Forget Me Not - Chapter 01
(Short because it's an introduction chapter.) Please review :) xxxx
Faith's Point Of View
"Sorry, your not my type." I slammed the stake hard into his chest and he cried out before disintegrating into a wisp of dust. The wind blew him away as I tucked the stake back into my pocket. I wonder what B might be up to...it's only ten at night, maybe she's at the Bronze? With Mrs Summers at home...? With Scott? Damn, I shouldn't care so much. Things have been different...for a while now. How my brain's been thinking...-what- my brain's been thinking...it's getting harder and harder to compress.
Trying to hide from yourself is even harder than trying to hide from the rest of the world; I have the joy of attempting both. Alright, so maybe I could try a little harder to be more like the Scoobies, but I mean...I'd rather just be alone than not be Faith...right? That's the best thing to do right? Damn...there I go again...thinking. Thinking too much.
Last week I wouldn't have cared about what the Scoobies thought - I wouldn't even be questioning
changing myself for a bunch of school kids. But I've changed. Parts of me are so different that even I don't know who the real Faith is anymore. I decided after all to go to the Bronze. Might as well dance a bit even if B isn't there. I don't need her to have a good time...yeah...that's right!
I arrived at the Bronze shortly after staking that vamp. Putting on my casual, cool, sexy act, I strolled inside as the music blasted through my ears. Is she here...? I don't care...much... Okay fine! Maybe a bit of me wants to see her blonde hair falling by her shoulders and her mesmerizing green eyes that dazzle you whenever you- what the hell is this I'm thinking? Oh God...I don't...? Do I...? I can't! Can I...?! Shaking my head slightly, I slid onto the dance floor and grabbed the nearest male wrapping my arms around his neck and moving my body up and down against his.
I could sense how much he was enjoying it from his body heat; people closed in around me, I grabbed another guy discarding the last and starting on the new one just as viciously until...I felt her eyes on me. I don't know how I can tell...but I know she's watching.
_________________________________________
Buffy's Point Of View
The dance floor seemed pretty empty. I stared at it for a while just wondering, thinking and relaxing. After a few minutes, Will waved her hand in front of my face.
"Hellllooo? Is Buffy home?" She grinned. I came to and shook my head slightly.
"Sorry Will, I was somewhere else..." I smiled slightly turning away from the dance floor and staring into my cup. Willow grinned again then turned back to Oz, chatting happily to the werewolf. Xander was on my right, his attention fully on Cordelia. I sat in the middle of the two couples...and again fell into just thinking. Wonder if there are many vamps out tonight...? How many could I have slain by now instead of being here? Is Faith slaying? Is she gonna show here tonight? What about Scott? Why hadn't he come? I asked him to didn't I...? Whoa, too much thinking.
I shook myself out of my 'somewhere else' this time and sipped my drink letting out a tired sigh. Turning to watch the dance floor I noticed it had become packed out. Crowds of people were engaged in their dancing and grabbing anyone near them...then I looked to the centre of the dance floor - and spotted the core of all the energy.
Her brown curls were bouncing as she danced, her leather pants I noticed, were sticking even tighter than usual to her legs, her black top was fit for her body shape, of course her cleavage was on show then I thought to myself why the heck was I noticing all these little details. I couldn't resist as a slight smile curled the edges of my mouth as I watched her dance. It was as if she knew I was watching her, because she slowed and came to an end of her dancing. She nodded at the guy and
smiled at him blowing him a kiss as she strolled off the dance floor. Her eyes fell straight on mine.
We looked at each other for a moment; I felt a faint blush crawl onto my cheeks, her gaze focusing on me only. It felt like nobody else was in the room - like the music was turned down low and that me and Faith were there together...just me...and her...
I felt uncomfortable after a short while; I turned to stare at the floor in embarrassment.
I could sense she was grinning wickedly, and over she came, strolling as if she enjoyed making me wait.
________________________________________
Faith's Point Of View
We'd shared another one of our moments. Usually they were shorter than the one we just encountered, only a few seconds - but this one had been long. I felt a grin spread across my face, and as casually as I could, I strolled over to her and the Scoobs. I stood behind Buffy, there was no seats available on the gang's little table. I was cool with it...I wouldn't feel comfortable sitting round the table anyway...to...sociable. B smiled at me almost...shyly? My grin was still in position as I wrapped my arm around her neck.
"Hey Xan-Man. Red. Cordy. Oz...B..." I'd purposely said her name last, and more softly which made her blush deepen slightly. I'd seen her blush as soon as it had faintly appeared on her cheeks as we'd gazed at each other only moments ago.
"Hey Faith." She answered as Xan-Man smiled at me and Red simply made eye-contact then returned to Oz. Oz nodded and Cordy blanked me out. I figured Cordelia was the type of girl who hated competition. I also figured her eyes would have been unwillingly drawn to my dancing - and the guys - therefore putting me in her 'bad ass competition' books before I'd even spoken a word. Oz was a quiet guy anyway, I wasn't too fussed whether he responded to my arrival. I guess I felt the same way about all of their reactions to me being there, except B.
"Thought we could go for some slayin' before you called it a day B. What'dya say? Keep me company?" I grinned at her and leaned down to look at her cheekily. My arm still hung around her neck slightly. She sighed and looked at me with an unimpressed face - much like a mom when her kid was being bad. "Pleaseeeee?" My grin widened as I tried to look convincing. She couldn't help but laugh slightly at my expression and she sighed again - this one less tired out.
"Okayy...okayy...you don't mind do you guys?" She turned to her friends looking slightly concerned about what they thought; I on the other hand, couldn't give a shit if it was okay with them. I grabbed Buffy's hand and hauled her off the chair pulling her along. I shouted back to them over the blazing music.
"Thanks for your approval guys!" I grinned at the gang, Red narrowed her eyes at me. I dragged Buffy until we reached the back entrance of the Bronze into the alleyway. She wriggled her hand free of my grip.
"Hey! They're my friends! I just wanted to check!" She half smiled at me and was half being serious.
"Yeah B, your friends not your parents! Come on, you'd much rather have spent the whole night with me anyway. I could sense that from the first time I lay eyes on you in that place!" I grinned at her naughtily.
"Faith! I...I was having a good time..." She murmured unconvincingly. I raised my eyebrows at her.
"What, and you weren't thinking about last night at all then..." My grin turned into a slight smirk, I could tell her body was itching to slay, and after what happened yesterday her body felt so on fire and desperate that I felt almost proud.
"L-Last night...w-was an accident. It just happened. You should just forget about it! It's never going to happen again, alright Faith? So just forget it!" She became grumpy and irritated, storming forwards away from me.
"B!" I grabbed her arm and turned her to look at me. "Alright, I won't mention it. I was joking you. I can just tell you wanna slay that's all...come on, B. Don't stay mad at me." Her face softened and I grinned at her. She rolled her eyes and moved closer to me. I wrapped my arm around her neck and we walked down the alley.
"So girlfriend, where'd you wanna patrol?" I smiled.
"Faith..." She looked at me sternly.
"What I can't even call you -that- now? Buffy this is crazy!" I took my arm from round her neck and stopped walking. She stopped and turned to face me.
"It's not crazy! You shouldn't call me that or-"
"Or what? Your gang might ground you?" I was getting so angry, I wasn't even sure why. I think I feel...upset...? Upset...hmm...yeah I think this feeling is that. It hurts a little, but not like a wound...inside me it hurts. Did B say something that's making me feel this...? Was it about her response to last night?
"Faith, we need to stop all this!"
"All what?" I clenched my fists.
"Getting too involved! We...we shouldn't see so much of each other. It's not good for us." She folded her arms.
"No, B! It's not good for you! You don't give a damn what I feel! I'm just your slayer pal, oh let's go fight evil together like good little slayers right? Well no way! No way are you gonna tell me what's good for me!" I took a step back from her, this pain inside was expanding, very quickly. Buffy looked startled from my words, and maybe she felt hurt too?
"Fine then...if that's the way you feel. We won't slay together anymore. We won't see each other anymore. We won't train together. Fine!" She turned and I grabbed her arm again suddenly feeling...guilt...?
"Buffy..." I said her name softly; she turned around surprised that I'd called her by her full name. "Please...just don't go yet...Come back to the motel...we can talk...about this...please...?" My look softened, I was so confused at what I was doing - this wasn't anything like me at all! I was tough; I don't care about other people! Why do I care about her so DAMN much? This isn't ME!! Last night confirmed the changes...they'd happened slightly before last night...but here again I could tell, I was changing because of Buffy. We were changing each other...
_____________________________________________________
Hope You Like It :D Thoughts? xx