Okay, I have decided to write a one-shot on Natsume and Mikan and having some sadness in this story, I tried to write something that could make you guys cry and all, like when I read you guys' story I have this feeling in my heart and throat and then my tears start to well up and stuff. But when I read this I didn't get this feeling at all, I don't know if it's because I was the one who wrote it or something, so I was wondering if you guys felt it. Hope you will enjoy this no matter how bad it is...Review!

I do not own Gakuen Alice!

So here it goes!...

Introducing... Eternal Happiness!

I still don't understand how things turned out the way they did. That unfaithful encounter that occurred and changed the fate of my life forever. I still don't understand how, after all these years, fate finally decides he's leaving me.

When I first met him, he was the arrogant jerk who loved to tease me. He was the jerk that had me stay up all night, thinking of ways to get back at him. He was that stupid jerk who took my first kiss. The jerk who I hated, the jerk who I started to care for, the jerk who I grew to love. We went to the same High school, ended up in the same class, and as partners even. The whole student body envied our relationship. I had always thought he never really liked me, but it turned out it was the complete opposite. I found out he was interested. Interested on how I was the only girl who could still resist him after so long, the only girl who wasn't afraid of him. When he asked me about it, I had told him I couldn't stay away from him because of his eyes. He was confused at first, it was the first time I saw him like that which I found amusing and cute.

I said I could see the loneliness in him, he doesn't like the way he is, but he couldn't help it. He wants to protect everyone and make friends but thinks it's better if he doesn't and should just stay away. There was so much more I could've said but couldn't when he cut me off with the most surprising question. He asked me out. To a date. I didn't know how to react or what to say, so he pulled me against him and planted a kiss on my lips. It was a simple kiss. It was gentle and soft... fulled with admiration and love. That was until he started to dig his hands into waist to deepen the kiss which then turned out to a complete make-out session. When we finally managed to part from each others lips. He looked at my blushing face before pecking my lips again and said he'll pick me up at 7.

That was the start of our love story.

We dated for a few more years and soon we were out into the world looking for jobs and a place to belong. I opened up my own bakery 'My Sweet Crimson-Boy', which Natsume often visited a lot and it was apparently not the cakes he was craving...

Natsume inherited his family's company - Hyuuga corporations. We planned on getting married in 3 months. In October. It was the month we meet each other and we thought it should be the month we decided to be together forever too. We've been together in more than one way already. But in the end I didn't know what it was that we had. Love? It felt like it. But love was only a four letter word that can easily be torn apart with one blow. Even if what I had with Natsume was love, fate never said it'll last forever. Who ever said, things couldn't change?

It was only a month before our wedding. I was beyond happy. But this was for a different reason. A child was proof of something that was going to be apart of both me and Natsume's love. I was already two months pregnant and I was ecstatic to tell Natsume the reason I left so abruptly during lunch yesterday. Natsume and I would finally have the family we both wanted, we both needed.

But the moment I got to the apartment we share, the feeling of coldness was already seeking through the creaks of the front door. It was worst when I got inside. The air was almost suffocating. I couldn't shed of the darkness that was seeping into my body. I immediately wrapped my arms around my stomach.

It felt so long ago, yet it only felt like yesterday.

The apartment was filled with a dark aura. Natsume was sitting in front of the TV, unblinkingly as I walked through the door. That wasn't the only thing I noticed. Natsume's once beautiful crimson eyes, the same eyes I fell in love with at first sight was shining not with love and care but complete with hatred and betrayal. I asked him what was wrong. And his voice, his velvet voice that always held a gentle tone to it froze my blood in seconds.

I don't know what had happened.

I just knew that this may be the last time I ever knew what love might be.

"Natsume?"

"..."

"Are you okay?"

His eyes that were transfixed on the TV turned towards me and glared, "Fine" before he turned back to the TV.

"Well, I have some good news to tell you"

"Hn"

"Natsume, Well... Natsume I'm pregnant!"

His head snapped towards me so fast, I flinched back a step. His eyes flared up with fire.

"Congratulations."

"W-What?"

"By the way, the movers are going to be here in about 5 minutes so invite that bastard of yours up here if you want."

Thinking about it now, I realized just how naive I was to think love could actually exist for as long as forever.

Natsume stood up and turned the TV off, "Keep the apartment, it'll be your congratulation gift from me. I hope you won't be disturbing me for money after this."

"W-What are you talking about Natsume? This is our apartment! What do you mean you're moving?! Y-You're going to leav-!"

"Yes! I'm going to fucking leave! What the hell did you take me for?"

"N-Natsum-"

"No. You do not get to humiliate me like that and then think that I will pay for your goddamn child and for your fucking bastard! Isn't this apartment enough already!?"

"Natsume! I have no idea what you're talking abou-"

A packet of photos flew across the coffee table. It was me. In a hotel. Naked. I wasn't the only one. The photo was clear, taken through the hotel window. I couldn't help the cry that escaped my lips, the photo even had my birthmark. This was what Natsume said he knew I did. No, thought I did. But the time taken... I was with Dr Serena. I went over to him and reached for his hands. He shook it off.

"Natsume, this isn't me!"

"Surprised?"

"N-No! Please Natsume! This isn't-"

"..isn't how it looks? Tch, I've hear that so many times I think it's about time to change excuses."

"No! Please Nats-"

"And to think that you were different Mikan. Special even. To think that you were the one who loved me, only for me! After all that time and effort I wasted on an idiot like you?! Why did you do it? Why couldn't you have just taken me and have enough?! Am I not enough?! How cheap could you get?! You dirty piece of shit!" Tears had started to slip down his eyes and he was so out of breath.

"Please! Listen to me!"

"I don't think there is a need to! You're a lying fucked up slut! I thought you loved me!"

"I do! Natsume! I do!"

"Yeah, and I can't believe I was stupid enough to fall for your goddamn tricks! You're just like all the others. Did you ever loved me? Liked me? Or was it just power, money and status?"

He didn't need an answer before he picked up his luggage bags and headed out the doorway. "N-Natsume please, I love y-you! So much! I can't be without you! Please, what about the baby?! Natsume!"

"Tch, I rather die tomorrow than touch you again. You and that devil inside you. Know you limits, no one wants a used up hag that only knows how to lie and beg."

I gabbed onto his arm, just hoping for my touch to get through to him like so many other times. "Please..."

It was a minute later before I registered what had happened.

His nails dug hard into my right cheek. The impact enough to cause my balance to distraught and sending me tumbling down. Hard. Into the corner of our dining room table. It was the first furniture we bought together so that our family can sit around it and have dinner. I guess it would also be the furniture to break us apart too.

I could feel my stomach do a flip under my palms. The pain was quick to stab through my body... What happened? I don't know. I did know that I dropped down to my knees not long after. The pain overwhelming my stomach, my head, my legs, everywhere. And the more horrifying part was he just stood there, watching me with those endless crimson droplets, watching me suffer, as I screeched for mercy. It burned my stomach. I begged for his help, I begged for anybody's help. Maybe he was right, maybe I only knew how to beg. He turned his back, opened the door and walked away. The whole world stopped turning then and only black remained.

What happened...?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~- Eternal Happiness -~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I woke up a few days later. I saw blank walls and ceilings. I couldn't move my body very well. What happened?... I wondered about that question ever since, everything just happened so fast. We were only 26. We were still young. So how could so much have happened? The doctor told me the child couldn't make it. The dead fetus grew infected in me, and now, there was never a chance for me to carry a child ever again.

I didn't feel sad though. I didn't know why either. The only view I payed attention to, was the view outside my window, to the garden where the kids play. The breeze always blowing slightly on my face. My friends visited me, but I never paid any attention to them, there was no point... I was lost, lost in my own little world. Always questioning. Always wondering what happened. What could've happened. The doctor had tried everything. But there just wasn't any energy left in me anymore.

They had me diagnosed. I had a rare illness. Not contagious, not harmful to my physical body. Just mentally. *Eternal Happiness. There was nothing that could be done. My friends stopped visiting after that, and I was left alone again. I was never allowed outside of the room either. It didn't matter. I completely forgot about the outside world. I didn't really care either. And because of that, I realized I had spent my whole life in that small blank room. It felt like I was left there, forever. Completely forgotten. Just like my love.

It was spring again. The kids had just finished packing up their playing equipment. The door crept opened, the doctor most likely doing another weekly checkup. I didn't move. Never moving, never talking. Just staring out the window, at the blossoming red flowers. After a few more minutes, the door creaked again, but this time it was closing. When it did, I turned around and caught a glimpse of raven. Raven hair. I still remember loud and clear the sound of the door closing that day. That day he left. People always leave. Nothing is forever. It's imprisoned in my mind. What did I do to deserve this?... What happened? He promised to this happy memory of us, promised he would make the memories worth while. We could've had a beautiful life together, but because of that...I knew we could never have done it. Things would never be the same. No, not again. I haven't seen him since. Maybe I did love him. But... I can see we were not meant to be. I knew it wouldn't be easy to forget him either. So, I ask to whoever is reading this, If you've ever seen this person or knows where he is now, please. Ask if he is doing well. Ask if he has found that special someone yet. If he is living his life without regrets. Is he happy with a family now?... Please, I beg you. If you find him, tell him no matter what, that I still love him and I want him to live his life with happy memories, with a loving family. I beg you, it is the only thing left I can do. As for me, I don't mind being forgotten. I'll just live my life, having this unfinished memory...

-Mikan Sakura, Age 83

*Meaning of Eternal Happiness*

Eternal Happiness is a rare illness you get when, you cannot handle shock or a life-changing event. It is said you would be forever trapped in your own thoughts, own world. You would never know how much time had passed or how much time is left. You wouldn't notice the changes or people around you. You would only play and replay the events that caused you to become like this, always thinking of ways to change it. Wishing it had changed. This illness allows you to imagine what could've happened instead. A happy ending. It gives you hope and happiness and love, but... in return for this eternal happiness, the life you had before would be forgotten. There will be no harsh reality for you to live in. It will be peaceful. However like most peaceful things, it does not last long before the darkness seeps back in. Death.

So whatever you do, live life to the fullest, enjoy every minute, forgive easily, don't give up what you love, fight for it. Don't ever fall into this dark curse...

Because, will you be willing to pay the price for

Eternal Happiness...?

Hope you enjoyed it! I got this idea when I was watching 'vampire princess', where she drinks their blood and in return they will receive eternal happiness. Just a little fan fic, I felt like writing. Hope you liked it, please review! Oh, and by the way, the illness is not real, just to clear things. I made it all up about the meaning.