"And now i'm a warrior, Now i've got thicker skin,

I'm a warrior, I'm stronger than i've ever been"

I slumped in my seat as I watched for my councillor, Jordan, to come in. My parents had said it was either rehab or this... So I went with this option... It seemed less painful. Leaving everything, Everyone just seemed too heartbreaking. I couldn't say goodbye to Joey, No matter how much he didn't care about me I still loved him... I always have and I definatly always will.

"Hello Lauren." I heard the blonde woman speak as she pulled up a chair in front of me and held a clipboard in her left hand followed by a pen in her right. "Do you understand why you're here today, My love?"

Her tone was so soft, So caring I felt like I could open up to her straight away. "I lost control, Lost my balance... and I fell. Deep." That was how I described my situation. It was like falling hard into a bottomless pit unsure of where it will end... You just keep going and going and nobody but yourself can help you out of there.

"I see." She swiftly made notes on the paper. "Do you know what things may have caused you to fall?" Her eyes connected with mine.

"My parents, My boyfriend, My friends." I listed quickly. "They all got too much... Too much to handle."

"Okay, Which one do you feel most comfortable talking about first?"

"Um, My friends I guess." I stammered slightly, I was nervious but somehow not scared anymore.

"Can you tell me what caused the tention between you and your friends?"

"Well, That's easy. They couldn't stand the fact that I was in love. Lucy, My so-called best friend, was always trying to split us up. She went to such extreme lengths to take him away from me, All because she wanted him for herself. She hated the fact that I was happy." I gulped and took a quick drink from the plastic cup of water next to me.

"And your boyfriend? Was he aware of what she was doing?" I saw Jordan look down at her paper.

"He's still oblivious right now. We were so happy, So perfect. Me and him were even going to run away together, But even that fell apart. He said he loved me, And I believed him." I chocked on my words as I thought about Joey.

"Run away together?" The woman pulled a confused expression in my direction.

"People didn't want us together, Our relationship was complicated. But it was real, I'm positive of that! He told me everything was going to be alright and that we would run away together and everything would be fine, But I crashed the car that almost killed us both." I felt a tear roll down my face.

"Um, Lauren... I think that's enough for today. I can see you're not copeing too well with this." Jordan slowly stood up.

"I'm fine, Honestly." I smiled slightly, brushing away the tears.

"No darling, You're not. I'll see you again next Thursday."

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I layed my body down on the sofa, I missed Joey so much right now... Talking about him earlier made me miss him. Ergh, I hate this... Hate Lucy!

"How was it, Sweetheart?" My mum stared at me from the door frame.

"Fine." I wasn't prepared to have a whole conversation about what happened.

"If you're sure." She moved away from the door and walked into the kitchen.

I needed to see Joey, I needed to tell him that I loved him. I quickly ran into the hall way, grabbed keys from the table and rushed out.

"Lauren?" I heard a voice as I slammed the door shut.

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"Uncle Jack!" I rushed over to him. "Have you seen Joey?" I got straight to the point.

"Not today sweetheart." Jack looked back at me. "Are you sure you should be out?"

I ignored the comment and ran down the high street. I saw him at the end of the street putting up posters on the outside of RnR.

"Joey." I called from behind him as he turned around.

"What are you doing here? Aren't you suppose to be resting?" Joey walked towards me and held me steady.

"I needed to see you." I blinked. "I love you Joey."

"Lauren, The feeling is mutal. But I dont think you're ready for this. You promised me you wouldn't drink... But you did." I felt Joey's eyes on me.

"I kept my promise. I was drinking coke. I swear! Lucy added the Vodka..." I felt a tear roll down my face.

"Shh." Joey kissed my forehead. "I believe you beautiful. Just go home, and rest."