A/N: I haven't written anything in a few years and I'm not crazy about the title, but I couldn't come up with anything else, this is my first Full/Fuller House story, this is based off of Fuller House, and the episode titled Mad Max, when Stephanie tells DJ her secret. Stephanie always was and still is my favorite character. Here it goes!

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Jeff Franklin owns the scene that I respectively used.

April 2016

It's been about a month since DJ's husband Tommy passed away and a few weeks ago I moved in with my older sister to help raise her three boys, along with Kimmy Gibbler and her daughter Ramona. While I loved my nephews and my sister, my heart also ached from what I'll never have. Months ago I went through a tragedy of my own, and I didn't want to put the burden on anyone else, so I kept the sadness and the tragic event to myself. After all, it didn't really concern anyone else as I was living across the world and was distant from my family as it was. When my sister was in trouble, I knew it was time for me to step up and help her like she's helped me throughout life, well through everything except what happened a few months ago.

As I helped my sister with her boys, I began to get to know them better and really care and love for them. I realized what it was like to have someone depend on you, and look up to you for everything. I wanted that for myself, I wanted what my sister had but it would never happen for me. About five months ago, my life changed, and I still haven't told anyone about it.

After rocking out at Coachella, I was offered the chance to tour as a DJ, it was everything I ever wanted to do, but my heart just wasn't in it. My heart belonged somewhere it, it belonged with my family. It belonged at home. I knew that's where I was supposed to be, so I quit and went home.

"Hey what are you doing back so soon, your text said you were going to Italy!" D. J exclaimed as she hugged me.

"I was, but I don't know I got on the plane and everyone was already drunk and stupid." I said as I sighed. "I don't know maybe I've just outgrown the party scene."

"You passed up Italy?!"

"I don't know, I just got to thinking about everything I'd be missing here." I said softly as I looked over Tommy's crib. "You know I've already missed Max's first recital, Jackson's gonna start dating soon, and I definitely don't want to miss Tommy's first words, which we know are going to be I love you Aunt Stephanie." I said as I chuckled and looked down at a smiling Tommy, trying to hold back tears.

"Can't believe I'm hearing this from you." D.J was shocked but happy that I felt like this and that I was willing to stay home rather than go out and party, she never really approved of my carefree party life.

"I can't believe I'm saying this." I looked down at the floor, trying to hold back tears as my voice got more fragile and soft. "These kids have really snuck into my heart."

"Ooh look who's getting sucked into the vortex of motherhood."

"Yeah," I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, I had to tell D.J my secret as I walked away from the crib, I went over to the changing table to hold it, while I revealed a big part of my life to my older sister.

"Hey Steph, you alright?"

"I'm fine," I couldn't look at my sister just yet, I was trying to find something, anything at this point to focus on.

"No you're not." I looked back over at my sister, she had that concerned big sister look in her eyes, and I knew I could tell her. "What's wrong?" Suddenly I got nervous again and broke eye contact. I don't know why I was so nervous, it was already done, I was told there was no way of it ever happening for me.

"I really don't want to talk about it." I said with my voice shaky and tears on the verge of spilling out. I knew my sister wouldn't back off now, especially when seeing my facial expression.

"Hey whatever it is you can tell me."

"I can't have children." I looked at my older sister, and was completely crying at this point. Why was I so nervous to tell her again, maybe because she would think of me as different? D.J was shocked and saddened to hear the news, wrapping me in a hug.

"Oh Stephanie, are you alright?"

"I'm okay," I said kind of shrugging it off like it was no big deal. "I just found out a while ago it's just not going to happen for me."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I was in England, you just lost your husband, you had enough going on. And I wasn't really thinking about starting a family anyway, but then I moved in here, and I really got to know your kids, feel what it was like to have a family of your own. Things changed." I knew those weren't the only reasons, but I figured I would tell D.J another time, I was tearing up at this point, and D.J gave me another sisterly hug. We stood in a tight embrace until Ramona, Jackson and Max came in.