Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds. No copy right infringement intended. I am only borrowing the characters because they are the best.

A/N: First, sorry for the spelling mistakes or grammar problems. Next, Please bear with me on this story. It may not make much sense but it is just the prologue, so hopefully once the first part is up it will be better. I don't want to give anything away yet, so I'm going to leave it at that.

Anyway, as always I appreciate any feedback on my writing! Thanks.

Prologue

2012

How could she do this? Well he knew the answer to that. She was tired, no exhausted, physically and mentally drained. Something like this could actually kill you, it almost killed her. And now she will forever live with the aftermath.

He knew that she put of a façade, she was not coping as well as everyone thought she was. He knew she was trying to be strong for them after what had happened.

He just wished she would have been able to come to him. The first time she didn't ask for help and that blew up in her face. And now she was making another large decision that not only impacts him but the team as well. If she had talked to him, he could have helped her work through it.

Instead he was lost in the shuffle, forgotten, pushed aside. He wasn't the first one to know and that hurt him. He thought he could trust her after the first time. He thought they had history, but having something like it happen again he just didn't know how to react. He missed her already.

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She was so tired. She had no choice. This time or the time before. The first time she had almost died trying to save everyone rather than herself. But the second time it was her causing her own internal decay.

She needed to be free, if that meant stepping on toes, again or hurting feelings, again, she would do it. It may sound conceited but if she was dead what good is she to anyone else.

Hopefully they would all understand, hopefully he would understand. But she had seen it in his eyes and he was ruined. She had caused that pain for a second time. The guilt of hurting him would soil her being, but if she continued her life as she was she would end up hurting him anyways. Sometimes you needed to do it for yourself, not anyone else.

They had a woven history that united them from the start. Due her bond with him, she hoped that in the future he could forgive her.

A/N: Im still working out where this is going, so sorry for the upcoming delay.