundreds of decisions. If she even cared to look, why would she? My e-mails she didn't register, so why would I? I knew what I had to do. Staying here, seeing visions of him, both of them everywhere. Their scent, their voices, laughter couldn't happen anymore. A few loose ends to take care of then I would be gone. Every ones problems solved at once. All except Charlie's. He would miss me, but his pain seeing me in pain, that would end.
Pulling up to my house I heaved a sigh and got out of the truck. Looking at the house, my house, it will come together. It had to. What to do after, I had no idea, and that would keep me hidden in case she wanted to look.
'Well, that wishful thinking is going to have to go.'
I barely registered the walk inside, ( Charlie was still fishing.) and was in my room , at my desk and typing, honestly. Not knowing but still caring whether it was going to be read. Hoping beyond hope it was. If it wasn't I would have to go through with it. No one would stop me, no one would come back and say it was all a mistake, a nightmare really.
' Alice, I don't think you are reading these. I don't even think you need to. Maybe you can read them before they are typed out, who knows? Either way this is it. The last e-mail. It hurts even more then I thought it would. Everything does. I can't stay here. Jacob doesn't want to be around me either. I figured if you all could leave no problem, that I could too. I know my mom misses me. being around her may be a little much to take. At least Charlie is as alone as I am. Who knows how things will turn out for me, or the Cullens. ( Well, besides you.) I just need to put one foot in front of the other one. I'm not sure if a new life is there for me, since mine left already. I wish you all well, and happy lives. And I hope he finds what's good enough.'
Bella.
My name seemed odd to be at the end. Did she exist anymore? I wanted to find her. Or something like her. Hitting send was the easiest part of this whole thing, and always would be. I glanced at the clock. Charlie would be gone for another four hours at least. Something , a rough sketch would have to be thought of quick. The phone rang. I ignored it. No one would be calling me. Jess and Angela never bothered anymore. My adrenaline rushes scared them. Mike was still embarrassed about the incident at the movies, and clearly thought Jacob was my new guy. Everyone did. The machine picked it up.
'Hey Bella, it's mom calling to check in. Your father called worried about you and I told him we would talk. Bella, baby please call me back I lo...'
" Hey mom, sorry about that I was just screening the calls. Look, I need you to listen, just listen and really hear me out ok? Jacob ditched me too. I don't know why. I think it's because I'm not in love with him, or interested in that way and..."
"Well, you and Edward were serious and hasn't been that long he should know it
s too soon and..."
" Yah mom listen I can't stay here anymore. It's too much. I'm seeing every memory being played out. And I can't have that, I can't concentrate or breathe. I need to go."
"I'll get you a plane ticket honey. you will love it here the sun its what you need, nice and relaxing. we can even go the spa!"
"No. Mom I'm 18. I am going to take the GED tests and finish school now. I want to travel, find whatever it is i'm looking for. I need to get away. please mom. help me? please?"
" Oh Bella we were looking forward to seeing you in the cap and gown. And what will Charlie think? Have you really thought this out?"
"I'm going with or without your blessing. I would rather have it. I could drive there first, spend some time with you then go. But please, didn't you do that with me? Took me from Charlie to find yourself?"
The pause was long. Too long for her.
"Let me talk it over with Phil, and I'll call Charlie tonight. We can have a family meeting of sorts. He does have a speaker button on that ancient phone yes?"
"Thanks mom, yah we have one. I love you, I do but I got to go."
"Please don't do anything rash until we all have talked this over?
"I promise to try. Love you."
Step two ended with the phone call. Step three involved a little research online, and as I turned to go up to my room, I felt a small smile cross my face. For the first time in months I had put a smile on my face. Not Jacob. Me. This was a sign. I was on the right track.