AUTHOR'S NOTE:

The New Year is almost upon us, and that means it's time for making some resolutions. So I decided that I'm going to challenge myself more and move beyond my comfort zone by attempting a writing style I have never tried before…I have decided to try writing a poem for the first time! (I know there are a few people on this fandom who are excellent at writing poetry and I don't expect my effort to be anywhere as good as that, but I tried my best and this is what I managed to put together…)

But I will warn you that what you are about to read really did happen to me and I hope that doesn't put some of you off. You see, when I was 16 years old, I experienced a horrible act of betrayal by a member from my own family (which was not a one-off incident unfortunately) and it has haunted me for many years after :( I am still learning how to move on from that dark time in my past and the other day I was feeling pretty sad when I was inspired to write this…

But Hey! That's life! We all have our personal crosses to bear and I just want you to know that having the opportunity to write stories for you guys on this fandom has been a major help in my road to recovery and discovering my self-worth again!

I hope my Emotions will get the message and maybe they will finally remove this awful memory from the shelves of my Long Term Memory and send it to the Memory Dump where it should have ended up a long time ago…

I want to wish all of you the best in the New Year and I will continue to write more stories for your enjoyment (And don't worry! They won't be poems! This is just a one-shot attempt to see whether I could write something so different from my usual style.)

Well, I think that's all I wanted to mention in this note. I'll leave you to read the poem now and let you in on one of the darkest secrets from my past…

Silent Screams

In the darkness of the night,

When no one hears my screams,

Sadness and I, we make a great team.

We wipe away each other's tears,

Accumulated over many years,

When those who should protect and love,

Abuse my trust and destroy my soul,

Only Sadness can make me feel whole.

I called out to Joy, and crawled towards her on my hands and knees,

But I could not find her anywhere at all,

Joy was missing from my life and mind,

She chose to hide and not be found.

Disgust was the only one who decided to stay and see,

When the one who is supposed to love was destroying me.

I called on Anger and it took him forever to answer my call,

But when he did, he made me feel strong and tall.

For a moment I kicked the darkness to the dust,

But guess what? It did not last.

I stared into the abyss and I heard it call my name,

For a long time, I felt so weak and lame.

In the end I called out to my friend Fear, hoping that he would hear.

My friend answered my call with open arms and reassured me,

"I am here for you for all time and I will always protect you from harm,

I'll wipe your tears and hold your hands,

And together we will run away to imaginary lands.

A place with no sorrows and no lies where nobody cries,

I will be the one to protect and love you forever.

I will be your friend to the end."