Disclaimer: Don't own digimon
Rating: G
Dear Diary
Dear diary, I spent another day of watching my beloved swooning over another. Sometimes I think it's all toying or flirting and begin to believe my beloved is really in love with me, but I know I'm just kidding myself.
My rival for my beloved's affection is a fellow digi-destined like my beloved and I. It makes it especially painful since we must spend all that time in the digital world together, while I put on my happy act, and pretend not to be tearing myself apart inside. My poor digimon can sometimes see through my act, yet I can't tell him why I'm upset, digimon don't understand these things.
Sometimes I'm so angry as I watch my beloved and my rival together, I want to get violent. But I know I don't have the heart to hurt my rival. We're friends, and in fact, my rival is one of the people I admire and is a friend who I have a strong relationship with. So it's hard to stay angry for very long before I start to feel I'm the bad one.
I try and drop subtle hints, and sometimes I go overboard, making my beloved hate me. I'm just so inexperienced in love, and I'm a bit afraid too. Maybe I'm too subtle, or maybe I'm painfully obvious and my beloved flirts to drive me away.
Sometimes I think my rival has no interest in my beloved, and is just trying to be nice to my beloved in friendship while my beloved really does want the love of my rival.
Maybe my rival feels sorry for me, maybe that's why she's always flirting with TK, trying to give ugly old me a chance with my beloved Daisuke. Oh why does he have to love Kari, why not me!
-Yolei