A/N: This is Hermione reflecting on Draco. Just thought I'd say because I don't use any names. It starts at the half way through the Half Blood Prince. This might be classed as slightly AU. By the end. She's 22 (approx)
Disclaimer: I do not own the world of Harry Potter. Nor do I own 'Because of you' by Kelly Clarkson.
I will not make the same mistakes
that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much
misery
So that was it then. I fell in love and lost. It's funny how that happens. That person is right in front of you but you don't realise. Of course, you being perfect did. All the years 'hating' me, all the years making my life miserable. And you knew.
I
will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned
the hard way
To never let it get that far
You asked me out and I said yes, but I was afraid. Afraid of my friends, afraid I'd made a mistake. And I had. You joined them. You became a death eater. You said you were scared of your father. Then you should have stood up for what was right.
Because of you
I
never stray too far from the sidewalk
I'm to scared in case the next death caused by you.
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I vowed never to fall again.
Because
of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
You betrayed me.
Because
of you
I am afraid
I am afraid.
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you
point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in
your eyes
You started to become your father. I was inferior, a mudblood. I should have run then. But I stayed believing that somewhere deep inside you were good.
I'm
forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart
can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
You destroyed me a long time ago. That first day when I saw you, strutting. Deep within something broke.
Because
of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I'm to scared in case the next death caused by you. Is you
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I vowed never to fall again. But I did.
Because
of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
You betrayed me. For ever.
Because
of you
I am afraid
I am afraid.
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in
your sleep
I knew something was wrong. But I couldn't stop them. They flung me aside like a rag doll.
I
was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
If you were to betray me, you should have known.
You
never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
I was there to make it better. That's all I was. Something to own. I was just another manor, another house to be won.
And
now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Now you're gone and there's nothing I can do. Now I cry for they're coming for me.
Because of you
I never stray too far from
the sidewalk
I'm to scared in case the next death caused by you. Is you. Was you.
Because
of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I vowed never to fall again. But I did. For you.
Because
of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
But I can't. Because it's you.
Because
of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
I'm a shell. My love has gone and I couldn't stop them.
Because
of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
I'm ashamed to see Harry, Ron. So I stay here, where you died waiting for them to come.
Because
of you
I am afraid
I am afraid.
Because
of you
Because of you
Because of you I gave up everything. Now they are here. Searching. For me. I will see you again soon. In minutes. In seconds. Now