Never should've let you go

Never found myself at home

Roderich stood by the door of his music room. Staring through the piano right into the window he has set open
Afraid to take a step inside since he was left to be alone in his huge mansion.

Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

He has not been inside this room for a couple of weeks now
Afraid that there will be too many memories in it
Afraid of the eyes that will not be there to watch him play

You were like my beating heart that i can't control

(Flashback)
Roderich sat peacefully in front of his piano letting the notes slip from his fingers filling the room with his music
Suddenly arms wrapped around the Austrian's waist
"Missed me ?" Gilbert asks in his natural cocky tone

Even though we've grown apart

At this moment Elizabeta would walk into the room and start chasing him with her frying pan.

Really they were both such children sometimes
I would leave them alone with their nonsense . . .

My brain cant seem to let you go

He'd start to visit less frequently
I ask him and he tells me he just doesn't want to face the wrath of eliza's frying pan

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night

The night was quiet except from the sound of my instrument
"Hey specs !" Gilbert's voice breaks through the room
Somehow i feel relived by his sudden appearance. . .

We use to mess around laugh and play fuss and fight

I saw him with Eliza laughing, not fighting .
They seem happy
I feel angry though i don't know why.
I feel betrayed

I guess its too late, I'm dancing this dance alone

He came again tonight
I shout at him
I turn him away
He seemed shocked and confused but i was just to angry to care

This chapters done the story goes on

I played furiously on my piano with the doors locked and every window shut

Baby can't believe that you are not with me

Elizabeta was my best friend
She was there when everyone else left
She comforted and cheered me up when i felt alone

Cause you should be my lady
All i want is to set your heart free

At some point we were in love
But that time is long gone
Right now the only thing i feel for her is anger and jealousy
Like she had stolen something that was meant for me

Snapping out this misery
Depression this aint me

I lock myself in my house knowing that if i go out i would see them or hear stories of them
Them together

But I always turn around
one hundred and eighty degrees

Stories of how happy they are together
How perfect they were for each other
How they were bound to get together in the end

You've got control of me that i can't explain

I sat there with feelings of helplessness and sadness
Of envy and betrayal

Somebody call 911 emergency before i go insane

He never visits anymore
And i know it was my fault for turning him away

Since you've moved on you took a piece of me give it back

Elizabeta would come by sometimes asking me what is wrong
I turn her away every time

So much pain in my chest blacking out heart attack

How could she be so clueless
Sometimes i just wish that i could shout it
That i could tell her
But i know that its not her fault

I guess its too late, I'm dancing this dance alone
Its too late

"I know you've been under the weather lately but it would mean a lot if you could come" She leaves after handing me an envelope

Baby can't believe that you are not with me

I cry not needing to open it to know what was inside
It was never supposed to be like this
I wish i could turn back time
Or at least turn her down

Cause you should be my lady
All i want is to set your heart free

I tear through the envelope right into the invitation
I couldn't stop my tears
The thought that i was the one who pushed them together was unbearable

And i see you with your man
And its hard to understand

I decided to attend the ceremony in the end
I felt sick but i couldn't convince myself to stay away

I sat far from the front
A small voice telling me to leap to my feat towards the altar

If i did you wrong
Where we even began

I knew i would never do that though.
And i know that he would not even consider coming with me
I was the one that pushed him away after all

We would always fuss and fight

The organ started to play
I was glad they hadn't asked me to play
Memories of the past suddenly flew into my mind

And it seems nothing was right
But i love you boy and you were my world

He would always come
Invited by no one but himself
Saying that i should be proud that he would even grace my prissy house with his awesome presence

But you never trust this guy
Cause the things i do when
I'm on the stage they say I'm a super star

He would burst in at the most unexpected times
Asking for the most outrageous things

You couldn't understand all the female fans
And then we grew apart

I snap out of my reverie when the bride walks in
She walks slowly in the aisle smiling as she passed every one

And i just don't get when your acting like some other person

She looked beautiful like always
But as i turn towards the groom i was struck with the most breathtaking image . .
Gilbert he looked perfect just as expected
It was surreal and the glow of the glass windows of the church made him look like an Angel

But i try my best to hold on at the times it ain't working

And for a moment it seemed that Gilbert's gaze flew towards me
He's crimson eyes shining with something I didn't understand

And every time they say its over it breaks my heart

But as soon as he's eyes had met mine they had left
I see he's now looking at Elizabeta

And i don't know why

He smiles at her and i couldn't take it anymore
I wanted to stand up and throw them apart
To suddenly confess the feelings i had been trying to ignore

'Cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try

I wanted to yell "Stop!"
But one look at their happy faces all those urges went away

You said we could work it out
How could you hurt me now

I settled for silently cursing them
Cursing Gilbert for giving up
Cursing Elizabeta for loving the one person that could make me happy

And you move on to the next
I'm left with an imperfect smile

I wanted for it to be over
I wanted to wake up and see that this is a nightmare
That the man I loved was not about to marry the woman who used to own my heart
I wanted to wake up with Gilbert next to me stroking my hair and telling me that everything will be fine
That it was all just a horrible dream

But if you believe that you belong with her

"Speak now or forever hold your peace. . ."
I hear the minister say
My stomach churns in anticipation
"Please someone . . " I whisper to myself hoping for something to happen

Promise me you won't let anyone hurt you

I stand up
Not saying anything i head for the exit
I couldn't gather enough courage to do it myself not if this is what will make him happy

remember i will always be here for you even if it kills me

(present)
Roderich enters the room after weeks away from his piano he finally gathers enough courage to open it again
His eyes closed relishing the tender voice of his piano
Tears rolling down his face as the memories he that kept him from playing came to him all at once

to see you in that wedding dress

Images of Elizabeta in her dress and wedding bells playing as she took him away from him

He knew that it was too late now
That his chance was gone
But still he left the windows open as he played
Hoping that he would see
And know that even if he had thrown him out before
He was welcome to come back
To listen to him play
To wrap his arms around him once more