After the tears
This is done in Botan's POV
Author's message : This also features some few lyrics from the translation of the song Namida no Ato Ni from ffx which literally means after the tears. I've been writing fanfics before but this is the first time I'm going to post here coz I actually enjoy reading more than writing. - (so please be kind.. heheh) and if you're not a fan of this pairing.. please spare me from too much bashing because I really love this pair. Anything can happen in fics anyway! pYou have been forewarned so read at your own risk. winks
And by the way, lyrics were italicized!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters of Yu Yu Hakusho.. I wish I did though! Oh and the lyrics are the intellectual property of their respective owners! (Takahito Eguchi, Takuya Sugimoto and p mog for the translation)
I stand between the sky and the earth, dwarfed by their vastness
A grim reaper, that's what they call me.. An entity who takes away the existence of an individual's past, present and future. A being who should have been numbed by now because it is the call of duty.. Flying on an oar back and forth from ningenkai to reikai just to guide souls.. I have seen many faces of death, loss, remorse, and pain yet nothing bothers me the most except this new feeling bottled up deep inside.. A new kind of pain? I don't know but it sure is a heavy burden within me..
When I awoke, I had been praying alone for the morning to come again today
For whose sake, I didn't know but then... yes, I met you
Everyday...
Different faces and different souls...
Everything was calculated and repetitive until the fateful day I met you..
You are different from the rest... there is something in you which is more than what meets the eye...
You gave me something to look forward to each passing day...
"Booootaaaaaan!" an irritated squeak coming from a small child with a pacifier ended my deep thoughts.
"Okay okay.. I know.. stop it already.. I'll go inform him about the mission! See yah later then!" I quickly said trying to avoid Koenma's hot temper.
With that, I giddily hopped on my oar to go to the human world. This has got to be another one of my happiest moments... I'm going to see him again!
I immediately went to his house to inform him of the newest mission which is so easy that he won't need the help of everybody else... My hands were shaking as I knocked on the door... Knowing that he's there made my knees kinda wobbly too! Luckily, I was able to pull myself back together just in time as he opened the door.
"Oh it's you..." came a semi-bored tone, or more like a sleepy tone.
"Well this must be your lucky day because you're the only one who gets the chance to see me today!" I managed to kid him nonetheless.
"Fine.. come in! I suppose you came all the way here just to see me, right? You're missing me huh!" he blurted out with a smirk on his face
A red tint slowly crept my cheeks but I immediately shrugged it off so he won't notice.
"So what if I do? What will you do about it?" I decided to play along.
He was definitely caught off-guard, more of like stunned actually. So I laughed wholeheartedly because he looked funny!
"Why you..." his eyes narrowed... But he stopped and said "Okay let's end this nonsense and go straight to the point, I really need some rest... a new mission right?" he said nonchalantly
"Oh yes, in fact, here is the folder for more information... go read it! And while you do that, can I have some cold water? I'm so thirsty!"
which is actually true... more like a result of how much he affects me.
"Help yourself, go straight to the kitchen..." he said while browsing through the folder.
For no reason at all, I stayed too long in the kitchen... I can't pull myself back together... I was afraid that sooner or later he might discover my feelings... I was afraid he'll find out because I might easily give in... I know that I can't handle rejection...
Anyway... its night already... I have to go...
"Hey Yusuke! If you have any questions..." I yelled while walking back to the living room... but I stopped...
Your sleeping visage showed me that there are times when I felt I couldn't sleep alone
There he was... crawled up in the sofa... looking like an innocent boy with his face covered by his bangs... he was smiling... It was a sight to behold... I immediately went to his room to get some blankets and have him covered; As I did, I couldn't help it... I brushed his bangs off his face and gave him a light peck on the cheek as I whispered softly...
"goodnight and sleep tight..."
I now prayed intensely that the dream would never end
I was afraid that he'll wake up because of what I did... but luckily, he was in a deep slumber. As I was about to step out of his house... I heard him mumble...
"Keiko..."
I've been holding back my tears, is it all right to shed them now?
Say, if anything should happen, Say, could you stay smiling for me
Like you always do...?
That's it... that name had hit the breaking point... I hurriedly stepped outside and got on my oar. I wanted to cry... but refrained myself from doing it... I knew that I didn't have the right to do so... I know that things couldn't have been complicated if it wasn't for me...
"Silly old me!" I whispered to myself.
Me, the numb grim reaper...
Yeah right!
Numb...
But not really...
I was hoping I could mask myself through that bubbly attitude but no...
How could I...?
How could I have been so vulnerable?
A question that may never be answered...
Both the twinkling stars and the moonlight can shine because there's night
I looked at the bright moonlit sky and saw his face... smiling... a sight that almost melted my heart... Yes, he did get the best part of me...
With that, silent tears finally streamed down my face...
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Okay! That wasn't excellent but it's not that bad too, right? sniffs I planned this whole thing as a one shot songfic but I realized I should continue and make more chapters... I don't know... what do you guys think? please review! -