Summary: Marissa's thoughts after shooting Trey
Disclaimer: I do not own the OC, although I totally wish I did. It all belongs to the great Josh Schwartz!
I don't know what came over me
But he was killing you
I couldn't let that happen
I didn't mean to shoot him
Things seemed unclear at the time
Like a blur
You and him fighting each other
It was too scary to watch
I don't know why I did it
But I'm sorry
I'm sorry about everything that's happened
I'm sorry about giving mixed signals to you when you first came here
I didn't know who I wanted
You or Luke
But I chose you
I'm sorry about my mom being a bitch to you
But you stood up to her
For me
Nobody's ever stood up to my mom the way you did
I'm sorry about Oliver
I should have listened to you
He was crazy, like you said
But I didn't seem to care
Until it was too late
I almost lost you
I'm sorry about not being supportive and helping out with Theresa and the baby
All I did was acted like a spoiled brat
When you were clearly in a position you didn't want to be in
I'm sorry about not telling you about DJ
I don't know why I was even with him
I guess it was because you weren't there
I'm sorry about screwing up your relationship with Lindsay
She was really a nice girl when all I did was mess everything up
I don't know why I do these things
And for that, I'm sorry
You were always there for me
You took care of me
And you protected me
From my mom, Luke, Oliver…and myself
All you've ever done is be my best friend
And I'm forever grateful for that
But I failed you
I shot your brother
Your flesh and blood
I swear I never meant for it to go that far
When we got back together
Things were perfect again
Well nothing is ever perfect
But it was close enough
I had never been happier
That's why I couldn't let him hurt you
Not after he hurt me that night
I can't change the past
But I can try to change the future
I'm so sorry Ryan
I hope that someday
You will find it in your heart
To forgive me
I love you
And I'm sorry
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