When people think of my worst rival, they automatically think, "Suki." Well... that's not true. Sure, her peppiness and happy-fun view on life gets annoying, and her sense of humor is a bit... umm... not humorous, but really, she's an alright kinda gal. We actually have fun when it's just the girls. What really gets me is when we're all together. The whole Gaang, I mean. It's when she's with HIM that I REALLY start getting annoyed. When they get all cuddley and kissy, I almost can't stand being in the same room as them.
I know what you're thinking. You're thinking that I should just get over it and get on with my life... The thing is, I've tried that. I've tried really hard. But I can't get over it.
Every time they lean in for a "secret" kiss, or to whisper in each other's ears, I feel it. I feel every vibration, every emotion.
I feel it.
And it hurts.
Badly.
So in reality, I guess my worst rival... my number one enemy is me. Myself. I. Why am I blaming myself? Why? Well... because... I don't know. Just because.
Because I didn't tell him when I had the chance... Because every time the perfect opportunity presented itself, I chickened out. Because beneath my tough, hard as rock, badass exterior, I've cracked. I've crumbled. I'm completely broken. I can't tell him how I feel... How I've always felt about him.
He's in love, but not with me.
So I'll just burry my emotions like I always have. I'll go on being his friend (BEST friend. At least I can claim that title). I'll be there when... if he ever needs me. I'll go on secretly hating my inner rival...
My bitter enemy...
Myself...
Hey, Friday Haze here! Just thought I'd have a go at the Tokka 100, so... Yeah! Please tell me what you think n' stuff!