TITLE: The Letter
They always said that you were weird. So I never went up to ask if you wanted to be friends.
You never knew how much I desperately wanted to be your friend. You never knew how I wish I was brave enough to distance myself from the stupid kids whom didn't want to meet someone new. I wish I had the guts to go up to you and claim you as my best friend.
Then we went into middle school. They said that I wasn't to have anything too do with you.
Because you were the rich ice princess bitch – and we; nay I; were just nothingness. That I wasn't even good enough to clean your shoes. So I keep my distance. I mocked, shunned, and made fun of you – to your face; or scream it across the play ground.
Junior high was a mess all around. I was the most awkward during that time. You seemed so put together – like you had the entire world on your shoulders; and you wanted even more to be added on. I wanted to finally go up and make you mine for always. But, than I craved into peer pressure of the group – and I turned my back on you.
When you started to date Kelso in Sophomore year, and started to hang out in Eric's basement; my heart broke into a million pieces. I just knew that I could never truly show you the real me – because if I did than I would lose what little friends I had than. No, that's a lie. I was afraid that I would lose myself competently when you turn your back on me.
That's why I shut my true self deep inside me. But that time in the car; when you dragged me in to discuss my first kiss with Eric. I saw into your soul that you truly wanted to be my friends. I decided to very slowly show you my true self. When you first pulled me into a hug – I wanted to just wrap my arms and never let go.
When you finally found out that Kelso had been cheating on you – and you broke up with him for good. You turned to me for the comfort that you needed - well after you found what you needed from Hyde. I treasured those moments that you just wanted to be in my arms – silent as you broke, and than put yourself back together again. Stronger than the last time.
When you fell madly, and deeply in love with Hyde – I never feared. I knew that you would never leave me behind. You haven't. Even when I decided to walk away from you – instead of waiting for you to walk away from me. You remained standing faithful right where I left you. Having your opens wide, and that beautiful and genuine smile just for me.
Jackie, I just wanted to say. Thank you for coming into my life, and never abandoning me.
~ Donna ~