Here we go again. More stupid bull-shit reasons to yell at me. Jake, our puppy, is barking and howling, because of the yelling. I sit and roll my eyes as he shouts at me. He's yelling about Mike again. My nerves are starting to unravel, I can feel the blood rush to my face. The puppy barks louder.
"Ugh! What the hell is your problem!?" I yell at him, standing. "What the fuck does Mike have to do with this? Can you just fucking drop it!?"
"No! that fucking tore me up! Do you know how much that hurt me?" he screamed.
"I MADE A FUCKING MISTAKE. I'M NOT PERFECT!! We weren't even together! You broke up with me!!!" I screamed back, tears starting to flow. Fuck I hate this effect he had on me.
"JUST BECAUSE WE WEREN'T TOGETHER DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO SLEEP WITH EVERYONE LIKE A FUCKING SLUT!" he screeched.
I was crying now. How could he say that? He looked pissed and then realization hit his face. I didn't even wait to see what he was going to say, I just walked up to our bedroom, grabbed a suitcase, and started throwing my shit inside. Bawling my eyes out the whole time. I heard Edward come behind me and start yelling again but this time about my packing. I ignoring him and grab my stuff from the bathroom. I pick up my cell-phone and dial Alice's number. Ironic isn't it? That Edward happens to be Alice's brother.
"Alice, p-please come a-and p-pick me up. I ca-cant stay here an-anymore." I cry to the phone, trying to breathe.
"Bella, your not going anywhere!" Edward shouts.
"I'll be there in two minutes." Alice says to me and then hangs up.
I stick my phone in my pocket and throw my suitcase downstairs, ignoring Edward. He grabs my arm but I shake him off. My sobs are so loud that they almost block him out. I put on my coat and picked Jake up off the bed and carried him down the stairs. Edward grabs my arm again and pulls me to him.
"Isabella, please stop this. Fuck! I'm sorry, you know I didn't mean it." He says giving me a desperate look.
I almost gave in when he used my full name, but this time he went to far.
"Fuck you Edward. I'm leaving." I yank my arm away and pick up my suitcase. I here Alice honk outside.
"Bella, you cant leave me…" he begs, tears glistening in his eyes.
I shake my head, letting the tears fall again as I take my bags out to her Porsche. She takes my bag and sticks it in her trunk and then takes the puppy from my arm, without a word. Alice gets in and starts the car. I start to walk around to the passenger side, but Edward is there again pulling me into him. He holds me and I break down.
"Bella, Bella, Bella." He mumbles into my hair. "Please don't do this. Don't leave me. I need you… I love you."
"Let me go Edward." I whisper, sobbing.
"Come back to me…" He pleads, still holding me. I shake my head. "Please…Please."
I pull my self from him and open Alice's door. This is the first time I had left him, we fought a lot, but it never got to the point were I had to leave. I cried silently placing one foot in the car.
"Give me some time to think Edward." I whisper and get in the car.
Alice drove off, leaving Edward by the road. She didn't say anything, just lets me cry. After a couple of minutes I stop crying and lean back against the seat with a sigh. Jake crawled onto my lap and licked my face, wagging his tail. I smile and kiss his head. We pulled into the grocery store lot and Alice said she would be right back. I just nodded and continued petting Jake. Alice came back with for bags and stuck them in the truck with my stuff. Once we were on the road again she started talking to me.
"So when did you get a dog? And why didn't I know about him?" She asked.
"We got him a couple weeks ago. Edward just brought him home for me. I named him Jake." I say quietly, smiling at the memory. Then frowned.
"He's cute" She smiles at me.
"Thanks." I say. An awkward silence overcomes the car.
"Bella… what are you going to do?" Alice asks, once we get to her house.
"I don't know… I love him, I really do, its just so hard." I say, grabbing my bag room the trunk.
"Well, we can think about that later. I bought Ben & Jerry's" she smiles.
I giggle a little as we made our way to the guest room. Jasper was out on a business trip so there was no one home. Alice stayed with me the whole night. We watched movies, ate gallons of ice cream, and talked, just like we used to when we were teens. We went to bed around 3 in the morning. I was grateful I had her, but I missed Edward. My heart throbbed when I thought of being away from him for long. And as I fell asleep I knew that I would forgive him. Maybe not right away, but I couldn't stay away from him forever. Because whether or I will admit it now I love him with my whole being… He's the one.